Dark Gothic Lolita here!
So right now, I have quite a few stories going on and I think that soon I will end up making a schedule so that you can see what is coming out when. I really need to finish all these stories on time before most of them end up going on hiatus! So as you all probably know, my first attempt at a SoulxTsubaki fanfic was a fail. Look, I was young then and didn't know how to write well! (Just like ayear ago?) Well hopefully, I've gotten better over the pat few months and soon it will make a year that I've been with fanfic! Yay!
Leo: Man you talk too much! Just get on with the actual story
Lolita: You don't have to be with me the whole time you know. Just because we'are twins, doesn't make you my owner! So yeah, let's move onto the disclaimers!
Leo: She doesn't own Soul Eater or their frikking cool characters!
Lolita: And neither does she! But I do own this little love story that I'm afraid is never going to happen. Shame.
Leo: She is very sorry about any grammer and spelling mistakes
Lolita: Yeah, I got school for all of that
Unison: Enjoy!
This lullaby
How it started
Tsubaki's POV
I LOVE SOUL 'EATER' EVANS!
That's what I would say if I was brave and a 'god' like Black star, or if I was always with him like Maka. I mean, I don't mean to sound selfish and all, but it's not fair! I guess that I'm used to disappointment that it doesn't even affect me anymore. But still, I deserve some happiness in my life at least once.
I've liked him for a while and I think that I always will. Everyone who thinks that I have a crush, think that I'm crushing on Black star, but to me I think that Black star a baby in a teenager's body prancing around everywhere like he owns the place. Sometimes I feel like his mother and it irritates me like mad.
Well about Soul. I've liked him from the day that we both met. You see, my parents and his parents were apparently good friends so we all went over to their house for a visit. We had never met anyone before this time and I just admired him. So basically, it was love at first sight.
He didn't even give me so much as a second glance, but sometimes I would feel someone's eyes on me and when I look around, no one was actually looking at me. It felt creepy. That was also the same day that I met Maka. She was a guest too that day and somewhere in between when Soul's brother was playing the violin, the two of them snuck off.
I love music, but the violin wasn't really getting to me, so I excused myself for the toilet and walked away. Really, I had gone to find out where Soul and Maka had gone off to and that's when I heard it. The soft music, just like a lullaby was playing its way into my ears and I gladly accepted the sweet sound.
I followed the music until I got to the room where the door was still ajar. I peeped right in and there was Soul playing the piano for Maka! I was actually gutted, I won't lie about that. I stayed until the end of the song and I heard him say those words that made my heart fall even more. "You're the first person that I've ever played to. I'm never going to play it again."
Yep, from that day there was nothing worse than falling in love with a guy who just did something so sweet for a girl and he will never do it again. That cleared it alright, Soul was in love with Maka and that day, I prepared for the worst in everything.
Right now, as I'm heading towards the mirror to where Lord Death is, I can only think of one thing. The fact that I'm going to have to leave. To get away from everything and everyone. No one would mind, I'm hardly noticed. It's good for a ninja, but it brings down self-esteem or so I hear. I've just had enough. Maybe I should just stop…
Normal POV
Tsubaki was standing in front of the mirror that Shinigami-Sama was currently standing in. She looked down at the floor nervously and waited for his reply. "What are you trying to say Tsubaki? That you no longer want to be Black Star's partner?" Tsubaki shook her head rapidly.
"No, no, no it's not like that at all Shinigami-Sama! What I'm saying is that I need to go back and practice my skills with my clan. I don't really know how to use the uncanny sword right, so I need to go back and learn. This is more of a training course."
Shinigami-Sama's large hand came out and tapped his chin. "Okay then, I will grant you permission to go back then. Exactly how long did you say you were going to be gone?" Tsubaki shifted the weight from her left foot to her right. "I will be gone about a year or two if that's alright."
Shinigami-Sama nodded. "If that's all then, it should all be fine. You can leave today or tomorrow, however long it takes you to pack your stuff." Tsubaki nodded and bowed. "Thank you Shinigami-Sama. I will be going now."
She walked down the corridor all by herself. Shinigami-Sama had promised not to tell anyone that she was leaving and she wasn't going to tell them either. The only person who would realise that she was gone would be Black Star because she is his weapon.
Tsubaki sighed as she headed to the canteen. Everyone should be at lunch by now. She looked around, not really feeling hungry just looking for her friends. She managed to see them as they were all sticking out like a sore thumb. Black Star was on the table yelling and laughing, Maka was clawing at him to come down, Soul was moving his food out of the way wherever Black Star trod and the Kid and the Liz were just sighing with Patti laughing her head off. Tsubaki smiled softly. She sure was going to miss them.
