I love Robin. I really do but in this story he comes off a little harsh. Enjoy and let me know what you think. I'll update soon :)
"All of these lines across my face
Tell you the story of who I am
So many stories of where I've been
And how I got to where I am
But these stories don't mean anything
When you've got no one to tell them to
It's true... I was made for you"
Chapter 1 You Have Me
Tears blurred her vision, her heels clicking loudly on the steps as she rushed through the diner door. She needed to get out of there, to put distance between herself and the happy little family Emma reunited.
She needed distance from Emma.
As fate would have it she wasn't that lucky because as she approached the fence, the diner door opened and closed with a bang.
"Regina wait!"
She turned, her anger clearly hiding the hurt.
"Wait for what! To watch my happy ending get taken away from me once more? You've done enough," she all but growled those last few words.
"I didn't know Regina, if I had..."
"You still would have saved her," Regina cut her off and Emma didn't know what to say to that because she was right. She couldn't let an innocent woman die even if she knew it would ultimately ruin things for Regina.
A life was a life.
"You're the savior, you can't help it," Regina's voice was venomous and Emma had never felt so ashamed and hurt for doing this to the woman who had been trying so hard to change... To be better.
The woman who sacrificed everything to save Henry and the town from Pan's curse.
"I never meant to hurt you," Emma told her, her voice soft and desperate for Regina to understand. Her dark brown eyes soften and just when she was about to take off the cold angry mask and tear down the walls, Robin rushed out and Emma could see the anger snapping right back in place. Only this time she could see the hurt. Regina was barely holding it together all for the sake of looking strong.
"Wait, Regina don't go!" Robin cried and he was suddenly standing in front of her. Her eyes locked with his and it wasn't until she heard Marian's shaking voice calling for him did she notice his wife and son standing right behind him. Emma stood awkwardly in the background, the guilt plain on her face.
Regina swore if she hadn't changed she would have thrown fire from her hands for the amount of anger and devastation that was radiating from her very being. Anger that was fueled by hurt. Emma betrayed her and for some reason that hurt more than it did for losing Robin.
"Go back to your family thief," she spoke, her voice trembling as she fought to contain the sob from escaping her lips.
"I just need you to understand," he said and it was that moment that everyone knew he was clearly leaving her for Marian. He was breaking up with her after everything they had been through. After all that they had shared with each other. "She's my wife... My son's mother. There isn't a choice here."
A single tear escaped and he reached out, wiping it with his thumb before leaning down to place a soft kiss on her forehead. He was starting to love her but now he had Marian and a second chance at his happy ending with her. He couldn't waste it.
She abruptly pulled away as if his touch had burned her. She took a step back, putting distance between them.
"I understand perfectly clear." Her voice was cold and she looked away. Her eyes were void of emotion.
"Then why won't you look at me?"
"Because she is an evil witch!" Marian suddenly shouted from behind them, obviously not liking how close Robin seems to be with Regina. She walked up to them but Robin placed himself between them, separating them. "She would have killed me if Leah… I mean Emma hadn't rescued me from her dungeons."
Those words got Robins attention and all he saw was red. The way Emma had explained her little time traveling quest, Regina would have killed Marian. She was responsible for tearing apart his family. He whirled on her, his eyes dark and furious.
"You killed her!"
"You know of my past."
"You took my wife from me!"
"In another time yes but thanks to Miss Swan's reckless interference she's back."
"Zelena was right. You're as dark as they come. I was fool to think I could love you."
"Hey there's no need to be cruel," Emma snapped, deciding to put an end to this. She couldn't explain this sudden need to protect the once former Evil Queen. Maybe it was just being back at the enchanted forest and seeing how far Regina had fallen, how cold and emotionless the Evil Queen was compared to this Regina.
This Regina was different.
She had changed and god she looked so small in this very moment. Her eyes were bloodshot and Emma could see the hurt behind the mask of strength Regina was putting up.
"Cruel?" Robin asked. "I'm far from cruel... What she had done, is cruel."
They were gone after that and Regina turned, facing the white fence and escaping that sad green gaze.
Why wouldn't Emma just leave her alone.
"Regina..."
She didn't even hear the sheriff approaching her. She wouldn't look at her because then Emma would see the tears streaming down her face.
There was a warm hand on her shoulder and Emma was so close she could smell her perfume and the hint of forest and dirt from her trip to the past.
"Let me take you home."
Regina couldn't even answer. Her comforting touch making it all feel so real. Robin had admitted he could have loved her but as always it was ripped away from her.
Gold was right, villains don't get happy endings.
Her mother's words "love is weakness" echoed in her mind.
Robin's voice "I was a fool to think I could ever love you" followed as well and the tears wouldn't stop.
She was unlovable, too dark to be loved. There was no happy ending for her because she was a villain.
"Hey," Emma said, her voice low with concern. Regina's shoulders were trembling and Emma turned her to see the tears streaming down her face.
Regina was breaking down and tearing apart at the seams. Emma could only stare in shock for a moment. Regina was always so strong. Seeing her breaking down like this broke her heart even more than it did when she discovered who Marian was.
