A/N:My first fanfic/songfic. Constructive critism appreciated

Disclamir: I do not own Naruto nor the song

Since the first day I saw you. A little infant that was my little brother.

I knew I had to protect you.

What I thought wasn't mine
In the light

Already as a child, I had seen more death than I should ever have seen.

I just didn't want you to experience the same.


Was one of a kind,
A precious pearl

That night tore me apart. Not because I had to kill my family. Not because I had to abandon the village and become a missing nin. No, it was because I saw you cry.

When I wanted to cry
I couldn't cause I
Wasn't allowed

And yet again are you standing there, in front of me. Not with sadness and confusion in your eyes, but with hatred. Hatred directed at me. Hatred I had placed on you.

Gomenasai for everything
Gomenasai, I know I let you down
Gomenasai till the end
I never needed a friend
Like I do now

I couldn't tell you the truth. The horrible truth. That I didn't have a choice but to kill the family. The family had been planning a coup d'etat to overthrow the Hokage. It would have broken you.

What I thought wasn't all
So innocent
Was a delicate doll
Of porcelain

After I left, I joined the Akatsuki so I could keep an eye on the. So they didn't endanger Konoha. Or you. I was in the dark. I often wanted to see how you were doing, but I couldn't.


When I wanted to call you
And ask you for help
I stopped myself

I walked closer to you. You couldn't back off anymore. You were trapped against a wall.

I could see fear in your eyes. You thought I had won. That I would take your eyes.
I stretched out my hand, directing two of my bloodstained fingers towards one of your eyes.

'Poke'


Gomenasai for everything
Gomenasai, I know I let you down
Gomenasai till the end
I never needed a friend
Like I do now

I whispered something that you probably didn't hear and smiled. One last smile at my beloved little brother. I could barely see the surprise in your eyes when I fell. Darkness surrounded me before I hit the ground.

What I thought was a dream
A mirage
Was as real as it seemed
A privilege

As I lay there, I thought how our life's had been. I really wanted to tell you. I really did.

When I wanted to tell you
I made a mistake
I walked away

I looked at the scene before me. You had collapsed beside me. Unconscious, but alive. A single tear rolled down my face.

"Are you ready?"

I slowly turned to the voice that clearly had been directed at me.

Gomenasai, for everything
Gomenasai, Gomenasai, Gomenasai
I never needed a friend,
Like I do now

I turned around to see my smiling best friend, Shisui. It didn't look like he talked to his murderer, but his best friend. I nodded.

Gomenasai, I let you down
Gomenasai, Gomenasai,
Gomenasai till the end
I never needed a friend
Like I do now

We both started to fade away. I looked one last time at my little brother.

"Gomenasai Sasuke"