As she walked over to the table, Kid and Liz cried out for joy. "Tsubaki's here, finally someone SANE," they both yelled in unison. "MAKA, CHOP!" Oh well, it looks like Black Star is finally down. There are some things that she just won't miss. Tsubaki sat down and sighed. She suddenly felt the eyes of all the other people at the table, excluding Black Star. "Erm, guys what's up? Is there is something on my face?"
Maka shook her head. "Just wondering why you haven't helped Black Star yet." Tsubaki shrugged her shoulders. "One day, I might just not be here and he has to get used to it. He never thanks me anyway." Kid snorted. "That's for sure. Why do you still put up with a guy like him?" Soul snorted and Maka and Liz nodded their heads as though to agree.
"Oh come on guys, he's not that bad," Oh yes he is. "I'm his weapon and my soul wavelength manages to go with anyone. I'm his type of weapon. Anyway, I might just not be here one day, and then what will he do? I can't be there every time I guess…" The others just blinked at her, then didn't even care about what she just said. They all went back to talking and Tsubaki sighed at them all, shrinking lower and lower into her seat.
Finally, Black Star came around and glared heavily at Maka. "You think you can take down a big star like me so easily? You're just lucky that you're a girl otherwise I would have left a star mark on your face to show that you messed with Black Star!" Maka rolled her eyes at him and Kid just looked the other way, wondering why the hell he was friends with a lunatic like him.
From there, things started getting louder and louder until Tsubaki just couldn't take it anymore. She stood up with a face of anger. "JUST SHUT UP ALL OF YOU!" Everyone in the whole canteen seemed to stop and stare at why Tsubaki Nakatsukasa, had just raised her voice. Spoons clanged, food fell on the floor and jaws dropped.
Maka stood up. "What's going on Tsubaki?" Tsubaki flashed her a face of anger. "You want to know? I've had enough okay? I'm tired of all this! I don't need this!" Before she could break something, she stormed right out of the place with everyone's eyes on her. No one was going to see if she was alright because when Tsubaki was angry, she meant business.
Black Star stared after his weapon. "I wonder why she's so angry. In this state, we won't be able to be compact, just like when Maka and Soul fight." Liz just stared at the one person she could actually count on other than Kid (he was hopeless with his symmetrical weirdness, so he hardly helped) and Patti (but she's too carefree) In other words, Tsubaki was the one person she could count on.
"I'll go after and see what's up, though I'm not good with this stuff, so don't expect much from me okay?" They all nodded at her and she went after Tsubaki, sighing along the way.
When Liz finally found her, Tsubaki was sitting on the stairs outside the academy. She seemed to be staring out at the city just below them. Way before she even got within 20 metres of her, Tsubaki turned round and glared. "What do you want?" Liz flinched. It was like the same tone she used to use when someone looked her and Patti's way back when they were in Brooklyn.
"I'm here to talk to you. I mean, what the hell was that in there?" Tsubaki shrugged and turned around. This gave Liz the sign that she was calming down. She walked towards her and sat down next to her. "Tell me. I might not be Maka, but I'm Liz." She smiled hoping that it would work, and it did a little.
"Is it maybe Black Star or what? Are you actually going to tell me?" Tsubaki smiled and kept on looking out towards the town. "It's so beautiful, isn't it? Shibusen is actually quite nice from up here. I've never really stopped to look at it. It's too late now." Liz glanced at her from the corner of her eyes.
"What are you talking about? I mean you go to school here, you'll be able to see it every day!" Tsubaki smiled softly and shook her head. "Do you ever feel like you're not being noticed? Like, everything seems to pass you by and just lurk in the shadows?" Liz shifted uncomfortably. "No not really. Why are you talking like this?"
"I'm done with it, Liz. Can't you see? No one ever notices me and all I'm known for is being the loudmouth's weapon! My kindness is taken advantage of and no one seems to care about my feelings!" Liz turned her head fully. "What are you saying Tsubaki?" The said girl stood up. "I'm done here. I'm going back to my clan, but I'll be back. I'm going to train and get stronger and become somebody."
She looked down at Liz and smiled. "I'll come back better, you'll see." Liz gaped at her. "You're… leaving?" Tsubaki nodded and Liz sighed. "Does anyone actually know about this, I mean are you running or did you get leave? Hell, does Black Star even know?"
"Yes, I took leave for about a year and no, he doesn't know. Liz, I want you to keep this as a secret okay? I don't plan on telling anyone and they don't have to know. Don't tell them where I went, don't write in a diary or whatever and don't even speak about me okay? I need to train in secret. Understand?"
Liz nodded her head and stood up with a smile. "Well I guess that if you're going, we have to keep in touch some time! Like letters maybe or do you have a phone?" Tsubaki smiled. "I would like that." Liz grabbed her friend into a hug. "Well then, you better get stronger and better because if you don't come back better, then I will be angry! I have to say, I will actually miss you, you know."
