As I was walking home from work I started thinking which not such a good thing considering I have a tendency to start crying over my son Robby. It has been over a year since he was kidnapped then killed because of me. I am moving on slowly but it is still hard to live through such a thing but I have to, Evelyn needs my help with the bills; I can't leave her she is like a mother to me.
I decide to empty my thoughts so I would not start crying I was not in the mood to cry, I still had to go shopping for the turkey for thanksgiving. I was just walking when all of a sudden my mind strayed to the one person I told my self to never think about, he was the second worst thing to think about; Bobby Mercer, the only man I have really considered loving.
It's hard not to think about someone when you live with there mother and there are pictures of that person all over the walls. I settled that it would not hurt just this once to think about him considering it has been six years.
When I got into the house I noticed that Evelyn was not home like she usually was, so I pulled out my cell phone and called her to see if she needed me to get the turkey and supplies for thanksgiving.
"Hey, Evelyn, it's me Lilly. Do you still need me to get the stuff for next week?" I said this as I was taking off my coat and shoes.
"No Dear, after my date I'm stopping at Samir's shop to get the turkey and things. Okay?" It sounded as if she was smiling severely.
"Hey why do you sound like you are in complete bliss?" I asked slightly bewildered I knew she like the guy she was seeing but not this much.
"Well, I see, you sound like you are starting to get over everything that has happened. Just by your tone I can tell." She stated it mater of factly.
"Okay, I guess I don't really know. I'm going to go… I am really beat I need to get some sleep, see you when you get home."
"Okay, my dear." As she hung up I could swear I heard a man laugh in the back ground.
I was glad that she was happy she deserves it. She has worked so hard her entire life to make everyone else happy and mind you she has enjoyed it, but she needs some for herself. I sighed realizing that she was right after all. Feeling slightly content I went up to bed as soon as I laid down I was out.
I woke up to a loud pounding on the front door; I got up wondering who it could be I grabbed a sweater, on my way down the stairs. When I opened the door I froze wondering why the police were with Lt. Green on my porch. I just stared at Lt. Green who had a somber look on his face; I realized that it was something bad really bad.
"Lt. Green What's going on, why are you here at midnight? Which one is it?" Which one? Angel? That was a possibility… Jack? Again another possibility… Jerry? No, Jerry didn't get in trouble…anymore… Heaven forbid if it was Bobby… I waked back into the house waving them into the living room.
"Lilly I think you need to sit down…" The way he stressed the word need I just sat down on the couch.
I normally would have just stayed standing but something was wrong. "Lilly, Ugh I don't know how to say this but tonight at Samir's… Evelyn and Samir were shot in a robbery."
I just panicked; I froze everything in my body seized. It was getting so hard to breath, then I felt it the ache in my throat the pain in my eyes. The tears just started flowing. After a couple seconds, the shock passed then the anger and denial set in. I didn't even know how to start my sentence.
"What- how- when- who did this? Tell me who did this now! I am demanding you tell me and none of this 'can't talk about an on going case' crap! Now, Green!" I said all of this with a serious face; staring him down knowing he would tell me.
"Lilly so far we do not have any one in custody, but we do have a lead. A boy was on the courts across the streets playing basketball… saw two people run out of the store. Okay? Do you need me to call Jerry to stay with you or anyone?" His face showed some concern and slight worry.
"No I will be fine, you all can leave now I just want to be alone. Goodbye Green."
He gave a curt nod and left with the other men in toe behind him.
I just sat there staring at my hands. I didn't know what to do with my self. First it was my mum, then it was my son, and now it's Evelyn the sweetest old lady I've ever known. It was like there was something out there that was like 'Yep, Lilly's happy; time to ruin it.' I realized that I had been sitting there for a few hours and my cheeks were cold. I lifted my hand and touched my face to find it wet. I had been crying silently for hours and did not even know it.
I stood up and my way to the kitchen. I sat down and started looking at the wall. I picked up the phone to call my sister Naomi. She is a year younger than me and grew up with me and the Mercers, she and Jackie had a thing.
It was a relationship but when he left three and a half years ago, that's it he just left. He didn't tell her if they were together but didn't say they weren't. It was all so confusing.
"Naomi, it's me, I know it's late. Listen your sitting down right? Well, tonight Evelyn was at Samir's getting groceries and they were gunned down in a robbery." I sat there waiting for her to say something. Nothing came for a few minuets. Then I heard her breathing.
"What? How could this happen? I don't understand. "She said this is such and soft whisper I almost could not hear her. After explaining it to her in as much detail as I could bear, she decided that she was going to stay over with me for a few weeks.
I stood up and went back up stairs but instead of going to my room I went to Jackie's room. I sat down and picked up the phone to call Jerry to see if he told Jack yet or not. While the phone was ringing I started thinking about the time Bobby left, Jack had to help my sister pick up the pieces. He was my best friend next to my sister after all.
"Hey, Jerry…"
I could tell just by how he sounded that he had been crying. I even hear Camille in the back ground crying, "Hey Lilly, I just got off the phone with Jack and Angel, so Green showed up at the house?" He sounded so somber.
"Yeah, He just left; I also called my sister she will be staying with me for a few weeks."
"Okay, but Angel and Jack will be coming home soon, they will need there rooms." He stated in a mater of fact tone.
"What about Bobby? And Naomi'll just sleep in my room."
Jerry paused and then replied solemnly, "He might be coming, but I don't know. You of all people know how hard it is to track Bobby down."
"Yeah I know, listen I'm going to go to sleep I need to sleep. I will see you tomorrow to help. Love you guys so much, Night."
"Goodnight Lilly" he said gravely.
As I hung up the phone I really hoped that Bobby would not come or that Jerry could not find him; something like that. I would not be able to handle it if he showed up for longer than the funeral. But knowing Bobby he won't leave until he had buried her killer.
