Less than 2 months and I will have a crap load of time to hopefully update some Fanfics! Here's to all those amazing mom's out there and here's to those who spent the day wishing they had one last day with their mom's. May we all be grateful for those we have in our lives. Forever and always.
She woke up around 9:30. This day used to be such a happy, joyful day. When she was little she would get up earlier than her parents so she could prepare for the surprise. It's so different now. It's almost too painful to bear.
She sluggishly got out of bed and headed for the bathroom. When she got back to the bedroom she looked at her handsome husband fast asleep in their bed. He's always been there for her through everything. She's so lucky to have met him. It scares her every time she thinks of what her life would be like if she hadn't become a cop, just the thought makes her squirm. Kate quickly got dressed, grabbed her phone and purse and headed for the front door stopping only to put her shoe's on.
Kate walked through the rows of tombstones with a bouquet of flowers. Once she reached her mom's she sat down cross legged on the ground. She placed the flowers in front of the tombstone and ran her fingers along the engraved letters. "Hey mom, it's me… I just came to say Happy Mother's Day…" Kate wiped at the tears falling down her cheeks. "You really were the greatest… I also wanted to tell you that I'm gonna get to be a mommy too" She rubbed her still flat belly. "Rick doesn't know yet, I'm only a few weeks along and I want to surprise him today… I hope I'll be a good mother… I know I won't be able to compare to you but I'll try." Kate grabbed a Kleenex from her pocket and dabbed her eyes.
"I'm so scared, mom… what if I screw up? What if I'm a crappy mom? What if something happens to me at work? Rick and the kid would be all alone… I know how that feels… I can't do that to them but I love my job… I still have eight months to figure it out so I guess that's good... I miss you, Mom, so much. I think about you every day. Everywhere I go I see your face, I hear your voice, I feel your presence. You raised me to be a strong and independent woman and here I am trying to be all of that, for you. "
"You are all of that, Katie" a voice said to her. Kate spun around to see her father standing there.
"I… Dad…. What're you doing here?" Kate stood up to hug her father tight.
"I came to do the same as you. Wish her a Happy Mother's day. Though, your news is far more exciting than mine. Congrats, baby girl" She smiled sadly,
"Thanks, dad. I'm just sad that our baby is never going to know her. I wish Rick knew her; they'd have gotten along so well… I miss her dad, so much. If I could have one dream come true, it would be to have her back in my life and for her to see how far we've come… " Jim hugged her tight and whispered in her ear,
"I know, Katie I know. Why don't you say your goodbyes and go tell Rick that he's going to be a daddy again. He'll be thrilled." Kate moved back to look into her father's eyes.
"Okay, dad thank you for everything."
"Anytime Katie anytime." Kate kissed him on the cheek and knelt down to her mother's tombstone.
"Happy Mother's Day, Mom. I miss and love you so much. I'll come visit real soon. Bye…" She didn't look back as she headed for her car.
She couldn't wait to be a mom. She was ecstatic. Her only wish was that she could be half the mom Johanna had been.
