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Chapter one
It has been a rainy day today. I was finding that out the hard way as I ran up this forsaken place. I…...I am just tired and I guessed that was the reason for my hate of everything. As I ran through the brown wet trees splashing puddles a million thoughts ran with me. Few were happy and optimistic.
"After you're where you want to be, you'll be happy."
"Almost there."
"After this rain, there might be some rainbow." But after all these thoughts, I always come back down to reality.
"Have I ever really been happy? Will I even like that feeling and why is it so important?"
"Almost to where?"
"I don't like bright colors." No matter what I thought though, my feet seemed to keep moving despite there being no reason for them to. It wasn't like I wanted to go anywhere, I was…..just running. Running to…..somewhere better? Nah, nowhere is better so why run somewhere? Maybe it was what my parents told me.
"Just get lost Chara!" Or Maybe it was that kid from school. "Why do you always bring chocolate to lunch? Ever heard of real food? Psh, maybe you'll get diabetes and die like everyone wants. You aren't good at anything anyway."
So maybe I am just running to listen for once. To, "get lost" per say. To die. I was soon jolted away from my deep thoughts. I was suddenly amazed to discover a big black hole in front of me. I-it is massive and must be deep. I cannot see the end. I stared down at the abyss before me and the darkness stared back, taunting me.
"S-should I jump!" I said aloud. "Who am I talking to? Myself? Probably crazy by today's standards I guess. Just adding to my resumè to reasons to hate me I guess. I mean what do I lose? If I die I lose nothing because I, I have nothing! No friends, no family that cares, not even things to distract from it. Just me myself and I, the queen of loneliness! I wish I had a crown. If I do jump, what happens if I survive?"
I took a deep breath. I knew what survival ment. Something much worse than death, but was this worth the reward if I did die and would it make things worse? I couldn't help but laugh at the thought. Worse? Than what I am feeling right now? That's pretty rich! Nothing is worse than right now and to die slowly from starvation is better than right now. So I took one last breath. One more. A deep one. In and out. I looked back and realized I ran pretty far. I'm all the way atop Mt. Ebott. With my back to the abyss I looked over the trees one last time. I waved as I let myself fall back.
"Bye trees, not that you care either." I muttered as I closed my eyes feeling nothing but the air sending chills and fear down my spine.
