TITLE
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TITLE:
Fade To Blue - Part I
AUTHOR:
Abilene Keegan
EMAIL:
Abilene_Keegan@hotmail.com
RATING:
PG
SYNOPSIS:
Luka confronts Abby with his feeling about
their
relationship or lack-thereof. Luka/Abby.
DISCLAIMER:
The following is a story of fiction based
on
characters created and owned by Michael Crichton
and
NBC.
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P
A R T I
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I
think I know how the story's going to end
It's
getting to the part where heartache closes in
The
stage is set and it's time for me to leave
Cause
I don't want to see the final scene
Fade
to blue
We
didn't make it through
Let
the hurt unfold
And
fade to blue
-Unknown, Fade To Blue
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Luka
walked very silently into the lounge as to not alert the woman already
in there. Quietly he walked up behind her. She was standing
in front of the coffee pot just staring down at it, oblivious to his presence
in the room. Remembering an old American tradition he lifted both
his arms up and, reaching out in front of her, gently covered her eyes
with his hands.
"Guess
who?" He smiled down at the back of her head. He could
feel a smile forming on her face as well.
"Ummm...
Judging by the accent I'd have to say that tall, dark, and most hansom
Euro doctor we have working here in the ER." Luka removed his
hands and she turned around to face him.
"Close
enough." He stated smiling down at her, then a thought occurred
to him. "Euro doctor? You've been talking with your
mother haven't you?"
"Guilty
as charged." He nodded his head knowing that this was the
reason she'd been so absent minded today. Still, even this
confused him. Although Maggie was far from being Abby's favorite
person, he'd thought they'd cleared things up.
"How's
she doing? She still on her meds?" As he asked the
question he could already see the barriers around Abby going up.
And so it begins, he thought to himself.
Over
the past few months, ever since his encounters with the bishop, he'd come to
realize that he had been holding onto a family long gone. And so
he'd recently been trying very hard to let them go. In fact, he
was sure, he'd pretty much succeeded. But in letting go of his
past, in letting go of his family, he'd had to look at his present a lot
closer. That's when he realized the trouble his relationship with
Abby was in. And that's when he realized how much he didn't want
to lose her.
With
this revelation Luka suddenly started to pay a lot closer attention to
their relationship and to Abby herself. He'd become a lot more
sensitive to her feelings and now knew most every time something was
bothering her. However to his heartbreak, he also knew that every time
that happened she seemed to disappear and, mysteriously, so did Carter.
"Um,
yeah I guess so. She sounded okay." With that Abby
turned around and started to pour herself a cup of coffee.
"She's talking about coming for a short visit soon."
Luka's attention was at high alert. He needed to keep her open to
him. To keep her talking. He was certain that if she'd open
up to him about just one problem in her life then she'd come to realize
she could talk to him about anything.
"So
soon." Truth was, Luka didn't know what to say exactly.
He didn't want Maggie visiting. Abby had seemed to be a little
happier since her departure to Minnesota and he didn't want Maggie
showing up and ruining all that.
"Yeah,
I guess." She didn't seem to keen on this idea either, Luka
thought as he watcher her take a sip of the coffee she'd just poured.
"And
how do you feel about this?" With that said Luka was almost
certain he had not only felt the wall go up but had seen it being built
brick by brick around Abby. She began walking towards the door.
"I
don't know. Fine. Why wouldn't I be fine with my mother
visiting me?" She had reached to door. Luka needed to
come up with something quick. Something that would stop her.
"Going
to find Carter?" Okay that wasn't the something he had in
mind. Abby turned around and faced him. Great, he'd started
this now how does he end it without getting into a huge fight with her.
"Excuse
me?" Then again, maybe a fight is what was needed. If
it would bring this issue to light.
"Well,
I assume you'd want to talk with him about this. After all you
couldn't possibly talk with me about it, now could you?"
"Luka
what are you talking about?" Her voice was a mix of anger and
astonishment. Had she really never expected him to bring up the
issue? Had she figured he hadn't even noticed that every time his
girlfriend had a problem she went running off to another man to talk
about it. Luka was certain that somewhere in there she was
violating the code of being faithful to ones significant other.
"You
know what I am talking about Abby." He let it all sink in for
a moment and watched her reaction. Problem was her only reaction
was no reaction at all. He couldn't tell what she was thinking or
feeling. Her face was a blank mask.
"I
am so sick of it." He continued and suddenly his emotions
were coming out into the open to pay greeting to his already emotionally
distressed girlfriend. But he didn't care, this had to be
said. "I am so sick of you going to him every time you need
someone to talk to, as if I weren't even here. Do you not consider
how I may feel about that? It is not the proudest thing knowing
that my girlfriend won't even talk to me about her problems."
Luka's heart almost broke as he watched a tear slip down her
cheek. He'd caused that tear. Still he had to
continue. This had to be said cause if it didn't end...
"If
you're not willing to talk to me Abby, then your not willing or ready to
have a relationship with me." Abby was about to say something
but he cut her off quickly. He wanted her to think about this
before she decided where he truly stood in her life. He knew where
she stood in his. And with that he found himself uttering three
words he'd never said to her before.
"I
love you." He knew those words would only succeed in causing
him greater pain if she did decide to leave him. By the stunned expression
she gave him though he was glad he had said them, she needed to
know. "I want to be with you. But if you can't learn to
be with me... emotionally, then there's no chance for us. So
please, figure it out so that we both can move on with our lives."
With
that said, Luka walked past Abby and out of the room.
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We
played the part of lovers
Knew
every line by heart
But
sometimes love can't erase what is written in the stars
So,
before the bitter words come crashing down
Lets
see what's left and let the lights go out
And
fade to blue
We
didn't make it through
Just
fade to blue
-Unknown, Fade To Blue
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