This takes place after Edward leaves Bella in New Moon.
I do not own any of the characters.
Pain. Pain so deep and darker than the forest. It eats at me and keeps me sheltered.
...months...
(Forks high)
Bella's POV
"So I heard that Mike asked Jessica out to make Bella jealous. Which obviously won't work cuz' she's still love sick over Edward. I mean how stupid can Mike be? Doesn't he know when to leave well enough alone?" A voice whispers.
I stopped from turning the corner to listen to what else they would say but silence greets me. As usual. Ever since the incident, I've been outcasted. No one to talk to and no one to care. To them I'm just a girl who got obsessed with a Cullen who was most obviously out of my league. I mean can I blame them? It's true. How could a Cullen even pretend to love me. I'm nothing but a human, one they had obviously tired of.
How could someone love me? Someone with bland looks, bad fashion sense, no sense of dexterity at all and even worse had no social life. No one could love me for who I am. If they did they'd love me for someone they thought I was. And see here I am. Being all depressing. No wonder no one talks to me. Well at least Charlie doesn't know that. He thinks I'm slowly but surely getting over it. And I am. I'm learning to accept myself for who I am. I accept that I wasn't good enough for Edward, but its ok. I always knew one day I'd wake up and he'd have this look on his face. And that would tell me all I needed to know. That I wasn't welcome in his life anymore.
I sigh and walk to class, but none of it makes sense. The board all blurs together and I finally can escape and continue on with my meaningless life as the bell rings.
(Home)
From: Mom
To: bella_swan13
Bella? I just wanted write and tell you some good news. Phil got picked for a team in Florida and is going to start looking for a house down there. I think you would like it. It's nice and warm there. I'm hoping to get a house with a swimming pool. You could lay out in the sun and tan... Lol Jk well you could at least go swimming and enjoy the sun even if you don't get a tan. So what do you think kiddo? You wanna move to Florida with your old mom? Lol
Love you Bella
Hope to hear from you soon.
To: Mom
From: bella_swan13
Hey mom. I got your email. yah right. Tanning? Do you have a death wish for me? And your not even close to being old so don't even try that missy. But mom. I think I'm gonna stay here. The weathers actually grown on me and I couldn't possible leave Charlie to fend for himself. Plus there's so much going on with school that I couldn't possibly just bale out on my friends. You know Jessica and Angela and mike and Tyler and well you know I would miss them too much. I just wanna fish my High school career here. But I'll def. come visit.
Love you mom
A tear drips down my face. It's so hard to pretend. It's hard to pretend like half my heart isn't missing. I just need to make it a little while longer and maybe I'll actually be able to be sane someday. Maybe. Just maybe.
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