Vocaloid: Abstract Nonsense

Chapter: 1- "Betty?"

ONE THING, though it has not been commented about. To those who are suicidal, to those who are offended by this type of content, PLEASE get help. It's not a fun thing to be so bitter and not able to enjoy life like you should.

Disclaimer: I don't own Vocaloid!

~Nir's POV~

*Flashback*

I looked up at the school. A building of hell, a building that slowly tore all of your self-esteem away and ripped it to shreds. This building that even if you get bullied, no one cares.

I'm not new here. No. That was years ago. But even then I got bullied, I was just a young thing coming from a terrible place that was hoping to start fresh. But no. Any flower that comes to the world will be snuffed out of all its pureness.

But maybe it'll change this time. I always try to keep that mindset. The what if's, the possibilities. Maybe I won't be thrown to the pits of sadness, desperately trying to claw my way out. Maybe it'll all go smoothly this time.

That's what I try to think. No matter what.

*End of Flashback*

I sighed, that was the "naive" me. Now here I am. The year was moving along much too slowly now.

I'm innocently working on my school work, and other people are still spreading rumors of me! Why can't they let it rest? Stupid things. There's one of me having an affair with this guy that played video games with me. Being called a hoe, ugly, bitch, stupid, and the list goes on.

My brain crumbled a bit, I felt like breaking. Right now. But I can't. No. Not yet. I can cry when I'm alone... At home. That's what I always looked forward to when a day was bad enough. Even though I wished to not be home, I thrived to walk in the door of the cold apartment and throw myself into blankets and finish the homework assigned. After finishing that, I ruled the apartment all of the rest of the day; my mother didn't get home until very late.

I was brought back to reality to quickly finish up the last question on the worksheet. Happy with the answer, and also happy that this meant no math homework, I grabbed another piece of paper to merely draw on.

The doodle slowly became a heartless robot, who, even though was heartless, always felt empty and depressed.

I'm just a robot that can be torn and torn apart. Aren't I?

It's a corrupt fantasy.

"Ok class, you are dismissed!"

I heard the teacher say, and the students started to file out.

I walked quite a bit stiffly and awkwardly to my locker, why was I so stiff? I shook it off since it wasn't too noticeable. But, of course, someone has to comment on it. There's always someone to do so.

"Nir! She's so stiff! Hah! She's just like a monochrome puppet! I bet she's so stiff like that after she's had sex with her master!"

See? Someone just has to say something about Nir who is innocently walking. Who's just walking!

Despite all of their constant nagging about me, I continued walking. It was the same girl who was always loudmouthed and always had something to say anyway. So I might as well not pay her any mind.

I continued walking alone, when I saw a flash of blonde hair. The blonde hair was really bright, I bet the owner of the incredible hair is smiling right now. It's much better than having this miserable black hair, right?

Ah well, it doesn't concern me.

That person, too, might as well put a price tag on me. Make me repeat the misery over and over again. Even though I don't know her, I know she'll be influenced by other people and eventually joke on me like all the others do.

Why hasn't the end of the day come yet?

I arrived in my next class, seats arranged neatly, mine being by the window. That window was open, and the sky outside was so bright it made me sick. I put my head out of the window. I wanted to jump out of it, land on my head and die. But I'm scared to. Even though it would be the quickest way out, I wouldn't be able to will myself to do it.

I instead brought my elbows to the window sill to watch the free birds fly about.

So free. So free of any worries and troubles with other people. I'm envious.

"Nir! Get your head out of the window!" Teacher scolded me, I did as I was told. Heat flamed to my face as everyone in the class laughed. I do strange things, so is this why I get bullied?

I sighed slightly, everyone started to quiet down. But one person seemed to not have to quiet down at all. As if he didn't laugh at all. Someone with blonde hair. It must be the same person from earlier.

I'll dismiss the thought of that person immediately.

And class continued to drone on.

"Class dismissed." Teacher let us go.

Teachers usually love me. It's rare for them to hate me. Usually I can determine if they are an enemy or acquaintance... Or even friend. But not this teacher, I despise this one.

I walked out the door to the hallway, ready to leave school behind me as soon as possible.

"Hey," I heard a voice behind me.

I turned around and it was the same guy who looked like he was the only one who didn't laugh at me. I'll call him Ponytail-san for now. Just a small joke for someone like me.

