What is Not to Be Thought About
"I love you. I love you. Jemma Noooo. " Fitz woke up in a cold sweat it's been almost two weeks since he watched his best friend sacrifice her life to save him and the others. Even though they mange to save he was still sacred. He couldn't forget the look of determination on her face. The fact that she would give her life for him didn't surprised him but the fact that she would give her life to save people she barely knew. Jemma is a nice person and all but he the thought that she would do that never crossed his mind. It terrified him to think that if she would give up her life for her team now it scared him to think what she would do in the future. There were two many what ifs. What if Ward couldn't save her?What if the antiserum didn't work? What if he had to jump to save her? What if they had misjudged the time and she died on the plane with everyone else? What if he was the one that had been infected ? Would he have to guts to make the jump? Fitz knew sleep was impossible now so. He decided to get some water. " Shoot " He said as he stubbed his toe in the dark. " Fitz" said a voice that he has come to love. " Yea it's me Jemma" " You couldn't sleep? " she asked trying to keep her voice steady. It was clear to Fitz that she had been crying. " No I keep. ... " but Fitz couldn't finish. So Jemma did it for him. " see me falling. Yea you and me both. " "Are you ok ?" He asked and for once in her life Jemma let's her shield down " No " " I'm not either Jemma. There is to many what if in my head. You know I was going to jump after you. " At this Jemma's eyes lit up " Now I didn't know that. Why would you do that you bloody idiot. " she said as she raised her voice. " Me a idiot. Jemma you jumped out of a bloody plane. I could have lost you. I could have lost the only girl I ever loved. " At this his voice cracks. "You love me?" She says her voice matching his. "Yes I do but what if I didn't get the chance to say that." " Fitz " she said " There are to many what ifs in life. I guess we'll never know and I and thankful for that and it's not to be thought about" she says as she moves in his embrace crying as he is. " I love you Leo." " I love you to Jemma. " he said as he kissed her passionately. Fitz mostly, never thought about what ifs about anything even that day but he couldn't help wonder as he smiles at his wife and daughter, what if that night never happened?
