Winter

{A jAg Creation}

Chapter 1

December 13th Munich, Germany; it's the dead of winter and the snow has already started falling. It snows every year but strangely we have not had one white Christmas; maybe this year we'll get lucky. I live with my friend Alfons; he reminds me a lot of my brother though I tend to keep that a secret; I don't want him to know that sometimes he makes me want to cry. I rented an apartment on the other side of town just incase if Alfons got to me to the point where tears were certain. Normally around that time we would have these stupid little fights that would tear us a part as well; those stupid fights... Those are what separated us now; not just for the fact that he wants to hide me from his family just makes me sick to my stomach. Am I his dirty little secret? Is he ashamed of me? Why does he do this?

Leaning against the window I watch the snow fall; I've come to a problem in my studies and taking a break from it all seemed like a good way to clear my head. All the while a song rang through my head called Heart Failure; it seemed to fit the mood.

I wonder if the library is open… I thought as I turned to grab my coat and head out the door and down the hall to the exit. For days I had wondered if killing myself was the only solution to my problem, I would smack myself when I realized how dumb I was being for even thinking of such a thing. Out side the cold snowy air seemed to sting my face, I still wondered how people could live in this cold; sighing I kept walking through the already thick accumulation of snow on the side walks. I was nearly frozen by the time I reached the library, to my surprise Alfons and his sister seemed to be perched happily reading books, laughing, and enjoying themselves.

I couldn't help but glance over at him for a second before he looked back up at me as I turned to put my snow cover jacket and scarf on the coat rack to dry. I didn't look at him as I walked past though he seemed to stair.

"Hey; what's up Al?" Alfonse's sister asked as he turned back to face her.

"Oh it's nothing, I thought I saw someone I knew." He smiled to her as they continued reading; hearing him say that almost made m drop the book I had chosen. Sucking it up, I chose a few more books before going to the front desk, asking for a pen and some paper before sitting down at the table adjacent to them. I could feel one pair of eyes seeming to pierce into my back; watching me; staring like a hungry animal stalking its food. But, what I didn't know is that it was Alfonse's sister that had seemed to taking a liking to my appearance. As I read and studied I could feel her staring at me.

"Sis; what are you looking at?" I heard Alfons ask.

"Huh, oh nothing." She asked, I could tell by her voice she had taken quite an interest in me as she watched me study. After a while, the heat from the library began to get to me; I rolled up my sleeves and continued with my studies; surprisingly Al and his sister remained and would run to go get more books ever-so-often so to keep entertained. After a few hours I got up and put the books back and got ready to leave, to my surprise Alfonse's sister wanted to leave at the same time as I. Grabbing my coat I made my way outside into the already thick snow as Alfons and his sister fallowed after and hopped into the car they drove in; I didn't watch them, I was guessing Alfons knew I didn't want anything to do with him right now.

As they drove by Alfons splashed sludge from the frozen road all over me; I could see through the back window that his sister made him stop the car so she could yell at him. Before I knew it Alfons had stepped out of the car; I clenched my fists in anger. I was tired of him treating me like this when he had his family over. He walked over to me as I saw his sister step out as well; he walked over to me and we looked each other in the eye, he could see my anger and frustration. Swing my arm back I punched him right in the face, knocking him to the ground; his sister standing in shock before I spoke.

"You bastard; first you hide me from your family like I'm the fuckin' plague and then you go and splash me with the filthy sludge on the road! I am tired of being treated like this all the time!" I shouted as I took off running past him and past his sister; Alfonse's sister stood in awe, she had no clue that Alfons and I knew each other or that he had been purposely treating me like this. She walked over and helped him up.

"Al, you need to explain this to me." Alfonse's sister demanded; I slowed to a walk as I pulled my scarf over to hide my head from the cold and the fact that my hair was wet with sludge.

"I do know him." Alfons sighed; I walked until I got back to the apartment, avoiding even a greeting from Gracia and her new lover, the former Nazi soldier Mr. Hughes.

"Why; why didn't you tell me, why did you do that to him?" she continued to ask; brushing himself off as he stood he turned to his sister with a scowl and eyes filled with guilt.

"Because I was ashamed I know him, I hid him from you and the rest of our family because I was afraid no one would like him, I didn't want his feeling to be hurt so I played the little games like this, I didn't mean to hurt him…" Alfons explained, his sister looked to be enraged now as she walked towards him.

"You honestly thought treating him like that would be funny! What's wrong with you!" she yelled; Alfons flinched at the sound of her voice before turning and walking to the car.

"Let's go home. We'll talk about it later…" he spoke as he got in waiting for her then soon driving away. Finally arriving at the apartment I removed my soaked clothes and set them to dry on the coat rack, making my way to the bathroom I drew myself a hot bath to warm my frozen body. Once it was drawn I pulled my suspenders from my shoulders before undoing my pants and letting them slide to the floor, wiggling out of my bright blue boxers I stepped out of them to undo my shirt and let it as well fall to the floor. Now nude I pulled the rubber band that held my hair so tightly in a high pony tail. Slipping into the warm bath I sighed softly as my body warmed and got used to the warm temperature.

