Well. This is kind of weird and spontaneous, but I have no shame; I'm actually proud of it. It's kind of vague, actually. But please read and enjoy!


A coward and a killer

That's all I'll ever be

And I would never blame you

If you turned away from me.

For how can I be loved

When I even hate myself?

And how can I be normal

When my head's a living hell?

Please don't think it's really strange

If I think that you're too kind

For no one's ever been that kind

Even within my own mind.

My shadow tells me all about it

Everything that's wrong

And he tries to convince me

That I won't be human for long.

And I'll ask him "Was I ever?"

And he replies "Never."

Never?

Was I never a real child?

Have I only been a fool?

Did she only birth and raise me

As her living tool?

Is this whole mental condition

Something of her fabrication?

Something she inflicted on me

To create her own new nation?

The terrible part is that

I always did what I was told

Not because I craved redemption

Not because I'm bold.

The truth is that I'm terrified

Scared every minute of my life

Scared of what is in my mind

Scared of what I will become

Scared of what I've left behind.

That's the only explanation

As to why I spilled that blood

It's because if I had let them

Those people would have done good

And good is bad

Or the other way 'round

I can never remember

What I found

Whatever she told me

Is lost in my mind.

What she wants me to do

I never can find.

I'm so confused and tormented

Lost and so alone

Because this hell that I've invented

Has become my home.

A coward and a killer

That's all I truly am

And if I continue on this path

I'll certainly be damned.

But if I stop I'll be afraid

I don't know how to deal with that.

The worst part is that I know why

It's all because my blood is black

Stained with the lives that I have taken

And can never give back.


This makes me wish I was never born. XD P

Please tell me how you liked it, if you liked it, if it sucked, if it sucked a billion, whatever.

-Squeeb