AN: This is my first fan fiction and I am really excited. Like most of you, I am a Chair fan. This is short because it is just introducing my story. It starts from the epic train station scene in episode 4.02 Double Identity. Please review and leave criticism and suggestions. Hope you enjoy!

Thinking of You

The Truth About the Lies

Chapter 1

Chuck froze when he saw her. He immediately began to have flashbacks of the last time they spoke. "Blair, I thought you didn't love me anymore or cared if I lived or died. Jenny Humphrey was-" "Don't say her name! Or anything else to me ever again. This whole night didn't happen." He remembers everything he keeps trying to forget. Jack Bass. The Empire. Jenny Humphrey. All the mistakes Chuck Bass had made that Henry Prince would never repeat. He can't help but think how gorgeous Blair is as she searches the crowd. Blair's red, rosette ruffle, strapless gown looked beautiful against her pale skin and dark hair. Her red lips irresistible. He misses her so much but he knows he lost her. He just stares at her unable to move.

She sees him and hardly recognizes him. No suit in sight. Just a pale blue button-up shirt tucked in cheap pants. Then she sees his cane. Her heart drops. Suddenly, their eyes meet and gravity slowly makes them come face-to-face. She searches into his dark, lost eyes, hurting because she can't see the man she once loved.

Blair breaks the silence. "Just because you're dressed poorly doesn't mean you're not Chuck Bass." She tries to smile.

"Why would I want to be him?" Chuck replies smiling back, weakly. Blair can see right through him and he knew it.

"You should have told me you got shot."

"I'm surprised you didn't shoot me yourself..." He sometimes wished she had.

"I have. Many times... In my dreams... The good ones. But if you were really hurt I would wanna know," she insists.

"When I woke up my ID was gone. Nobody knew who I was; nobody was coming to look for me... I realized 'I might me alive, but Chuck Bass doesn't have to be,'" he explains.

"Changing your name doesn't change who you are..."

"It's a good start. A chance lo live simply, earn people's respect...maybe become a person someone could love." It hurt to actually say it out loud. He knew once it left his mouth Blair would try to put some sense into him.

"Someone did love you..." Blair looks down so he doesn't see the affect he still has on her. Then she quickly looks back into his eyes. "and... you owe it to her. And everyone else you're leaving behind not to run away, which is what you're doing. And I don't think that great man you're talking about wanting to be...is a coward. I think he would face up to what he did."

Chuck looked straight into her eyes and said the only thing he believed would help her understand his actions. "I destroyed the only thing I ever loved."

Blair felt herself starting to choke up. She had to stay strong. She spent all summer trying to forget him. She met Prince Louis and nobody could be a better distraction for her. She was truly starting to become happy again. She pulled out the ring he was going to purpose to her with. She slowly handed it back to him. She knew this was the time to end all things with Chuck. She let out a big sigh and she knows that she will never see any other ring as perfect as the one had chosen for her. She looked him right in the eyes and said the five hardest words she ever had to say in her life. "I don't love you anymore."

She never saw Chuck looked more broken then she did right after she said those words. She couldn't give into him, though. She replied to his reaction the only way she could. "But it takes more than even you to destroy Blair Waldorf," she smiles.

Chuck had no idea how to respond to that. He just says the obvious. "Your world would be easier if I didn't come back..."

She knew he was right. But she couldn't risk never seeing him again. "That's true...But it wouldn't be my world without you in it."

They just kept looking into each other's eyes. He couldn't believe it was really over. There was nothing more they could say or do. Blair kisses his cheek and leaves. A few moments later, he grabs his bags and goes to find Eva.


"I knew it was too good to be true. Who is she?" she says to Serena.

Serena only met Eva earlier that day. She wasn't too sure what her relationship is with Chuck and whether or not to explain Blair to her. It was a touchy topic and she didn't want to make anything more complicated. "I don't think I am in any position to tell you. You will have to ask Chuck yourself. I'm sorry."

"Chuck? Can you at least explain that to me? Everybody keeps saying he is Chuck when he told me his name is Henry Prince." Eva has never felt more confused then she did right then.

"Well, it will take a while to explain. I don't have much time." Serena is really trying to avoid the topic and just get away.

"Please, just the basics! Something to make me understand anything..." she pleads.

"Alright, let's go to the café across the street," I can't believe I'm doing this! She says to herself.

They cross the street and sit down on the bench outside the café. Serena takes a deep breath and carefully chooses what information to give to Eva. "I don't know where to begin."

"Begin anywhere. Honestly!"

Serena can see she is really desperate for any information. She decides to just explain who Chuck really is and what Blair was to him. "His name is Chuck Bass. Not Henry Prince. He is trying to change his identity because he can't deal with the problems he created for himself." Eva just stares at her with a confused look. Serena continues, "He is one of the richest men in the upper east side. In his past he would hook up with every girl in Manhattan, drink and do drugs. Blair was his closest friend and one day they hooked up when they were both vulnerable-"

"That beautiful brunette woman who was just with you," Eva said cutting her off.

