Humanity Can Be A 12 Step Program

Prologue

In most cases, trauma can revert a human being, no matter how proud or strong into an infantile state of fear and unknowing. This is what happened to two people directly seeding from a particular trauma, though different but the same…


"You don't understand." The soft voiced blonde said, the tears that had been long since shed etching their claws into her voice.

"Then MAKE me understand." A strong voiced man replied. Though it could be perceived as anger, it was far from it.

"I can't explain what happened. I don't want to explain what happened. That's why I can't see you again… ever." She said, emotional strain bridging her closer to the point of screaming from pain and unknowing.

"So you're just going to toss me aside. Throw me away because of an order I was given?" he rebutted, grabbing her arms and shaking her. Somehow thinking this action would cause the woman he loved to understand he was only trying to help her.

How emotions, so strong in their fiber be so detrimental. Confusion and cowardice… the fear of losing something unique quickly swept up Shikamaru.

"I'm not tossing you aside," she replied with an edge of familiar sarcasm that set her apart from most women. "I'm tossing me aside" she said as she slammed the door of his apartment and set off into the night, wondering what would become of her without the person whom had grounded her for years.


"So can you tell me what it was like there? What Oto was really like…" the strange nurse asked her patient. She didn't expect a reply, she never expected a reply but she could never stop herself from asking that question. There was so much to that country that no person knew of; the simple idea of it intrigued her.

A long silence dominated the one sided conversation, as it always did when she tried to speak with him out of the confines of the hospital.

"… It was like that room. Nothing changed. The faces in the country changed, but the tone was always the same." The pale man replied.

Shocked by his answer she took a moment to digest the words he spoke, over his one month tenure in the hospital she learned this about him; though he spoke very little, his words often carried multiple meanings.

"So why did you stay so long?" she asked, curiosity edging into her professionalism.

"it was all I knew, why did you hang on to the idea of the younger Uchiha for as long as you did?" he retaliated.

His conversationalism continuing to surprise her, she was finally at a loss for words, and welcomed the familiar silence to shift the awkwardness.

"he would always speak of you. Rather highly most of the time. Always of how skilled and beautiful you were. How you alone made him question if he should seek out my master, but he always ended that if this were the case, he would be the death of you. This was what I didn't understand." He said, a puzzledness layering his smooth voice.

A tear rolled down her cheek.

A barrage of thoughts assaulted every corner of her mind. Had her conceptions been wrong, had he not deserved his fate, could she have done more? They continued like a bleak parade in a war struck and shocked town.

His voice echoed through her mind pulling her away from the dreary speculation.

"you grow heavy with this. Let it not concern you, there are many things that can't be explained. Fate is a strange wind blowing through our hair and weaving its way into our lungs…"

This comment struck her as hard as a fist in the sternum, though painful it calmed her.

Finding the fortitude to speak without letting her emotion seep into her wording she suggested they return to the room.


I know… I know… super short… mildly unfair and just a little mean. But my muse, that bitch Ophelia, finally painted her nails, plucked her eyebrows and got back to work. This wouldn't be me if it wasn't dark so yeah… I don't think there will be happy trees and rainbows in this one. Maybe a break in the storm if I'm happy lol… well thank you all again for reading and I'm so sorry it's taken so long to get me back on this. Sometimes I just don't' like to rush things.

FYI- I'm more inclined to update if I get some reviews… so please take a moment and tell me what you thought ;) and this is JUST the prologue...

Adieu- BM