I'm laying down, staring at the ceiling knowing that I wont be able to go to sleep, because of the nightmares that haunt me each night. The faces of those who I lost and people I killed innocent people.i think of the first person that died. My father, then I think of Glimmer, then Rue, Marvel, Clove, Thresh, Cato, Cinna, the tributes in the quarter quell. Wiress, and Gloss, Cashmere. Then theres my crew then FInnick charming Finnick. Finally, Prim. Sweet little Prim. I finally break my thoughts when I hear a soft knock, I don't want to see or talk to anyone. I haven't talked to anyone but sae and peeta. "katniss, please open the door." Peeta says part of me wants to get up and open the door but another part of me wants him to go away. "what do you want?" I blurt out "I just want to see if your okay." Peeta replies " I'm fine." I say "I heard you screaming and I ran over here to see if you were okay." Peeta says I get mad and say "Go away. Im fine." I say knowing that im niot fine I want peeta told me, I need him to hold me but I don't want to see him. I cant belive that I treat peeta so harshly and im cold and mean to him iv'e taken everything away from him. His family, his happiness, his smile, his life, I don't deserve peeta maybe I am a mutt. " KATNISS!OPEN THE DOOR!" peeta screams as his voice breaks and I realize that he's crying and he starts poundin the door and starts to yell harsh things and screams then I realize that he's having one of his episodes. I jump off the bed and run to the door unlocking it and finding Peeta curle up in a tiny ball with his knees up to his chest. This just breaks my heart seeing peeta in pain and crying he finally speaks and say " im so sorry katniss." I sit down beside him and pull him close to my chest and hug him as tight as a can.
