AN: I'm a Zutara shipper, but hey, as a writer, you've got to write about a fire prince and his affairs at least once in your whole writing life, right?
Disclaimer: nope, I don't own it. Enjoy.
"The Hardest Thing"
Zuko's POV
I look around the moonlit forest, checking for any unwanted visitors ready to disturb our clandestine meeting, another clandestine meeting.
Possibly our last.
We both know I shouldn't be here
This is wrong
And baby, it's killing me, it's killing you
Both of us trying to be strong
I see a shadow move towards me, I turn, ready to strike.
And I see you, looking around, just as I have done minutes ago.
This gives me the opportunity to look at you, memorize every detail down to the very last freckle in case I won't get to see you again.
I won't.
I've got somewhere else to be
Promises to keep
I see you didn't change out of your training outfit; you probably didn't have the time.
But you always have the time to remove your wedding necklace whenever we meet.
Someone else who loves me
And trusts me fast asleep
I look away as you take a step forward. I have to stop tattooing your picture on my mind. No, that place is reserved for my wife.
But you're always going to be tattooed on my heart.
I've made up my mind
There is no turning back
We don't have much time, so why are you taking the slow approach?
As if reading my mind, you run towards me and crush your lips onto mine, your fingers pulling my hair painfully as I unclasp yours.
She's been good to me
And she deserves better than that
We move almost frenziedly.
I don't think we've ever done it this fast before.
Then again, we never really remember anything much about our meetings.
But in my head, I'm memorizing every curve, every ticklish spot, and every freckle.
In my heart, dare I say it; I'm storing every gasp, every moan, every cry, and every whisper to play again and again when this is all over.
When I have to get up and leave for the last time, and go back home to my family as you go home to yours.
We both know that, but we're just too scared to admit it.
It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to do
To look you in the eyes
And tell you I don't love you
We lay down on the cold grass, but we're not shivering.
Well, at least I'm not.
I look up to see you crying.
I don't try to stop it, nor comfort you with lies I cannot say.
So I hold you, giving you warmth and wait until it's all over.
It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to lie
To show no emotion when you start to cry
I can't let you see
What you mean to me
When my hands are tied
And my heart's not free
(We're not meant to be)
We get up and start putting on our clothes. We don't talk because we're probably practicing saying another alibi to our spouses.
I know I am.
I know that we'll meet again
Fate has a place and time
We always, always, say that this is the end.
This will never happen again.
But we always end up lying to ourselves.
We say that we'll stop, but we won't.
This time, I have to make sure we will.
So you can get on with your life
I've got to be strong to be kind
I have to go, Mai is probably wondering where I am, and I'm pretty sure the Avatar is looking for you, too.
I give you one last kiss, a piece of me to carry along with you.
Wipe your tears away.
I turn around.
And I walk away.
I start to run. I can't let you see my tears.
No, I can't let myself run into your arms as we cry together.
I have to do this.
I have to stop hurting the ones who love me.
I've gone so far, I can't turn back.
No matter how much I want to.
Maybe another time, another day
As much as I want to, I can't stay
I've made up my mind
There is no turning back
She's been good to me
And she deserves better than that
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In case your wondering, Zuko's married to Mai and Katara to Aang.
Song: The Hardest Thing by 98 Degrees
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