They had just scrambled back in the base. This particular defeat was harder to take than usual. They had been so sure it would finally be over. They thought they had won. They slipped, they let their guards down and they lost their advantage.
Soundwave knows he shouldn't blame only himself. But he couldn't help feeling responsible that he failed their leader. Soundwave wasn't one to get drunk with energon usually. But after Megatron had taken a few, he started pushing Soundwave along to drink with him. Soundwave should have refused; he should have cautioned Megatron about not abusing so close to victory. But instead he obeyed his leader's orders and he drank. His loyalty caused them to fail.
These thoughts were plaguing him as he walked towards his chambers to recharge. He would do anything for Megatron, no matter the cost. He had been drawn to Megatron from the first moment they met. His strength, his conviction, his vision of a brighter future, his unwavering spirit, the built of his frame… Everything about Megatron had enchanted Soundwave. He let a longing sigh escape his voice synthesizer. Would Megatron ever notice him he wondered? What could he do to better serve his leader and love? This time, his loyalty and him obeying every command escaping Megatron's heavenly lips resulted in their defeat. He decided to record this observation.
Soundwave let all his cassettes out for the night. He laid down on his berth and his adopted children all curled up around him to give him comfort. They always knew exactly how to calm Soundwave and he slowly drifted into recharge, his mind full of thoughts of Megatron.
A few days later, another one of Megatron's amazing plans failed. This time they had gotten the tiny humans to think the Autobots were evil and that the Decepticons were heroes. They ended up getting quite a good number of energon cubes out of it so all was not lost. And they all had a bit of fun before stopping the good guy act and enslaving the humans. Soundwave will keep fond memories of his time spent dancing. It does not serve the Decepticon cause but if truth be told, he would like to do it again. He saw some humans holding each other while dancing slowly and he couldn't help but think he'd like to do this with Megatron.
Megatron had also seemed to enjoy himself and Soundwave noticed he kept up the good guy act longer than necessary. Megatron would do everything necessary to win this war, no matter how underhanded the tactic is, no matter the sacrifice. Soundwave knew that and he had vowed to do the same. But the spy also knew that under the unwavering leader mask Megatron wore everyday lied hidden a « gentle » heart and during their Decepticon parade, Soundwave thought he saw the mask fall for a moment, just the fraction of a second…
Megatron seems less angry than weary this time and Soundwave wondered if maybe the unwavering robot was starting to crack under the pressure.
