I starred out the window of the train i was taking back to magnolia and sighed. i had just finished one of the decade missions in under 3 weeks, and had to return to the guild. i hoped the reward was enough to last the guild awhile when i was gone. i knew the new guild Twilight Ogre wouldn't mess with fairy tail when i was there, but i went on a lot of missions. i had to to get money for the guild sense i was pretty much their only revenue source. because of that, Twilight Ogre would be at fairy tail demanding their money as soon as i was gone.

i sighed again, remembering how this all started...

-Flashback-

I woke up and hit my head. "oww!" I screamed loudly. looking up, i saw i had hit heads with another person. "Loke!" i exclaimed, surprised. the lion spirit smiled down at me while rubbing his head.

"you okay Lucy?" he asked, worry evident on his face.

"yeah, I'm fine, but where am i?" i asked, confused. he opened his mouth to answer me, but a searing pain ran through me. memories rushed through my mind, making me grab my head in pain. i saw clips and fragments of the fight with Grimore heart and achnologia. i remembered the attack, and us holding hands. then everything went black.

-1 hour later-

i woke up and saw Loke again, but this time i got right to the point. "i should be dead from achnologia's attack. what happened Loke?where am i?" i said, demanding the answer. Loke looked at me with sorrow, and then answered my question.

"Tenrojima was destroyed lucy. we saved you and brought you to the spirit world, then took your to your apartment to heal you. that's where we are now. no one else was recovered" he said.

"dead?" I said. i cried and sobbed so much it would have put aquarius's waves to shame. it seemed impossible. irrevocable. they couldn't die. not Erza, who was so strong. not Nastu who got up no matter how many times you pushed him down. not Gray, who was my brother and always protected me, and all the others. not my family.

but it was true. i couldn't go back in time an change it. i couldn't remove it from history. it couldn't be done over. tears rolled down my cheeks, and the world could have ended but it wouldn't have mattered. somebody could have set me on fire and i wouldn't have noticed. because they were dead, and it was over. right then i decided i would become stronger for them. i would keep fairy tail alive. i would protect my family.

i was once fairy tail's angel, but now i have fallen.