Looking out the snow covered window perched on the high wall of the bathroom I couldn't help but wonder what it would be like if Alfons really did introduce me to his family and didn't treat me the way he did. It always hurt but he always failed to release just how painful his actions where, especially around Christmas. Sighing softly I sunk down in the warm water; the water rippled and shimmered around my body as I soaked in the warm waters of the bath. An hour passed before the water began to lose its warmth; standing up I lifted myself out of the tub before unplugging the drain and watching the water swirl before disappearing down the drain. Grabbing a towel and wrapping it around my waste I walked into the living in order to make my way to my room to get new clothes.

"Hello Edward…" a familiar voice spoke, flinching and blushing brightly I turned to face him. It was Alfons, but how did he find my apartment number, or even the building for that matter? Keeping hold of the towel around my waste he rose up and walked towards me; placing his hand on my shoulder as I stepped back against the wall he looked me in the eye before leaning forward and pressing his lips to mine; blushing brightly as his arm moved to wrap around my form as he deepens the kiss. Breaking the kiss the rested his head at the base of my neck to lightly nibble to at it.

"I'm sorry Edward…" he panted softly as he continued his actions, his hand sliding down to grab my wrist and hold away from my body, pinning my form to the wall as he did the same with the opposite wrist. I didn't move, nor did I speak, I didn't expect him to find me and none the less do this. Lowering his body he licked at my chest; holding my wrists as best as he could to keep me from resisting, he knew how I was about these things. I would always resist when it came as a surprise, sure my body liked it and the reaction was clear as it continued to grow from under the towel, making a tent like form appear. Smirking Alfons seemed to like my bodies reaction; letting go of my wrists he dropped to his knees before me, reaching up he gently pulled the towel from my form revealing my swollen length.

I blushed brightly as I saw Alfons lean forward ready to make his move; putting a hand on his forehead to stop him from it, a hand up to my face to almost try and hide myself from the embarrassment. Alfons looked at up me with a smirk as he gripped my wrist tightly and pulled it away from his head; struggling I continued to try to stop him before he pushed himself forward into my form and began to softly light at my length; closing my eyes and bighting my lower lip I continued to struggle, fighting against him.

"Stop struggling… I don't want to end up hurting you…" he spoke softly, leaning against the wall I slid to the floor, my legs spread for easy access. I continued to struggle and tried to push him away as he continued to lick and lightly suckle. I watched as Alfons unzipped his pants and pulled out his own swollen length, beating off to the current situation; it was clear that he came by only to use me for pleasure. It was obvious I wasn't in the mood for anything like this but he insisted that I perform. Sitting up, grabbing my wrist he flips me over into my rear was in the air and he was hold my arm against my back to keep me from moving.

"Don't struggle, it'll only hurt more…" he smirked as he sat up on his knees placing his length at my entrance. Spitting in his hand he rubbed it against his member to lubricate it before placing it back at me, pushing it in I let out a grunting yelp as he began to force himself into my body.

"Stop, it hurts!" I struggled trying to get out of his grip, merely smirking as he gained speed with each thrust, getting harder and harder. Letting out a soft scream as my body shook beneath him, Alfons didn't like that at all; glaring at me he reached back, gripped my hair tightly and pulling my head back.

"Shut your mouth Edward…" he spoke with anger, this position only made me hurt more, my beliefs and expectations where clear as day, he only came over to use me. Holding me there for a few minutes before shoving me into the wall, hitting my nose and causing it to bleed as my head hit against the wall. I could hear Alfons panting heavily indicating his climax was reaching, it was almost relieving to hear him pant and moan with pleasure, but now I myself had gone limp with discomfort and pain. Tears in my eyes as his thrusts got faster and harder; biting into my lower lip causing it to bleed to trying and deal with pain.

"Ahh… I'm gonna-..!" he cut off as he slammed harder into my rear I felt his seed enter my body quickly before Alfons pulled out, soft bits of blood from the forced entry remained on him. I lay there as Alfons let me go, slowly sitting up and standing, my hair hiding my tear stained face as my head hung low, walking to my room I shut and locked the door. Alfons watched as I retreated to my room, frowning he stood up and faced my door and began to yell.

"You coward, I should have known how big of a wimp you were from the start!" he shouted before storming out of the apartment and out of the building. I set curled up with my knees up to my chest in my bed, soft drips of blood staining the ivory white sheets. Leaning my head against the wall feeling used and pain as tears slide down my soft cheeks; I was oblivious to how Alfons was, even now I didn't know who he was anymore; him hiding behind a fake smile so he could just force his way with me.