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Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry Challenge [Exam] - Ginny/Seamus; Arnold; Hufflepuff; Angst; Cream Soda; Depressed; Feeling Small, Marianas Trench; Lyric
Feeling Small
My mam had warned me against girls like her, against her especially. My mam had warned me that her love would be nothing more than a sickness and would cause nothing but pain. Mam had been right but I had been too enamoured with her long red locks and brilliant smile with the purple little fuzz ball Pigmy Puff, Arnold following her around everywhere.
Merlin, I sound like a blasted Hufflepuff but I can't seem to help thinking of all those times that we had been together, sneaking through Hogwarts for the quietest corridors and barely ever used classrooms to be alone. I still taste this sickness and it makes me crazy without it at best. Her sickly love still clung desperately to my mind, unwilling to release me from its clutches. I've tried desperately to force the parasite to leave my mind, to stop feeding on my every thought.
My mam usually told me to go drink some 'cream soda,' our code name for a heavier alcoholic beverage. Mam usually only used that term when there were other people in the room with them. They both drank when they were highly stressed or facing rather depressing emotions. My mental rant had almost distracted me, but I had come around in a full circle.
My thoughts had come back to Ginny Weasley, the girl that had stolen my heart and then chosen to tramp all over it. Carelessly scattering what little was left of those meager pieces after her mass destruction. I had tried to be everything she wanted, I had done everything she had asked me to but it had not been enough. Such a thing was not about to change but it hurt the same.
I was not famous enough for her. I was not the one she had dreamed of marrying since she was a child. Harry Potter was.
I wished I was but I would never be. I would only ever continue feeling small.