Serena nodded. She looked at Eva to make sure it was okay to continue. Eva nodded. "It took him a long time to confess he loved her. He never had a relationship and never let anybody get close to him. His dad passed and left him Bass Industries, and ever since he has been trying to prove that he can handle the responsibility. It came to the point where he would even trade his girlfriend, his only love, to get a hotel back. It ruined them. Finally, he did the most romantic thing he could think of to win Blair back and that was to copy one of her favorite movies, An Affair to Remember. He stood on top of the Empire State building with her favorite flowers, peonies. He waited and waited, but she never came because her maid, Dorota, went into labor that morning. Chuck was really heart broken. He then slept with Blair's worse enemy who is also my step-sister, even his step-sister, Jenny Humphrey. When Blair finally got to him, the damage was done. She found out right when Chuck was about to purpose. She told him not to speak to her ever again and hasn't seen him since 'til now. And all that is honestly just the basics of him. There is so much more..."

"I would have never guessed… I…" Eva was speechless. She didn't know what to think of it all. The man she met was so sweet and caring. He could never hurt a fly. It was definitely a lot to take in.

"I know. I'm sorry. I don't know where you stand with him and I am pretty sure I said too much-"

"No. Thank you. I really needed to know. I just don't know what to do from here."

Blair just turned the corner and looked for Serena by the car. Then she spotted her. She motioned for Serena to cross the street so they can leave. Tears were running down her face.

"Well it looks like you will find out soon. I'm sorry, but-"

"It's fine. You can go. Don't let me keep you. Hen- I mean, Chuck should be coming any moment now." It felt weird to say his real name.

Serena nodded and went over to Blair.


Serena and Blair quickly got in the car. Blair asked the driver to give her a minute and just stay parked.

"What happened, B?" Serena asked. She was really worried.

"Nothing. I said all I had to say. I just never thought I would feel like this afterwards. It's over between Chuck and I. For good! I don't think I can handle it. What if I made the worst mistake I could ever make? What if-"

Blair was talking really fast and freaking out. "Stop it, B. You know how many mistakes Chuck has made? Too many to count! You did the right thing. I know it's hard but you will get through it. I will be here for you. You will get over him soon enough. And you will with Louis. An actual prince! You can't get a better rebound than that."

Blair leaned on Serena's shoulder and let out a big sigh. She laughed a little. "You're right, S. I deserve to move on and be happy. I deserve a real prince."

"You do, B. How about you clean up your make-up attend that ball? Louis is waiting for you. And I have a date with his sexy driver." Serena winked at Blair.

"That is a good idea. But I can't tell if you are trying to cheer me up or get rid of me," Blair smiled.

"Both, actually…" Serena laughed.

"Wow, S. Thanks a lot! I guess we should be going. Driver? To the ball! This Cinderella has no time to waste."

"Oui, Mademoiselle."

Blair knew that she did the right thing and she cannot wait to see her true prince.


Chuck finally started slowly walking back towards Eva. It took him a while, but he finally found her sitting outside the café.

"Eva! You ready?" Chuck yelled across the street. She just looked up at him and then looked back down. Shit, Chuck said to himself. He doesn't want to lose Eva as well. He quickly limps across the street to see what's wrong. He sits down next to her and lifts her chin up.

"Don't…" she says and turns her head away. She didn't know what to say to him. All she knows is that she is hurt and she feels like their whole relationship was a lie.

"What happened?" he asked, dreading the answer. He knows she knows. Now all he can do is wait for her to bring it up. He stares at the cars driving past and all the happy couples walking around in the most romantic city in the world. He wonders why his life can't be that simple.

"I know everything, Chuck." She felt wrong saying his name, but she had to. It was the only way she can prove that she knows.

"Who told you?" he asked. He knew the answer. He can't believe he couldn't hide his identity for long. Everything was just falling apart all around him.

"Serena. The girl you said you didn't know earlier. The one that came by earlier today..." She says trying to explain who she is.

"I know. She is my step-sister. I'm sorry you had to find out everything like this." He truly was. He really did like Eva. Everything was simple with her. What you see is what you get. If only he could be the same.

"So what happens now? You leave me? We go our separate ways? I can go-"

"Eva, no... Listen to me." He grabs her hand. She still wouldn't look at him. "All the time we spent together was real. That wasn't a lie. I just felt that if you knew the truth, you wouldn't take a second look at me. I'm a mess!" he truly meant what he said. Eva was good for him.

"Really?" she smiled looking back up at him.

"Really. I would never hurt you. You are all I care about now." He was determined not to destroy her as well.

"Well did you get the tickets? Do we have money left over for food?"

"I thought you said you knew everything. I'm Chuck Bass." He smirked. "Money isn't a problem." He smiles and kisses her passionately on her soft lips. She kisses him back and hugs him tight.

"Oh yeah. This is going to take some getting use to, Mr. Bass," she replies with a smile and kisses his neck. She can't believe her life has turned around so fast. She met the most handsome, sweetest man and now he has money as well. She is truly living a fairytale.