Monster

Summary: My name is Haruno Sakura and there's a monster inside me...

Basically a 'what if' story if Sakura was the Kyuubi vessel.

Prologue

Monster

The secret side of me
I never let you see
I keep it caged
But I can't control it
So stay away from me
The beast is ugly
I feel the rage
And I just can't hold it

I hear the whispers on the street. It's no secret what they're talking about. I know they hate me. And now, after what happened with Iruka-sensei, I also know why.

I sigh. The nine-tailed fox. What did I do, I wonder, to deserve that burden...

Don't get me wrong, I understand that the Fourth did it to protect the village, but what I don't understand is why me.

The old man says it's because I was a special baby. But I don't really understand that either - how can a newborn be special?

Now that I think of it, there are many things I don't understand. It's kinda hard to do so when you don't have parents to explain things to you. I really wish I had my parents with me. Old man says that they went on a one-way trip, but I know better. My parents are dead.

Lost in my thoughts, I don't notice that I'm in front of the classroom's door until a low voice demands,

"Move"

No 'please' or anything.

Just a simple 'move'.

I wordlessly step away from the door.

Uchiha Sasuke.

I unconsciously wonder if he knows about the demon inside me.

No, I think, Only few people know and they're high-ranked ninjas.

Without thinking more, I walk in the classroom too. I take my seat, which happens to be next to Sasuke-san.

I hear gasps from the female population of the class. Fangirls.

They often glare me, threaten me or mock me, but I'm not mad. They're just naïve. Their world is all about boys. They don't know what the real world's like.

Soon a familiar blonde walks in the room.

My twin brother. Or should I say ex-twin brother.

The Uchihas took him to live with them. They didn't adopt him but they're feeding him, taking care of him...

The old man asked them if they would take me too, but Sasuke's father refused.

I can only imagine how happy are they that they saved a poor boy from his demonic twin sister. They can ride off to the sunset for all I care.

Naruto sits next to me. We used to be pretty close, but I guess he hates me now. After all, five years with a clan that does surely can do that even to my own brother.

After few minutes Iruka-sensei comes in the room and smiles at us. The difference is that this time he doesn't look at me with disgust.

A new feeling arises in me. Hope.

If Iruka-sensei can stop hating me, then other people can too.

He starts announcing the teams.

I tense as I hear my name,

"Team 7: Uzumaki Sakura, Uzumaki Naruto-"

I suppress a smile. Because no matter what I say, I love my brother. He is... was the only person left for me, after all...

Cha! exclaims my Inner He's a Uzumaki! Not a Uchiha! Always been, always will! Remember that!

You see, I have a split personality. And add the Kyuubi...

"and Uchiha Sasuke."

I facepalm.

Seriously?!

"Yipee!" I exclaim dryly in my head

After three hours of torture, our sensei finally comes and tell us to meet him on the roof.

Once we're there he says,

"Now, let's introduce ourselves."

Naruto tells him to go first and the only thing we learn is his name.

Sasuke's next.

"My name's Uchiha Sasuke. I like tomatoes, training and hanging out with my brothers - Itachi and the dobe. I dislike fangirls. My hobbies are like my likes. I dream to surpass Itachi."

I close my eyes, wincing again.

"I'm Uzumaki Naruto, believe it! I like hanging out with Teme and ramen! I dislike waiting for the ramen to get ready. My hobbies are tasting new kinds of ramen. My dream is... to be one of the strongest ninjas in the world! Believe it!"

The three are now looking at me, waiting to start with the introduction.

I take a deep breath,

"My name is Uzumaku Sakura. I like... flowers. I dislike-"

I would say I dislike people, who judge the book by it's cover, but that would mean that I dislike more than half of the village and I certainly don't. So I settle for-

"-betrayal. I dislike betrayal. My hobbies are hanging out with Hokage-ojiisan and Iruka-sensei. My dream is to become a Hokage! Shannaro!"

I finish with a fist in the air.

"That's an interesting dream." concludes Kakashi-sensei "Why exactly do you want to become a Hokage?"

"Because then people will respect me. They won't judge me for what's inside me, they'll see the real me. I won't have to hide or be afraid. I'll be loved."

After my little speech, I realize I said all of this in my head.

Out loud, I just say "I have my reasons."

"O~kay. Tomorrow we'll have a survival test. Out of all graduates, less than the half will become genins. Oh, and don't eat breakfast. If you do, you'll puke."

And he was gone with a 'Poof!'

Naruto walks to me almost shyly,

"Sakura-chan... I- I want you to know that you're still my sister even though we don't talk as often as we did."

I'm about to reply, but Sasuke-san interrupts me,

"Dobe, don't talk to her. Let's go."

I flinch as he addresses me so roughly. Secretly I hope that the blonde will stand up for me and I feel a bit better..

"I'm coming, teme. It's not something important anyway." says Naruto

The pain comes again with full force.

"You say I'm still your sister, Naru-Naru" I start, using the nickname I gave him in what seemed like ages ago "but it doesn't feel that way..."

I leave.

When I'm at home a tear falls down. Soon it's followed by many more.

"Sometimes, I really feel like I'm the monster..."


A/N: Hi, everyone! I've wanted to post this awhile ago and -ta daaam- I did! Can you tell I'm super-hyper-mega excited? Well, I am!

Anyway, please review. Constructive criticism - appreciated. Flames - not appreciated.

By the way I already have the next chapter written so it's just a matter of time to update. It's called New day. New life.

Love,

Berry