I don't own any of the SVU characters I only own all the spelling mistakes and Aussie language people don't understand.

A/NHi guys this is only the first chapter of what I hope to be my first long is just what I wanted to happen in the show... And we all know it should have.

Chapter 1

The beginning.

Why would agent Hammond want to see me to finish up the case?

I wasn't even the lead detective, Elliot was. I really don't want to go and see him all I want to do is go home and curl up in my bed, now that the love of my life is gone. My love Alexandra Cabot is dead and there is nothing I can do about it. She never even knew my feelings for her I was always to afraid of her reaction.

So here I am driving along towards my destination, and i swear I can hear her voice screaming out to me, asking me to be with her. All I can think now is maybe she did know my feelings for her maybe she did love me, but its all maybes now.

I arrive at this strange location, on the side of the road in the middle of nowhere, i find it strange that there are a heap of black SUV's parked along the side of the road but in my current state of mind I let the bizzar occurrence slip. I step out of my mustang and approach agent Hammond just wanting to get this over with.

" Detective Benson, thank you for coming on such short notice, now I'm sure you are curious as to why I have summoned you here on this night?" Agent Hammond greeted Olivia with what seemed to be aggravation over this stupid meeting.

Olivia replied" yes you would be correct agent Hammond so if you don't mind could we make this quick, I would like to go home because I have just loss my best friend of which who ment an awful lot to me."

" yes well if you choose to accept what I'm about to ask you, you won't be going home Miss Benson."

" what do you mean If I accept, and why won't I be going home?"

"we have had a request to ask for you to enter the witness protection program, now before you ask why I will show you."
Just as Hammond finished a back seat door to one of the black SUV's opened to reveal one blond hair blue eyed beauty, with her left arm confined to a fabric sling that hung from her long elegant neck. The exact same figure as Olivia benson's best friend Alexandra. All of a sudden the blond eyed beauty mouthed in a plea.

" Come with me! I want you to come with me Olivia, I know I have never said anything to you about my feelings before, but I cannot imagine my life without you Olivia, I want you to lay with me at night, eat with me at the table and hopefully, eventually wear a ring on your finger with me."
Alex then just stares at Olivia with anticipation praying to god that the vibe she got from Liv was right and she did infact love her.

Olivia just stood there shell shocked, unable to process what has just been said to her, let alone process the fact that Alex was alive!Olivia just mumbled incoherent word after the other still shocked
" I... I ... You... Dead, I... What? Your funeral is tomorrow..."

"Detective, i know this is a difficult decision to make but we need to hurry, you need to make a decision quickly so we can move you to your new location." Agent Hammond, barked aggressively.

" I umm, what's going to happen here, I mean everyone will come looking for me and what about some of my stuff?"
Hammond cut Olivia off in desperate need of an answer.
"Detective please all that is sorted and we will pick up some of your valuables and bring them to you, so please give me an answer so we can make Miss Cabot safe, you do want that don't you?"

Olivia still stands there shocked, this is all she ever asked for a life with Alex but what about the guys at the 1-6, what will they think..Olivia automatically thinks...I love alex and she obviously loves me soooooo...do I stay here and be miserable for the rest of my life and hang out with they guys to cover my loanlyness or do I go with the woman I have loved for three years. The only woman.. infact the only person she has ever loved..?

" ok, I will go"Olivia said with not an ounce of regret in her voice, and before Alex could even think of a thank you speech to give her new life companion, the both of them were shoved into the backseat of the SUV and were speed off into the darkness of the night!
Only after a few minutes of driving Olivia finally spoke breaking the tension in the backseat

"why?"
Olivia asked just staring into Alex's blue eyes as they drove down that long dark road to their new life together. Alex lingered in her answer wanting to say the truth but not sound like a complete idiot, which she already thought she had done by asking the brunette detective to come with her.

" I just woke up in the hospital and Hammond was there and he said I would be safer if I stayed dead, so here I am 'dead' and on my way to some country town probably on the other side of the country and I couldn't, no I cannot imagine being alive without you Olivia, I just can't! I mean what I said about how I want you to lay with me at night, so I can snuggle into you and feel safe and I want to look up from my dinner plate to see your beautiful face. And one day if you agree I want to walk down the isle of a church and look up to your face." Alex's tears had become so heavy she was unable to get a single word out that Olivia could understand.

Wanting her not to shed another tear, Olivia moved forward towards Alex and caressed her cheek wiping the tears away from her face with the pad of her thumb. Alex lifted her head and stared deep into the chocolate orbs belonging to the brunette detective, she just melted at the sight of them.

"Alex baby it's ok"
Olivia clamed Alex with her closeness and soft realizing that she to needed to confess some emotion, at the htought she broke out into tears and started to explain

"I know how you feel Alex baby, I do and all those feelings of you not being able to live without me, I feel the same way about you. I was coming to meet Hammond and then going home to curl up in my bed and face the fact that I was going to be loanly forever and that i should probably start collecting some cats because you are the only woman I have ever loved!"
Alex returned the earlier favor received by Liv and wiped away the tears flowing from her chocolate orbs that she loved so much and giving a slight giggle to the sarcasm of Olivia's earlier statement of the cats.

Alex didn't know what to say, she had just given up her job, apartment and all the boys at the 1-6, and at that moment she realizes that Olivia must really love her.
"thank you Olivia for coming with me, I know what your job and the boys at the 1-6 mean to you, and to be honest I didn't expect you to say yes I just thought I would give it a try. And I know this may be a stupid question to ask right about now but... do you love me Liv? "

Alex spoke the truth, she didn't actually expect olivia to drop her entire life for her because she finally admitted her feelings towards her and she doesn't even know if she does love her; she just wanted to know.. For sure!

"Alex I love the boys at the 1-6, but they can't give me what you have already given me before you asked me to come with you tonight...I have loved you from the moment you walked through the squad room doors 3 years ago, and now knowing that you love me to it just makes it feel right to stay with you instead of me staying in new York which will kill both of us, on the inside anyway. Alex I love them, but I most defiantly love you more."

Alex just looked deeper into Olivia's eyes searching for any doubt or guilt, but nothing. All she could see was love. She has seen Liv at her worst and her best and she knew what looks ment at that moment Olivia leaned down and gently pressed her lips against alex's she was going to be accepted with open arms Alex moved in closer towards Olivia and laid in her lap and just went to sleep whilst they drove on through the night towards what was about to become the life of Janelle and Ziva Whal.