Author's Note:

This is originally a one-shot story but because of a requested I decided to keep it going. It will be my very first story ever. All characters belong to E.L. James . I listened to the song "When I was your man" and it gave me inspiration to write this one. I hope you will like it guys!


Christian's POV

And I just saw Ana's face disappearing as the elevator closed in front of me. Oh my! What I have done?! I can't stop her from leaving me here after what happened in the Red Room. This is all my fault, and Ana won't be here anymore…because of me..

I decided to go to my room and think. I put my Ipod on and let the music surrounds me as I need comfort. Since I was a child, music helped me to go through all the pain. It is my companion and my savior each and every day. I try to repeat what happened earlier. I can't let Ana slip in my fingers. I just can't. She's my Ana for God's sake. My Ana.. This is new, I never think that I would consider anybody as mine. It feels new but at the same time, it feels great. My Ana..mine! And I would do anything just to get my Ana back. I want her back.

I need to get in to a plan. How can I see her again? I'm sure she won't like to see me around after I hurt her. She's crying when she run into the elevator and leave. I want to hug her. Comfort her and let her know that I'm still here. That I will take care of her. That I will never hurt her.

I feel so tired but my eyes won't let me sleep. I lay here in my bed trying to think ways to get her back…

Same bed, but it feels just a little bit bigger now
Our song on the radio, but it don't sound the same
When our friends talk about you all that it does is just tear me down
Cause my heart breaks a little when I hear your name
And it all just sound like uh, uh, uh

The lyrics of the song struck me directly in my heart. It's true. I'm here all alone in my room, lying in my bed and it feels like something is missing. It will never be the same having Ana around in my room, sleeping beside me as she takes away my nightmare. I want to feel her head in my arms and feeling the slow and peaceful beat of her heart. It assures me that she is safe. Where is she now? Oh God! I will never forgive myself if there's something wrong happened to her. Is she eating that much?

Hmmm too young, too dumb to realize
That I should have bought you flowers and held your hand
Should have gave you all my hours when I had the chance
Take you to every party cause all you wanted to do was dance
Now my baby is dancing, but she's dancing with another man.

Oh, the song helps me to realize how wrong I am. I told her I'm not a heart and flower kind of man. But now, I begin to realize that I will do anything just to get her back in my arms. I will buy all the flowers for her. I hope she can forgive me but I'm sure it will take a lot of time to gain her trust again. I don't care how long it will take. Yes I do have a company to run, but I hired efficient and responsible employees to help me get through each day at work while I'm busy getting Ana back. Oh Ana, baby.. I want to see you tonight. I can't imagine you having another man's arm around your waist and see you smiling because he can make you happy. No! Grey stop! Don't think too much. It won't help you. Ana won't forget you that fast. Think Grey! Don't imagine her with another man. Right! It will never happen as long as you started to make a move. Think Grey. It's not too late.

My pride, my ego, my needs and my selfish ways
Caused a good strong woman like you to walk out my life
Now I never, never get to clean up the mess I made
And it haunts me every time I close my eyes
It all just sounds like uh, uh, uh, uh

Bruno Mars is right! My needs and selfish ways put me in this kind of situation. If I just make things as simple as it could be, I won't have to take another minute torturing and beating up myself. I need to make a move. But I think I need Ana to have enough time to think. Maybe giving her time will make her mind see things clearer. She might see how much she means to me. That's right! I will give her tonight that time and I will speak to her tomorrow morning. I will do whatever it takes to let me in her life again.

Although it hurts I'll be the first to say that I was wrong
Oh, I know I'm probably much too late
To try and apologize for my mistakes
But I just want you to know
I hope he buys you flowers, I hope he holds your hand
Give you all his hours when he has the chance
Take you to every party cause I remember how much you loved to dance
Do all the things I should have done when I was your man!

Oh God! This song really speaks to what I feel right now except the last part. Yes, I will acknowledge that I was wrong. If I want to have a future with Ana, we have to meet half way. It's not only her that needs to understand me; I also need to understand her. It should be a two-way process. And no! Never! I will never allow any other man to give her heart and flower kind of thing. It should only be me. Only me. I will do all things that I should need to do. But how? How can I approach her after tonight? Oh I remember. There's an event for Jose and it will be just a few days from now. Right! I will ask her about that and give her a lift. That's right. So I need to compose myself and think of the right words to tell her. That's right Grey! Don't ruin that chance. You have to get her back. Yes, I will surely get her back. I want my Ana back. I want her back..

I need to calm myself and after hearing that song, it gave me hope. It challenges me to be a better man for her. A man for Ana, a man she truly deserves. The box lying in the corner of my room caught my attention. Oh, my Ana is so sweet. She bought me something. But I ruin everything we had because of what happened in the Red Room. I started doing the mini version of Charlie Tango. I'm almost done and I feel that my eyes starting to be heavy. I am starting to drift away but I hold my mini Charlie tango tightly beside me. I hope it will be enough to take away my nightmares. My Ana.. Tomorrow, I will see to it that I get time to talk to you. It's been only a few hours since she left and I'm starting to miss her. I miss you my Ana..


I hope you will like it guys. :) This is my first ever story and reviews from you is highly appreciated.

Enjoy! :)