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*** Used, I had been used. Well, actually it hadn't really been using. I don't know what to call it. But it still hurt. Cordelia didn't love me, sure, she cared for me a great deal. But it wasn't love, at least not the kind I'm searching for. Not the kind I thought I would receive. No, that was reserved for Angel. Whatever. I'm not going to deny it hurt, like hell. But why feed to their knowledge of what hurt me. That's the last thing I need to do, let them know just how much I want to be loved.

FLASHBACK TO A WEEK AGO

"Connor, it just wouldn't work out. I'm so sorry" Cordelia pleaded, "Even if we tried it wouldn't last, think about it. There's no way I can give you what you really need, what you really want. Sure, I could lie and fool myself, fool you. But that would hurt me as much as it would hurt you in the long run." "SO YOU LIED" Connor yelled, he just couldn't seem to keep control of the volume of his voice. "I don't believe this. It's because of him, I know it is!. God, Cordy.." "Please...just ..please. Listen to me, I'm saying this to save you. you. It would be unfair of me to go on. I can not tell you how sorry I am. But I'm doing this for you." "Whatever" Connor said as he left, slamming the door.

BACK TO PRESENT

Yeah it hurt, and I haven't talked to her since, luckily when I returned to my place she was gone. Left without a trace. Probably gone back to him. She would always return to that bastard. DAMN HIM! Taking away what should be mine. I don't need her!!!! I don't!!!! I'm moving on, I'm gonna find something that will be mince, forever, always. He won't be able to take it away, never.