Summary: quite short - Scully's thoughts at the end of second part of premier! A little bit of MSR..but how couldn't I??..heheā¦
Spoilers: The Sixth Extinction II: Amor Fati....
My Constant
"You were my constant..my touchstone," he said softly, my face cupped between his trembling hands.
I fought back the painful tears that threatened to break from my crumbling dam of emotions. Everything was so confusing, so unfair and complex. The old man had been there, I was sure of it. But then again, how could I be sure? Everything was upside down and backwards. That woman, the one whom I had never trusted for a second, had helped me, helped Mulder. And she had died for it.
"And you were mine," I said as tried to sort the feelings that overwhelmed my heart.
I couldn't mix through the spinning thoughts that crashed in torrents around my mind, and I didn't want to. I stopped thinking and just looked into his eyes, pure, honest, and completely focused. On me. I had drawn strength from those eyes countless times before, but now it was different. Something from far inside of me told me to look deeper this time, into the bottomless chasm of his soul. He needed me, and I him. Someone had once told me that you must come full-circle to find the truth. I couldn't help but hold him closer and kiss his forehead, realizing that my truth was within him. Perhaps I should have pulled away sooner, let him realize it on his own, but I didn't want to lost this moment. Ever.
He bent his head slowly, his eyes remaining closed. Perhaps he didn't want to lose it either. I place his Yankees cap back on his bandaged head. My shaking hands run down his face, stopping ever so briefly on his parted lips. Another feeling from deep within me threatens to break loose. I am frightened about what would happen if I chose to pursue it. I take a quick breath and turn, knowing that he is all right. Knowing that he is going to join me soon. Knowing that he is still mine.
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