Title: I Always Will
Sum: [SQW Day Five] Regina is too damn stubborn…
Disclaimer: I don't own Once Upon a Time or its associated characters; I'm just borrowing them for a bit of fun.
Rating: T
Characters/Pairings: [Swan Queen]; Emma Swan, Regina Mills
Warnings/Triggers: character sickness/death
Links: -links-
Notes: Swan Queen Week Day Five: Caregiving; uh… angsty… sort of…
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It had popped up months ago, just a little blip on the radar. It was nothing, she'd told me. She'd go see the doctor, he'd tell her that it was a calcium deposit, they'd get it taken out and everything would go back to normal.
She ignored it.
Put it off, again and again. 'I'll get to it later' she said time and again. 'It's not a big deal, dear.' She reassured me. And time passed.
It popped up again a month later. Bigger, and now with a few friends. A few little blips on the radar. 'Go get it checked out' I told her. I even took her to the hospital and sat with her in the room while we waited for the doc.
But… I got called away…
My deputy was home sick. Belle had been taking care of the sick werewolf for the past couple of days, so I had to take the call. Some kids were lurking about in the suburbs, causing one of the older residents of the area to call as a preemptive strike against their planned shenanigans. Which involved toilet paper, eggs, and black spray paint.
I returned to the hospital about two hours later to find that she'd left. The nurses had said that she'd insisted that they not worry about it, and she would be fine, and they let her go.
I was so angry.
I didn't talk to her that night. I didn't even return home that night. I told Henry that I would be spending the night with Ruby and Belle in their home. I also informed him that our trip to the hospital showed nothing—because his mother is stubborn and refuses to sit through tests, even if she thinks there's nothing wrong.
Life continued.
Now we're here. In this dark hotel room. She'd waited too long. I want to blame her. I really do… but I can't. She looks peaceful, laying there in the bed. They had attempted chemo, but it didn't seem to work. Regina had finally said enough and stopped chemo when nothing seemed to change with her condition.
I want to hate her.
"If… if only you had gotten it checked out… when it first started, Regina." Tears are falling down my cheeks. She'd slipped away silently, Ruby had held me while I cried my eyes out, while Belle held onto Henry, and Snow and David huddled together. This was the first moment I'd gotten with her alone. "Maybe… maybe we could have prevented this."
I cared for her every day. And when the bad days happened, I was home with her. I held her when she cried, when she was sick, I was there to hold her hair back and rub her back. If she wasn't strong enough to cook, I would bring her the meal in bed. When she was too tired to lift her arms, I fed the food to her.
I held her every night.
"I love you Regina… I always will."
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Author's Note: My thoughts are kind of a mess, so if it's a little confusing I'm sorry. Basically it's Regina refusing to go to the doctor to check out the lumps in her breasts and it ended up being malignant cancer that had already metastasized to other parts of her body by the time she got it checked out, basically everything that could go wrong, went wrong. Because I'm evil.
And it's poorly written in my opinion. But I don't have it in me at the moment to go back and fix it. Maybe one day.
Hope you enjoyed it.
Chezi out.