"Yes?" I ask in my quiet voice, throughout this school year, things have broken me down so badly that I've become shy. I hate it. I used to be such an easygoing girl. I turned my attention back to Ponytail-san.

"Here," he said, handing a small package to me. It was pink with a red bow on it. It matched the one on top of my head.

"Huh?" I asked, tilting my head a bit.

"It's cake," he said, blushing a bit. "Someone gave it to me, but I honestly don't want it. So, I'm giving it to you. If you want it, I mean."

My face turned into one of confusion.

Cake. Something so sweet for someone who has become so bitter like me?

"Ah. Um. Thank you," I said, blushing a bit.

I gladly accepted the present. Hopefully it doesn't come to bite my butt in the end.

~Time Skip to Home~

The day just continued to get worse! More and more people spread rumors of me, and it just continued to hurt more and more throughout the day.

Finally reaching the door to my apartment, I sighed sorrowfully and walked in.

Now I just want to...

In my room, the injection needle on the floor caught my eye. The green poison inside taunting me. 'Hey, you big dumby! Stick me in your wrist, it'll make it all end!'

I teared up at the bitter thoughts and dropped my backpack onto the ground. The zipper was open, probably the work of one of my bullies, and out fell a pretty pink box with a red bow tying it.

'Ponytail-san gave me this,' I thought, confused as ever. -I... Never got his name.-

I opened the box and took a deep breath in. The cake looked amazing. Yet he gave it to someone like me.

To this, my eyes watered slightly, and I took a bite of the small pastry.

The small pastry that the kind Ponytail-san gave me.

~Next Day~

I woke up and went to do my morning routine: Brush teeth, wash face, throw uniform on, and brush my hair lazily.

Before leaving I go to give my mother a kiss. I hate her.

I looked down at her sleeping form, pushing a smile on my face as I bent down to show my "love."

"I'm out mom! Bye love you!"

She woke up, dazedly staring at me before kissing my cheek. I walked out of the door after this.

Even though I say I hate her, I could never really. I have no reason to, do I?

~At School~

I looked at the people around me, people I knew. They were slouching. Their screws must get tightened.

At the hellhole, these are the type of pathetic people that I talk to. The type of pathetic that I categorize myself with. I am as pathetic as them anyway.

Smiling, I talked with them, walking all the while.

However, all of that was interrupted when the 'Populars,' came up to me, and started talking to me, dragging me around, acting like they were my friends.

I left my friends behind, it's like I'm living a double life here. I didn't want to leave them behind.

The 'Populars,' had their feel of me and ditched me, so I walked on with my life. I don't care about them.

Raising my 'antenna,' as I walked past the people who ditched me, I heard them talking about this 'Media Monkey.' Another blonde figure, different from Ponytail-san.

Listening to more of it, I heard how she liked this Len guy, but was dating this Dell guy.

How can people just tell everybody their crushes? I'd find it to be too embarrassing to go out and tell anyone of my crush. Though, I don't have one. It would still be embarrassing.

It's not even my business to be criticizing someone like her; she's just a fraudulent way of business anyway. Shrill voice and all. She doesn't concern me, a dustily of existence.

I pointed a gun at her as her back turned from me. This blonde with a pathetic, pure, white bow in her hair. Maybe I'm a bit envious. I think I should drop my gun now; I'm becoming just as pathetic as the others.

As I was bringing my hand to my side, regretting the bitter thoughts I had towards an innocent girl, she turned around revealing pure blue eyes.

She turned and smiled at me, "oh, what's your name? You wanna walk together?"

The smile seemed wicked, and my shy exterior took over. Was I begging to just be bullied by another person?

"U-um..." I mentally sighed at that being the only thing that I was able to stutter out.

How many times have my emotions killed me?

The girl smiled even more cruelly, and shook her head in evil amusement.

"Forget it."

My heart got a rush, a rush of anxiety or some sort. I knew it.

She'll turn out to be like the others, spreading rumors and throwing things.

And I could still do not a thing about it.

This will probably be about 5 chapters... Or more... Please review! And I hope you guys enjoyed!

Ok. Rin and "Betty" are two different people. But "Betty" will be called Nir instead... Oh! If you look up "Liar Betty" you'll see our little star of Abstract Nonsense in the video. So it's Nir! ^^ It's Nir x Len But basically that would be Rin x Len... So.. Oh! Or Dell I don't even know...

Um... What else should I say... Hmmmm Oh! I don't know what couples will be... Let's just say Rin x Len...

Until next time~