Well. This is kind of weird and spontaneous, but I have no shame; I'm actually proud of it. It's kind of vague, actually. But please read and enjoy!
A coward and a killer
That's all I'll ever be
And I would never blame you
If you turned away from me.
For how can I be loved
When I even hate myself?
And how can I be normal
When my head's a living hell?
Please don't think it's really strange
If I think that you're too kind
For no one's ever been that kind
Even within my own mind.
My shadow tells me all about it
Everything that's wrong
And he tries to convince me
That I won't be human for long.
And I'll ask him "Was I ever?"
And he replies "Never."
Never?
Was I never a real child?
Have I only been a fool?
Did she only birth and raise me
As her living tool?
Is this whole mental condition
Something of her fabrication?
Something she inflicted on me
To create her own new nation?
The terrible part is that
I always did what I was told
Not because I craved redemption
Not because I'm bold.
The truth is that I'm terrified
Scared every minute of my life
Scared of what is in my mind
Scared of what I will become
Scared of what I've left behind.
That's the only explanation
As to why I spilled that blood
It's because if I had let them
Those people would have done good
And good is bad
Or the other way 'round
I can never remember
What I found
Whatever she told me
Is lost in my mind.
What she wants me to do
I never can find.
I'm so confused and tormented
Lost and so alone
Because this hell that I've invented
Has become my home.
A coward and a killer
That's all I truly am
And if I continue on this path
I'll certainly be damned.
But if I stop I'll be afraid
I don't know how to deal with that.
The worst part is that I know why
It's all because my blood is black
Stained with the lives that I have taken
And can never give back.
This makes me wish I was never born. XD P
Please tell me how you liked it, if you liked it, if it sucked, if it sucked a billion, whatever.
-Squeeb