"You! You're going to stay the hell away from me Miss Swan! You and your self-righteous family!" Regina's voice shook through her tears and when Emma ignored her and pulled her into her embrace Regina fought it.
She struggled to get away and screamed, throwing out curses and threats but Emma didn't let go. She only tightened her grip until she felt Regina's body sagging exhaustedly against her. The silent tears had turned into heartbreaking sobs and all Emma could do was hold her.
"I'm sorry. I'm sorry," she kept whispering through tears of her own, her face buried in Regina's hair as she held the devastated woman in her arms. "I'm so sorry Regina."
Everything was a blur after that. Regina vaguely remembered Emma calming her enough to lead her to the yellow bug.
"Let me stay Regina. You shouldn't be alone."
"I've been alone all my life," she replied, her voice hoarse and damn if Emma didn't think how heartbreaking that sounded.
"You have family now. You don't have to be alone anymore."
Regina wouldn't look at her nor did she say a word. She only let out an irritated sigh as she got out of the car. Emma followed her and when she left the door open Emma took that as an invitation to stay.
She slept in the guest room that night. Regina had gone straight to her room and hadn't come out since. She had laid awake that night, wondering if she should go and offer some sort of comfort but then Emma knew Regina was furious and hurt and maybe it was just better to give the former dark queen some space.
She broke her one mental rule the moment she heard Regina crying in her room on the way back from the bathroom. She stood at Regina's bedroom door, her hand clutched around the doorknob as she tried to decide whether to go in or not.
You did this, a voice deep inside told her and Emma quietly pushed open the door. It was dark except for the stream of moonlight filtering in from the window. She could see Regina's quivering form under the comforter as she lied on her side, her back to Emma. She was crying into her pillow and Emma was mentally kicking herself all over again.
"Regina," she whispered and she knew she heard her because Regina's breath hitched and the quivering stopped. The sobs stopped. She was holding them in as Emma slid into the bed. She lied next to her, facing the other woman's back as she desperately tried to pretend she hadn't just been caught crying herself to sleep.
"Hey," she said, softly reaching out and placing her hand on Regina's shoulder. "I know it hurts right now and I know I'm the last person you want to hear from. I know I hurt you Regina."
Silence. Regina didn't even acknowledge her. The sobs had turned into silent tears that were streaming down her cheeks.
"Regina, please look at me," Emma whispered, her voice shaking with a threatening sob of her own. The Evil Queen she had seen in the past was cold and lifeless. There was a void in her soul but there was also hurt. That Regina was fighting but now... This Regina was just broken. This Regina was breaking down and Emma had caused it. She tore away the only love Regina probably had since Daniel and turned him against her. Robin's cruel words still stung and she could only imagine how Regina must feel.
Hearing the crack of emotion in Emma's voice must have stirred something in the brunette because sheets were rustling as Regina finally turned to face the blonde savior on the other side of her bed.
Even in the dark Emma could tell the tears were there. The brokenness was there. Regina studied her through the darkness and the silence of the room and before Emma even realized what was happening Regina had crushed her lips to hers.
This was wrong. Regina was emotional and would regret it if anything were to happen between them. Emma was shocked but then she kissed back, giving into those warm soft lips and the scent of apple and cinnamon flooding her senses. She could feel the tears flowing faster on Regina's cheeks and she realized she was sobbing again. Emma pulled Regina closer, holding her against her body and just when Regina slid her tongue into her mouth Emma finally came to her senses.
She pulled away, seeing the rejection in the mayor's face and felt it in the way her body tensed up against her. Regina tried pulling her back but Emma grabbed her wrists.
"Stop!" Emma cried out as Regina struggled to get away. "I will not be a distraction. You and I are better than that."
Regina viciously pulled away. She was pissed and Emma could see it. She could feel it radiating off the other woman in waves.
"You don't know me," she told her with shaking words fueled with rage.
"You're right I don't, but I do know this isn't you," Emma fired back.
"Get out," Regina tells her, her voice a scary kind of calm where the anger is barely being contained. Emma wanted to stay. She wanted to comfort her because right now she knew Regina was really falling apart. She stood to leave and before she could walk out she turned to face Regina once more through the moonlit room.
"I know what it's like to be hurt. I know what it's like to have no one," her words shook and she could only hope Regina doesn't magically throw her out. "You have family now Regina and you have me. Even after everything that's happened since the night Henry brought me to your doorstep; you have me."
Emma slid to the floor the moment she was out in the hall and had shut the door. She buried her face in her hands with a groan, still remembering the feel of Regina's body against her own. The taste of her lips and the sweet scent of apple and cinnamon flooding her senses.
She shouldn't have let that happen.
She knew Regina was only looking for a distraction… for any kind of human contact. She was vulnerable and Emma hated herself for letting that happen. For letting herself melt into that kiss a second too long. It didn't mean anything, she knew it didn't and that was what she kept telling herself all night as she sat in that hallway.
Regina was crying again but this time she only sat on the other side of the door.
