A/N: This is my first attempt at Callian, honestly I thought I needed to stray away from Jibbs before it started to take over my life and then this idea seemed to float into my head; and I had to write it down. Literally. So here it is. I'm not betraying NCIS. I just needed to explore the relationship of Cal and Gillian.
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Time and Thought
Gillian didn't know what was happening. How could she know he was her blind spot after all? Was it normal to have you business partner's head on your shoulders while you both sat lazily on a couch? She rolled her eyes at herself. She had been reading far too many romance novels to determine what was normal when it came to her love life.
And there it was. Love. Was this it? Was Cal Lightman the love of her life? Now that she didn't even know. Of course he was her friend. Definitely a handsome friend, whom she may have flirted with a little bit too much still classify him as just her friend.
Cal Lightman was more than her friend though. He was her everything: her life, her hope, and most of all her biggest fear. Of course she was not scared of Cal himself. How could she be? He was as harmless as a teddy bear, who had been known to attend street fights, randomly punch people in the face and who had a gun locked away in his safe.
Gillian Foster was afraid of the things he did. That maybe one day he would get himself into so much of a mess that even she could not get him out of it. She was afraid that he would leave her and the Lightman group, but mostly her. But most of all, she was afraid he would fall in love with someone that wasn't her.
Even Gillian knew it was stupid. That she was sitting here with him in her arms, knowing that it made her physically sick the thought of him being with another woman and wondering if this was the right thing to do.
Maybe it was because she had too much to lose. He was her everything. Gillian knew she could survive without Alec. If she hadn't have known she wouldn't have gotten a divorce; but she knew she could not live without Cal Lightman.
The little things that he did to annoy her, the smart comments, those moments when it looked like they were heading into something more; only to have him walk away, and just him being there. He always knew what to say and what to do to make her smile.
Whether that be not getting angry when she drank his expensive liquor, standing with her when she mourned or making her laugh when she was, honestly, considering slapping him in the face. Though what she loved most about Cal was none of these things. She loved the side of him that only she saw.
The side of him that was cautious and thought things through; but that one rarely ever showed itself, except with matters involving her of course, who he was when he wasn't trying to read everyone around him, and the scarce moments when he would forget and let his guard down. Those were her favourite moments.
Cal's eyes looked at hers, his mouth turned into a mischievous smile. Gillian had figured it out. Sure there was a lot to lose but there was so much more to gain.
"You okay love?" he questioned looking at her with what she thought was happiness, maybe even hope. "You've been staring into space for the last five minutes," he chuckled. Gillian blushed and giggled nervously. When he took over her thoughts time seemed meaningless.
"Yeah just thinking," she sighed letting her head rest on his and shuffling herself closer to him. "'bout what?" he asked. "You of course," she answered smugly.
"I'm not really worth that much thought Gil," he laughed.
"Yeah you are," she whispered tilting her head to share a kiss with him. One that seemed to last forever, but then again when they were together time was meaningless.
Fin
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