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Harry tossed the apple that he had snatched for dinner from the Great Hall and caught it before it fell to the ground. Up. Down. Up. Down. He gazed unseeingly towards the blackness of the sky with only the stars for solace from the darkness. His hand moved mechanically, throwing the apple up and down. He knew he should be at the Great Hall right now. They were in the middle of a war and people panic if they don't see their savior. But still he did not move from his spot.

Up.

Down.

Up.

Down.

Up.

Down.

Catching the apple, he gazed at it solemnly. The pure redness of the apple enchanted him and the yellow imperfections on the apple made him thoughtful. He admired the gleaming surface of the apple and rubbed his thumb against the skin of it silently.

"What are you doing?" a voice came from behind him.

Harry turned around slowly. A smile broke out on his face. "Ron. Hermione. Hey…"

"Harry, what are you doing here? Its dinner now…" Hermione said gently.

"I know… I'm not hungry."

"Then what's the apple for mate?" Ron asked.

"I don't know… I just grabbed it. Look at the apple Ron… It's pretty…" Harry said softly staring at it.

"Pretty, mate? I don't know. Sweet maybe…" Ron said teasing him gently.

Harry laughed softly. But it was a guttural sound, devoid of any joy. "Sweet and pretty then…"

Ron and Hermione exchanged glances. Something was not right with their friend but they didn't know what else to do. Hermione approached Harry slowly tugging on his arm. "C'mon Harry, let's get out of here. It's pretty drafty here. Let's get back to your room."

Harry followed her silently, his hand clutching onto the apple. He knew Ron and Hermione were worried about him. He saw the worried glances. He clenched his teeth tightly. 'Why can't he stop being such a bother to people? He was going to die. He shouldn't leave his friends with a frown on their faces… Alright then. From then on he'll be a better person. Well in front of people at least… He didn't think he could ever be normal. He was just too numb inside…'

"Harry?"

Harry forced himself to smile. Operation be normal Harry has officially started. "Yeah?" he asked trying to adopt a jovial tone.

"Alright mate?"

"Yeah, just zoned out for awhile, sorry. Hey guys, I'm sorry, I just remembered. Someone's waiting for me back at my room. So…" Harry said trailing off.

"Oh! Al- Alright then…" Hermione said blushing although her eyebrow turned upwards for a moment.

Harry grinned apologetically and waved to them. It wasn't true of course, but he could easily have had someone waiting. Ever since he found out about the prophecy, he had had several sexual partners. He didn't want to die without experiencing life's greatest pleasure. So he had used his boy who lived status to get what he wanted. The fact that he was Head Boy and had his own room helped too. Hermione had frowned at this but had done nothing. She understood, after all. Besides, no one was hurt in his little tryst. All of his bed partners knew that this was just a one-night stand and didn't expect more from him.

Reaching his room, he contemplated finding a trick for that night but decided against it. He wanted to be alone that night. Locking his door, he sat down in his room and meditated. Meditation gave him a better state of mind. Unfortunately, it doesn't last. An hour later, he broke out of his meditation in a relaxed state. He knew then what he wanted to do. The others may not like it, but they'll just have to live with it.

"Harry… Hey what are you doing?" a voice came from behind him.

Harry did not turn. He was too engrossed with what he was doing.

"Harry… I asked what you were doing…" the voice came again.

"Hmm, I'm writing a will…"Harry said distractedly not really registering the voice and what he said.

"What? You're writing a what?"

The loud voice shook Harry from his engrossed state. "What? Uh. No! I'm taking a pill? Wait, no! I'm uh looking at my kill? No! I'm uh uh, oh, I'm looking at the hills. Right. Yeah." Harry said as he vanished his papers before turning to look at the owner of the voice.

Charlie stood there looking amused though there were remnants of shock still on his face. "There are no hills viewable from this window Harry. Unless you have a damn good vision, then just like me, you'd see only the vast amount of quidditch field."

Harry stuck out his chin. "Well I have brilliant eye sight. It comes with the green of my eyes." Harry joked. "Hey why are you at Hogwarts?" He said trying to divert Charlie's attention away from the subject of wills.

"Dumbledore wrote to the Dragon colony asking to have me here. He mentioned that he might want the dragons here for the war. So I'm here to get 'acquainted' to Hogwarts grounds. It's more like reacquainted though."Charlie said.

"Cool. So you get to stay at Hogwarts without the studying."

"A little bit like you I suppose. I heard that you've passed your NEWTS?" Charlie asked.

Harry blushed and laughed quietly. "Yeah. I went into a studying frenzy and besides Fudge said that he wouldn't allow Professor Dumbledore to train me if I didn't take my NEWTS."

"So why are you still going to classes?" Charlie asked curiously, his blue eyes looking down into Harry's green.

"Well… For one, there's nothing else to do. And I'd like to keep the rumors down to minimum thank you."Harry said. "What would the world think if I suddenly dropped out of school?" He asked sarcastically. "Suicide rates might even increase…"

Charlie laughed as his eyes roved over Harry suddenly admiring his brother's best friend. He admitted that the Harry Potter his brother had raved about was different from the man that stood in front of him. There was an old light in his eyes that worried Charlie slightly though Harry was constantly smiling. Harry suddenly looked at his watch and cursed.

"Damn, I gotta meet the Professor now. See you later, Char." Harry said as he walked out of the room quickly. As he walked, he could feel Charlie's eyes roving over his behind and he blushed. Ron's brother was certainly… interesting.

A/N: Please review! Reviews encourage me:D
Un-betaed. Sorry for any mistakes. Also, I only have a rough sketch of where this is going. Im going where my inspiration goes.