Chapter 1: Prologue

Things have changed since I joined the new Team Avatar. Now, when I look at my reflection, all I see are the things I'm not. I'm not good at making people laugh. I'm not pretty without trying. I'm not a bender. I'm not the Avatar. I'm not Korra.

And it's because I'm not Korra, that Mako left me.

Since Amon was defeated, everyone has been hard at work trying to restore order and getting back to their everyday lives. For the time being, I've been staying at Tenzin's place trying to stay out of everyone's way. After all, the only reason I joined Team Avatar was because I was Mako's girlfriend. Now that I'm not Mako's girlfriend, I feel out of place. I keep myself busy by dealing with my father's company and the press. It's been a headache, but I'd rather be out and about than walking in on Mako and Korra exchanging lovestruck glances.

When I'm at Tenzin's house, I mostly hang out with Bolin. As much as he loves them both, I think seeing Mako and Korra together still makes him uncomfortable. He's a sweet guy, and he makes me laugh. Sometimes we go out to eat, and he points out cute girls until he gets so drunk on noodles that I actually convince him to talk to one.

...

"Hi." Mako averts his eyes and shuffles his feet.

"Hi." I swallow before trying to smile.

"Asami, I'm s-."

I cut him off, "I know. It's okay, I understand."

...

And I do. But that doesn't mean it doesn't hurt. Mako was the first boy I've dated that I've really admired. And now, he's dating the only girl I've ever been jealous of.

Jealousy. Is this really the type of girl I've become? I look at Korra's tan and my skin looks too sickly. I study her clean face and wish I didn't need makeup to look pretty. I watch her do all that she can do, and I feel weak.

"You're not weak, Asami," Bolin shoots me a bright smile, "You're one of the strongest people I've ever met. As hard as it is to understand, it's not you, and it's not me. Korra and Mako have something they can't control. They're as powerless to what they feel as we are."

I know Bolin is right. But I hate not being in control. I hate change. And these last few years have shown me how fast things change and how little control I really have. I can't make my mom come back to life. I can't take away my father's hatred. I can't have Mako.

I know all of these things. By now, I should have accepted them. But I haven't. I'm jealous. I'm angry. I'm sad. And even though a part of me wants Mako and Korra to be happy, another part wants to make Mako as miserable as I am.


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