TIME HEALS NO WOUNDS

SUMMARY: After fleeing town of three years ago Paula comes back to face her demons and rediscover her past.

DISCLAIMER: I wish to hell I owned these characters - but I don't. Every single last one of them (except for Macy) belongs to Channel 7 and I am in no way affiliated with them. Doesn't life suck?

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The taxi halted to a stop.

"Fifteen dollars even Miss." Said the driver from behind the plastic screen.

Paula dug into her purse, whilst quickly calculating the tip and pulled out seventeen dollars and dropped the money into his hand through the whole.

"Keep the change."

"Thank you, have a nice day." He droned.

She slung her bag over her shoulder and climbed out of the car and watched as it sped off, almost colliding with an oncoming ambulance.

She turned her attention away from the vehicle and gazed at the building that stood in front of her. All Saints General Hospital. It held so many memories. It had all started so well, first with casual shifts and then with the help of Surgical Registrar Luke Forlano landing a job as a nurse on Ward 17. She had cherished the comfortable and friendly environment, the friendships and the job. She had entered the ward, the beautiful blonde glow of perfection.

But the longer she worked there and the more challenges she overcame the more of her true self shone through. Still the beautiful blonde goddess, but a human who had more than her own share of problems as everyone soon found out. A one-night stand that consequently had her fall pregnant at nineteen was just the first hurdle of many.

The man she loved died in the surf and the one who fathered her child left her after he heard the news. Without the support her mother showed to her and her son Max she would never have made it through. Back on the current front, one by one more problems had seemed to arise.

First her son had been diagnosed with ADHD (Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder) and as much as she tried to deny the fact she finally faced up to the problem, finally having to resorting to pills to maintain the condition. Then she had so foolishly fallen for Ben, the hunky ambo and ex- fiancé of her colleague Bron. The couple gave in to lust, which she had mistaken for love. It had caused a permanent rift between the two workmates, which in the end proved unnecessary as she found out that she had only been a rebound from Bron, who finally found her way back into the man's arms she loved.

From then it had been a downward spiral. Her mother had died suddenly from a heart attack leaving her as well as distraught and upset, petrified and completely and utterly alone. She had depended on her mother for a lot of the childcare and transport and just for support. She couldn't afford childcare and found herself begging to parents of the other children or when that wasn't possible forcing Max to hang around the hospital before and after school whilst she worked.

Exhausted and still grieving, she had been out at a club one night drowning her sorrows, and too drunk to know what was happening was raped in the parking lot. She fell pregnant and that on top of grieving and being worn out become detached from her work and made a horrible mistake that had left a patient's life hanging in the balance.

Although Terri the NUM (Nursing Unit Manager) knew and understood her circumstances she still couldn't dismiss the incident and had to let her go. Even though Paula knew she had made a mistake, and an error of judgement, it still hurt so much, that even though Terri knew she was a single mum, had just lost her own mother and had just been raped and fallen pregnant that she still fired her - I mean surely there could have been a way around it? But despite her anger and pain, immediately she had signed up at a temp service getting jobs her and there, as a secretary. But they weren't enough to make ends meet and when they couldn't pay the rent; they were kicked out of their home and had moved into a refuge.

Suddenly Paula found herself so in over her head that she couldn't see, it was just all a blur. She found it hard to make it through the day. Everything seemed so worthless and so unimportant. More days than not, she found herself thinking about comitting suicide. How much easier it would be if she could just leave. Most likely from dehydration and fatigue she miscarried her baby at seventeen weeks and had been admitted to none other than Ward 17, All Saints General Hospital. Terri had offered help but Paula had felt so hurt and betrayed by her that she refused every offer.

After being discharged she had fled town with Max and hadn't been heard of ever since. That was three years ago. How things had changed. She had driven right across the country to Perth, sleeping out of her car with her son, temping until she managed to get a job as a nurse at a District Medical Center that charged what could be afforded. One thing had led to another and she had been transferred to Princess Margaret Children's Hospital as an enrolled nurse/RN and then had been promoted to Senior Nurse, 2IC and then just a couple of months earlier to NUM.

Meanwhile her son deeply scarred by all the tragedy and trauma he had endured was playing up even more than he had without his pills and caused trouble wherever he went. After one particularly nasty accident at school, he had attacked Paula, flying into a wild rage pushing her and almost drowning her in a lake before sweeping on a rampage through the local deli, shoving people wherever he went and wreaking havoc in the local mall. He was eventually caught by a social worker on a break and turned into DOCS. Paula meanwhile had been found and was in hospital being treated when she found the news. Paula loved Max dearly but she couldn't admit even to herself that he had just become too much for her. He had been handed over to DOCS and placed in a foster home where Paula had visitation rights. She treasured the visits dearly but it hurt her every time as he grew more distant and detached for her. She persevered though and finally after proving her security was granted custody of Max.

She then purely by mistake managed to meet Max's father's mother who tearfully informed her that he had been killed in the line of duty in his job as a firefighter. She had only met her a couple of time but she had taken Paula in as her own daughter and helped look after Max and even though Macy could never replace Paula's own mum and she knew she would never live up to Michael, she was as great as mother-in-law's go.

Finally after years in overdrive she was finally able to relax for a moment and think about what had happened. It seemed like so long ago that it all had happened in Sydney and there were some things she regretted and wished she could do again. No matter how good things became in Perth she always had the lingering feeling of her unfinished business in Sydney. She had fled her home a disgrace, leaving loose ends and broken friendships. Which is why she was back; back in Sydney and back in All Saints.