Chapter one: Funeral

I sat there staring at my feet refusing to believe the situation I was in, refusing to believe that just three days ago my best friend killed herself. I knew there was something going on with her, I could feel it in my gut but I just didn't know what to do. Since the news was confirmed it seemed as if a part of my brain went numb, I could always feel her emotions and now she was gone. I felt like a part of me had left the earth, as if I wasn't sitting at only Jade's funeral but also a funeral for part of me. Everyone seems to be blaming themselves but it's not their faults, it's only mine.

"Cat come on the service is over now, we can go." Tori said to me as she touched my arm, I turned and looked at her with this look of confusion on my face. "Cat… stand up." She said as she started to pull me up from my seat, I got up and walked to the car with her. I gazed out the window as we drove to the cemetery, I wasn't ready to put Jade in the ground once and for all, I was the only one who truly knew her, the only one who could've stopped her. I failed her and I wasn't ready to let go. As we pulled into the cemetery Tori looked at me supportively but I could see the pity in her eyes, she was never as close to Jade as I was, she never knew her like I did, nobody did.

"If anybody has anything to say, you're free to do so. The grave service has come to an end." The pastor said after a long twenty minutes of prayers for Jade in the afterlife. Chatter started about how beautiful Jade was and how nobody understood why she would do this, why she would end her life at the tender age of sixteen. People began to place roses on the dirt covering Jade's casket, Jade's body. I couldn't take it. I kneeled down to the ground crying, I just I wanted to hug her and tell her it would be okay, but I would never be able to do that again.

"Cat… I know you're hurting, I'm here for you." Tori whispered to me as she tried to pull me back up to my feet. I turned to face her with tears running down my face, how could she think it was okay to pull me away from Jade? She and Jade were never that close, Jade never trusted her like she trusted me. I couldn't believe she would think that 'hurting' could even sum up my feelings about Jade's suicide.

"NO! YOU CANNOT MAKE ME LEAVE! SHE NEEDS ME!" I screamed through my tears. "Sh-she needs me, I can-can't leave her again. I already failed her, I-I cou-could've stopped her." I could barely get the words out as I dropped back down to my knees. I felt like that was where I had to be, I couldn't leave her, not now.

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