So my hope is that by writing this I can help myself heal and I can help someone else to. So this isn't what happened to me word for word some things are the same some I changed. Its brotherhood AU because I love the idea behind it and Caleb is an awesome big brother in my opinion. Cale is my original character. Please be careful reading as there are some traumatic parts, deals with self-harm, and sexual assault. Although I won't and can't go in detail you can put 2 and 2 together. I hope we can all be like Cale one day.
"Caleb! Give it back!" Cale screams at her brother. "No way, I'm older so I get to pick what we watch" Caleb replies, ignoring the go to hell look his sister gives him. "By five minutes, that doesn't even count" Sometimes Cale wishes she was an only child. "Guys can you not yell in the house?" John Winchester sighs as he snatches the remote from his young protégés grasp, "And I'll take that" A much needed break is appreciated after the long hunt for the wendigo the last thing he wants to hear is the bickering of teenagers, although for once his own children were being quiet, Caleb, and Cale were spending much needed time together during the summer break but John was pretty sure they were going to drive the triad insane with the constant fighting.
Summer at the farm usually meant swimming, fishing, and training. Although Cale usually managed to sneak away from any real training she could hold her own in a fight with most people twice her size. But Caleb was still able to best her and usually did. They were currently wrestling for the prime seat in the farm house living area. "Caleb that's not fair, you're bigger than me. John tell him to get off." Cale states while glaring at the knight and trying to get out from under Caleb. "Use your weight to throw him off princess, just like I taught you" Is Johns answer. "Don't call me princess" Cale replies with a huff as she flips Caleb over.
"Does no one answer the phone anymore?" Pastor Jim asks Dean as he and Sam walk thru the door the pastor held open. They had been fishing at the pond. "Hello, yes hold on a minute Matthew I'll get her" the pastor responds on the phone. "Cale, Matthew is on the phone my dear." The pastor yells to his young charge. "ewwww better go answer your boyfriend sis" Caleb replies obnoxiously. "Shut up" is Cales reply as she once more flips her brother and runs to the phone, while using a rather obscene hand signal that would get her in trouble if anyone other than John had noticed.
"Hi matt!" Cale practically sighs into the phone. Matthew is her first real boyfriend, he lives up the road from the farm and his family is well known at Pastor Jim's church. Puppy love is what Bobby called it, Mac isn't too happy that his 15 year old daughter is dating someone but as long as Jim thinks he's a good boy and Cale is happy he deals with it. "Yes I can meet you at the diner, at five? Sure. No I'll get someone to take me" Cale replies to the voice on the other end of the line. Caleb isn't too happy that his sister is going on a date instead of spending time with him, the separation hasn't been easy on them attending different schools and living in different states isn't ideal but he knows that Cale likes the peacefulness of the country.
"So you're going out?" Caleb asks as Cale hangs up the phone. "Yes I'm going out on a date" She replies as she eyes Caleb leaning against the door frame of the kitchen. "Are you sure it's ok to be alone with him. I mean how well do you really know him?" Caleb says absently as he picks at the frame of the door way. Cale is used to this her brother tends to be overprotective like most of the people in her life. She keeps telling them she can handle herself. "I'm sorry Caleb but I won't be gone long, I promise" Cale says as she races up the stairs to get ready.
She knows she should stay with Caleb they only have 2 weeks left before Mac and him go back to New York but Cale wants to be a normal 15 year old girl not a psychic girl for once. Little does Cale know that instead of a typical harmless date, her life will forever change after this afternoon. She will look back on this day many times over the next several years and notice clues that she should have seen before. She will blame herself for ever leaving the safety of the farm and she will be mad at Caleb for not stopping her from going. But mostly she will blame herself. She will change her attitude, her style, the way she dresses, the trust worthy nature, it will all be gone after today.
20 minutes later Cale runs down the steps dressed and ready to go she spent too much time picking out the perfect dress and the right pair of shoes. She's now going to be late but he will understand after all she did it all for him. He likes it when she wears dresses and when she has her hair curled and makeup on. Cale usually goes with jeans and a t shirt, no makeup and hair up in a ponytail. But he likes it when she's completely not Cale like. Mac says it's healthy that she's trying different styles, she's learning who she is. Her adopted father is always psycho analyzing her and Caleb even when he doesn't realize he is. "John!" Cale yells. "Again with the yelling!" John yells back. "Can you take me to town please?"
"Why do you always have to yell? And don't you think that dress is too short?" John eyes his young protégé and questions whether or not Mac knows what she's buying when she goes shopping. "It's Dad approved Johnny, don't worry, but will you please take me? I'm late already!" She blurts out. She knows John only wants what's best for her but the last thing she wants is him questioning her style, the man never changes out of jeans and combat boots after all.
"I guess I can, but Jim are we sure she shouldn't be supervised on this date? He's a 16 year old boy after all" John looks to the guardian for approval. "Nonsense he's a great boy john, they will be fine!" is Jims reply. Later on he will kick himself in the ass for not requesting John stay with the girl or insisting her brother go with her. He will never forget the day they failed to protect their princess. John trusts Jim's judgement after all he leads the brotherhood. After today John will realize that even great men can be wrong and he will never forget that even as good as he is at judging the character of men, the great John Winchester can be wrong.
"But Cale I thought we were going to camp" Sam says from behind his big brother. "Sam, Cale would rather go kiss a boy than camp with us kiddo" Caleb replies to the young child. Cale gives Caleb a look that says shut up and smiles at Sam. "We will when I get back I promise Sammy." Cale never breaks her promises especially not to Sam. "Come on Sam we need to get stuff ready" Dean says as he takes his younger brothers hand and starts leading him to the barn to get the tent. "Caleb, really? Don't be mad at me I'll be back by dark I promise" Cale says and thinks at the same time to her brother. Yep is the thought that Caleb sends back.
"Come on princess your already late" John ends the silent conversation between the twins. "Don't call me princess" Is all the blonde says as she walks out the door. "Cale your brother will be fine" John feels like hes constantly playing peace keeper between the two kids lately. "Yea well he should be happy for me, Im trying to be normal John" There's that word again, Normal. "Normal is overrated kid, you should just be yourself" Johns not sure when Cale became so big on trying to be like everyone else but he knows that the dress she's wearing isn't her style, the attitude she's kept most the summer isn't like her either, he's glad he had boys.
The rest of the ride is in silence as he lets the blonde psychic think about what he has said. He knows her well enough to know she processes things different. "So let's talk about this kissing thing, no kissing any boys, and always stay at arm lengths apart. Do you have your knife? You are staying at the diner right? No leaving." John breaks the silence as they pull up in the small parking lot of the little diner. "You remember how I taught you to defend yourself, knee to the groin, palm to the nose." John reminds her, he taught her how to be safe before anything else. "UGH, yes Johnny I remember and yes I have the knife and we won't leave! I'm not a baby!" Cale practically yells earning her a glare from her mentor. "Sorry sir." She responds to the glare quickly. "Maybe I should go meet this guy" The knight eyes the dark haired kid waiting impatiently by the door to the diner. "What! NO! Don't embarrass me." Cale pleads. "Fine I'll be back to get you at 7. I will know if you leave Cale, do not earn yourself running maneuvers all over some stupid boy. And don't let him pressure you into anything" Be careful is what John is thinking and what Cale is picking up from his feelings. "I will be, relax" She says smiling as she gets out of the impala and closes the door. She waves at John one last time before she grabs the boy's hand, and just like that John gets the urge to walk in the diner and take Cale back home but he ignores it. After all who would hurt Cale, and it's just an ordinary boy anyway.
