FOR YOU – Part 1
For you, because you'll surely fly up to this sky.
"People tend to find comfort in one another, Sasuke-kun." - - "Not from him. Anyone but him. I've lost too much to him already." – SasuSaku. Post War.
Sasuke never knocked on any doors. He believed a good Shinobi always knew when someone else entered their space. So why should he announce his presence when they already knew he was there? Yes. He never knocked, save for when he went to see the Hokage. He'd only made that mistake once and had learned that Tsunade was someone you didn't cross lightly. Even as a Jounin she could assign multiple D-Rank missions if she felt you deserved it. Although, yes, maybe Sasuke didn't have many doors he could knock on. Sometimes he had the urge to see someone when the silence became too much for him. He could usually find Naruto at Ichiraku Ramen, and that night – Sasuke had had enough of Ramen. He never went to see Kakashi. He'd avoided his old sensei well since the war ended. Sasuke was never one to admit he was wrong, and that was a conversation he'd rather not have any time soon. So, that had left Sakura. Sure, the two of them hadn't really had a real talk. The conversation that Sasuke knew was bound to happen at some point. And although Uchiha Sasuke wasn't one to apologize. He knew he had to. But the 'I would have killed you, and I'm sorry' bit seemed to be lacking a lot at the moment. When Sasuke went to see her, there was never much silence, at the beginning yes, but as the visit dragged on, Sakura talked on and on. Maybe because she knew how the solitude got too much, too painful sometimes. Sakura, he'd realized after returning, had changed. She was still clever and intuitive and always had an answer for everything. But she'd become strong and more confident than he remembered. And within weeks, Sasuke thought he knew her. Knew every move she would make before she made it. He knew everyone he let close to him like this, he didn't like surprises in life - only in battle. That made things exciting. But sometimes Sakura managed to surprise him. It was those clear green eyes that seemed to see into him and know things he didn't want her – or anyone to know. So, Sasuke didn't knock on her door that night. He'd slipped inside soundlessly. Her apartment was dark and he supposed maybe it was late, but whatever. His Sharingan flipped on and his eyes moved through the darkness. She was in the living room. Asleep. But she wasn't alone. Her head rested on his shoulder and his head was on top of her's as they slept peacefully. Anger pooled in his stomach and a strange kind of loneliness gripped his heart. Why did it have to be Naruto? Sasuke's fists clenched at his sides. Naruto. Naruto. Naruto. Always fucking Uzumaki Naruto. Naruto who got everything he ever wanted. Even a second moment with his parents, and now he was taking Sakura? Sasuke felt sick to his stomach and his face tightened in anger. How could Naruto have everything and he was still left with nothing? No one.
Sasuke cursed below his breath and turned on his heel. Slipping out of the apartment the same way he came. But he didn't return to the empty Uchiha Compound. He headed to their old training grounds. And he pushed himself, without using any chakra. Sometimes a Shinobi just needed to feel the pain. He worked himself to the brink and only fell to his knees when the sky was lighting up. And Sasuke didn't feel any better. That unknown feeling was still gripping his heart and it was while he was staring up at the rising sun, wondering what the hell he was doing. Was he just going through the motions? Trying to survive, day to day. There was a slight rap on the back of his neck and Sasuke growled, trying to spin around but it was too late, his vision was already dimming and the last thing he saw before he blacked out was the masked face of his old sensei, and the worried look in his exposed eye.
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"I know you're awake, Sasuke-kun."
Sasuke opened his eyes at once, seeing no reason to fake anymore. He was at the hospital. Kakashi must have brought him in. From what he could see, it was already dark outside. He must have slept the entire day. He rarely got any sleep after returning here. Things were different in his heart now, there was no more anger, or hate. Just this overwhelming sadness and loneliness that none of them could ever understand.
"Sasuke-kun," Sakura whispered, and he felt her hand on his arm. Sasuke turned his head to look at her. The scene was all-too familiar. He remembered laying in this same bed, after seeing Itachi for the first time. The very same expression on his face. The only thing that was different was Sakura. Those green eyes seemed to be staring into him again, but this time he didn't flinch away.
"Why?" she asked softly, "Why do you do this to yourself?" her hand brushed down his arm and to his bandaged hands.
Sasuke's dark eyes followed her movement before looking up at her again. His eyes turned away and to the window.
"You're with Naruto now, right?" Sasuke pulled his arms from her grip and continued to look away, waiting for her to leave, but she didn't. "No."
Slowly, his dark eyes turned to her, half looking at her through his hair.
"People tend to find comfort in one another, Sasuke-kun."
Sasuke looked away again. His fists clenching in his lap. "Not from him."
"What?"
"Not from him." Sasuke said again. "Anyone but Naruto."
"…Sasuke-kun?"
He turned towards her again. "I've lost too much to him already." And then his hand gripped her wrist and Sasuke's fingers slid into her hair and all Sakura do was stare as his lips collided with her's. His eyes squeezed shut, hiding from her shocked expression. Too soon it was over, Sasuke pulled back and without looking at her, turned to look out of the window again, his eyes seeing for the first time the flower on his nightstand. But still Sakura stood there, unmoving and unable to speak. Sasuke could feel her hands gripping the sheets tightly.
"Sasuke-kun…" her voice shook.
"What?"
"What are you talking about?"
Sasuke sighed, turning around to face her again and when he did, Sakura's hands reached out, cupping his cheeks. "Tell me you mean it." But she didn't give him a chance to answer, this time she kissed him. Sasuke recovered quicker than she had. He kissed her back and although she was the only person he'd ever kissed, Sasuke was a quick study. He'd known what a kiss was supposed to be and he applied it here. Sakura gave a little gasp when his tongue slid against her own. Eventually, she leaned over him, her knees on the bed, and Sasuke's arms around her. When they finally broke for air, Sasuke's face buried itself in her neck. Away from her knowing eyes.
"You're not alone, Sasuke-kun."
He tensed beneath her, and Sakura's hand slowly glided along his hair. "I love you. Take comfort in me." She kissed his head and slowly the harsh tension began to leave his body. He lifted his head to look up at her. Naruto couldn't have Sakura. Not her. Even if she had to take comfort in him. Sasuke leaned up and kissed her again.
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Hey guys! This is the first chapter of three!
I've completed all three chapters so I'll be uploading them with a day in between each.
Reviews are adored!
Zana-Lee
