Suicidal Thoughts .

AN : Warning : Contains references on ways of committing suicide . This is a horrible story but don't review if you are going to tell me you hate it .

After Jace finds out that he is still linked to Sebastian , he doesn't want to live anymore . Will Clary help him before he finishes what he tried to start weeks ago ?


I hate my life . It's true , even though I have an amazing girlfriend and a great brother and sister , everything has just gone wrong . Ever since we met Sebastian . I lost everything . The person who raised me , yes I realise that Valentine wasn't my father , but I still spent most of life living with him , learning from him , looking up to him . I lost Max , the one person who has always looked up to me , always wanted to be like me . An innocent little boy died because he got in the way of a plan . A plan to release a demon shadow hunter into the world . A plan carried out by the person I am bound to by blood . Sebastian . I don't think I can take this , he'll make me do things . To Clary , like in my dreams . I don't think I can handle that . Seeing it in my dreams was enough , seeing it in real life would kill me . I have to end it now , before he makes me do something bad . I'll die either way , but this way Clary won't get hurt . How could I do it though ? Rope ? No , that's too obvious . Wrists ? I could use my fathers knife . No , that's to risky , someone might find me before its over . Pills ? Maybe , its quiet and easy to hide . I'll just slipaway in my sleep . Okay . A trip to the drugstore it is then ...


AN : What is my obsession with pills and suicide stories ? Jeez , I'm messed up . Hope you liked it . Any ideas for the next chapter would be great .