97. Don't Forget
There was only one hesitation Ciel had about Sebastian taking his soul. He didn't want to be forgotten. It was a bigger fear than he would let on. Would the world forget Ciel Phantomhive, young Earl who made a miraculous come back from a tragic situation and managed to turn the Phantomhive name into something, something other than being the Queen's Guard Dog. Would Tanaka even continue to run the toy company after he was gone? Or would that fall with the Phantomhive legacy? What about the rest of his staff?
The new ruler of England will never have even heard of him. Or perhaps he would be known as the traitor who killed the Queen. Though he doubted as much. They would find some poor sap to blame for it. It was the English way, at least as far as he had known it. Once upon a time it would have been his job to find that poor sap and fabricate the evidence to prove he'd done it.
There was no heir to be left behind. Elizabeth would never marry him He couldn't even leave a widow to carry on his name until her own death. She would be heartbroken, Ciel was sure, but for how long? In another five, ten years the Marquis will have found another suitable husband for her. Would she remember him when she had a new family of her own? The idea of Lizzy forgetting him was almost too much.
The one that worried Ciel most was Sebastian. The demon had been such a central figure in his life during the most crucial time, but it was hard to believe he had been to the same to Sebastian. A demon's life was so long, and Ciel was just a small fragment in it. But if anyone was going to remember him, it should be Sebastian. Sebastian had made Ciel who he was today, had made him someone who should be remembered. Out of anyone Ciel hoped Sebastian would never forget him, even if that hope was futile.
"Will it hurt?'
"I'll be gentle."
"No. Make it painful to your heart's content. I want the pain of living to be carved into my soul."
"Yes, my Lord."
