Cry

Derek cursed. "Julian!" The actor didn't even look at him. "Jules, come on!" He tried again. "You know that Lo didn't mean it, he was just…"

Julian interrupted him in a cold voice "Just what?" He looked Derek hard in the eye, and then his gaze softened. "Just leave it, okay?" He sighed " I'm fine, if anything go comfort Logan, he's probably destroying the common room right now" Julian smirked , trying to hide just how much it hurts.

"Fine Jules, but you either tell him," Derek gave him a meaningful look "Or, you join."

No way in hell was Julian going to tell Logan that he was the love of his life. Ew, he sounded like one of his fangirls. He shuddered.

"Whatever," Julian scowled in defeat, "Tell 'Your majesty' that his 'freaking diva of a best friend' is joining the stupid glee club." That got rid of Derek. Why the hell did he say that? It finally sank in that he, Julian Larson, was going to join the freaking club where Logan gets all his boyfriends. Now, what was he going to sing for the audition?

"Today our very own Julian Larson is going to audition to join the warblers" Medel announced. Julian wondered how she could sound so empty yet encouraging at the same time. He stood up.

"Can I use the piano?" Medel just nodded. Here goes nothing. Julian started playing a soft, sad melody. Logan raised his eyebrows at the choice of song before wearing his cold, uncaring mask again. Julian's usually strong voice was soft and full of emotion as it carried through the hall.

If anyone asks,
I'll tell them we both just moved on
When people all stare
I'll pretend that I don't hear them talk
Whenever I see you,
I'll swallow my pride
and bite my tongue
Pretend I'm okay with it all
Act like there's nothing wrong

Julian thought how ironic as this was so true. And the boy he was singing it for was completely oblivious.

Is it over yet?
Can I open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets?
Is this what it feels like to really cry?
Cry

If anyone asks,
I'll tell them we just grew apart
Yeah what do I care
If they believe me or not

Whenever I feel
Your memory is breaking my heart
I'll pretend I'm okay with it all
Act like there's nothing wrong

Is it over yet?
Can I open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets?
Is this what it feels like to really cry?
Cry

I'm talking in circles
I'm lying, they know it
Why won't this just all go away

Is it over yet?
Can I open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets?
Is this what it feels like to really cry?
Cry
Cry

His voice cracked on the last note. The boys stood and clapped politely but the majority of them were stunned by the actor's vocal talent. It was almost certain that Julian would get into the warblers. Strangely he felt proud and a bit vulnerable, much different than his bitchy mask. What he didn't notice was that Logan was looking at him with wide eyes.