Tsubaki smiled and came out of the hug. "Got it. Well, I know that school isn't over, but I have to go now. I know you're good at acting, so just act like you couldn't even find me." They both waved and Tsubaki rushed off to the flat, leaving Liz to sigh to herself. She knew another reason as to why she was leaving too, but Tsubaki didn't know that she knew.
Liz just looked down at the stairs where Tsubaki was still running down. "You really love Soul that much that you're running from him aren't you?" She turned on her heel and walked back into the academy.
~x~
Tsubaki was already at the airport when she saw Liz rushing over to her. "Liz, how did you get here so fast?" Liz snorted. "Come on! A friend has to see you off! I want to talk to about one last thing." Tsubaki looked at the time. "I still have time, what is it?" Liz took a deep breath. "You're leaving because of him aren't you?" Tsubaki gave her a puzzled look. "What are you talking about?" Liz slapped her on her arm gently.
"The way that you concealed your feelings towards him is actually impressive, but I still managed to see some major flaws." Tsubaki paled. She knows? "You love Soul, don't you? And you think that he loves Maka." She DID know! But how?
"Yes okay! I love him with all my heart and it hurts that he loves another girl! I should just leave them and get over it, right? That always works." Liz shook her head. "Running away never solves anything. The problem will still be there when you come back. Look, I'll tell you if anything goes on between them okay? Now go, you have a flight to catch."
She watched as she went to check in. They waved at each other and Liz left while Tsubaki went to go and catch her flight. The words that Liz told her rang loud and clear in her head. "Running away never solves anything. The problem will still be there when you come back."
Tsubaki felt a tear roll down her face as she boarded her flight for Japan.
~x~
Maka was setting dinner at the table as she had just invited Kid, the twins; Black Star and Tsubaki to all come and have dinner with her and Soul. Maybe then they could find out why Tsubaki was so angry. The doorbell rang and Soul lazily slouched over to the door letting in a bubbly Patti, a cool Kid and a tired looking Liz. She had to rush all the way back from the airport just to be at the dinner.
"Yo guys. Just come over to the dining room, the food is waiting there for us all to dig into." Patti rushed right off. "Yay, food!" Kid was trying his best not to have a fit about things not being symmetrical and Liz just slowly walked her way through. Maka greeted them.
"Hey guys, we can eat as soon as Black Star and Tsubaki come. Hey Liz, did you manage to talk to Tsubaki?" Liz froze inside and Soul sat up a bit straighter. "No, I'm sorry. I couldn't even find her! She has really good ninja skills." It was true that Liz was good at acting. People usually bought her lies and right now, they all lapped it right up.
Maka's face fell and just then, Black Star came in through the open window and Maka yelled at him. "Black Star! There's a door you know!" Black Star looked around the room as though to be looking for something. Liz rolled her eyes. Looks like they are about to find out now…
"Have any of you seen Tsubaki?" They all shook their heads. The white haired boy looked at Black Star. "Why, is she not at home?" Black Star scratched the back of his head. "Well, when I got back to the apartment, I was expecting to hear her moping about in her room, but when I heard nothing, I went it. The thing is, she had packed up all her stuff."
Everyone's jaw dropped and Liz followed in suit, just to not make herself seem suspicious. "WHAA?" Black Star looked equally confused too. "I don't even know. Maybe I should go and talk to Shinigami-Sama about it tomorrow. I mean, how is a big star like me going to shine without his weapon, his partner?" For once, no one had an answer to that.
If anyone looked more stressed than Black Star, it was actually Soul. He slouched down in his seat and let the information swirl around in his head. Tsubaki… left? But why?
The whole apartment was silent and for once, no one ate a thing.
So do you think that it went well for my first chapter? Do you think that maybe you would all love to read some more? Do you think that you could maybe put it on alert...?
Leo: They fucking get the point you desperate little piece of shit!
Lolita: Wow, harsh words there! I mean, was that really needed?
Leo: Fuck yes! Now I'm going to go and calm down!
Lolita: I hope you guys really did like it! So, because I'm busy with homework (that I always get detention for never doing) and my other stories, I will updating this every say, Thursday? Sound good enough? Yep, that means you have to wait every Thursday before a new chapter comes out! Read it and weep guys, that's just how Lolita-chan rolls! Oh and guys, if the story seems to move too fast for you, tell me about it and I'll try my very best to slow it right down for you, 'kay?
You know the drill, rate or hate flames or floods, whatever rocks your boat!
Leo: Hate and hate, flames, flames and more flames!
Lolita: You really hate me
Leo: Nope, it's love in a negative way!
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