Why, I wonder, what it is, to bring me from my state of heartbreak and loneliness.

When my eyes close, visions of silver strands flash across my view, only to fade to black a second later.

And I wonder what it is, that makes me feel this way, to make me want that nonexistence so badly.

That it makes my pulse jump out of my fingers, like lightning, that lightning, that electric blue gaze.

A touch of silk, messy fluff of nonexistence I can only see when I close my eyes.

And I still wonder, why I feel this way, so lonely, much longing, forever hoping.

Wanting to grasp that silver, thread it around my fingers, lost in that blue, electric blue.

Feel the rough and the soft, the good and the bad, everything, if only for a moment.

A single moment, to stop this longing, or perhaps make it even more, with only a touch.

And even more now, I still wonder, why, what is this feeling, this electrified feeling?