I have known you my whole life. When you were ten you said you would make me your wife and eight years later you won me over just as I took the world on my shoulders. I got used to living without you, endless phone calls and dreaming about you. Always said that you were my meant to be, but I guess I was in love with your memory. You know I love you, I really do, but I can't fight any more for you. And I don't know, maybe we will be together again, sometime in another life.
I know I said that I would keep my word. I wish that I could save you from the hurt. Things will never go back to how we were. I am sorry I can't be your world. You know I love you, I really do, but I can't fight any more for you.
The way your holding on to me makes me feel like I can't breathe. Just let me go. It just don't feel right in side. God knows I have tried. You know I love you, I really do, but I can't fight any more for you. And I don't know, maybe we'll be together again sometime in another life.
His heart felt like it was sinking to the ground as he read her words. Things had been rough lately he knew that, but never once did he ever believe that she would really leave. They always got through the tough times. It was their thing. They fought for each other. But, it was clear as he looked at her words that she had no more fight left in her. He couldn't fight back the tears as he let the scrap of notebook paper hit the hardwood floor of what was their home. He built this place for her. Every little detail was hand selected by her. He had no way to escape her.
It was just one beer to wash the pain down. Then another when he saw their wedding picture still hanging on the wall in the living room. It was up to five by the time he found himself laying on the bedroom floor surrounded by all their pictures, those precious memories was all it had left. There was one tucked away in a box under the bed that he couldn't put down. They were standing in her front yard smiling as wide as they could be. She had a pink flower tucked in her hair and he had grass stains all over his white t-shirt. They were just children, innocent as could be, back before all hell broke loose in their life. As he looks at the American flag dress she was wearing he couldn't help, but to remember that day.
The sun was shining bright on the neighborhood block party. The residents of Rosewood took the Fourth very seriously. He was sitting under the oak in his front yard watching as the other children played with each other. He really didn't fit in, but she didn't seem to mind. Her family had just moved into the house next door a few days before. He knew that because his mother spent the whole day watching as the moving trucks unloaded their belongings. He wasn't sure what to do when she walked up and sat down next to him. "Want a cookie?" She asked as she held out a cookie decorated to look like a flag. He just smiled as he took the cookie from her.
"Thanks." He replied simply. He looked into her big brown eyes for the first time and knew he was in love. Even though no nine year old really knows what love is.
"Why are you all alone?" She asked as she looked over at the other group of kids running around.
"I don't have any friends." He replied.
"Oh." She replied as she looked at the other kids again. "Well, I am Aria and I will be your friend." She had a huge smile on her face as she reached out to shake his hand. "And don't worry about them. I saw Alison pick her nose and eat it."
He couldn't help, but want to kick himself in the face. How could he be so stupid? You don't meet the love of your life when you are nine. But, then he thinks about that first kiss and he remembers how he could be so stupid.
"TOBY STOP IT!" She squealed as she ran through her backyard as their parent's watched them carefully. That was the year that his mother left, but you couldn't tell that he was hurting at that moment.
"You dared me to and if I don't I will die." He replied as he chased her. Her long dark hair flew in the wind as she ran around.
"Who told you that?" She asked as she stopped in her tracks.
"Everyone knows that if you don't follow through a dare you will die." He said as he looked at her. "Plus you are going to have to kiss me sometime."
"What makes you say that?" She just crossed her arms over her chest.
"Well, you are going to have to kiss me if we are going to get married." He pointed out matter of factly as he looked at her.
"I am eight, I have better things to do than get married to you." She spat out at him. "Plus, why would you want to marry me anyway?" She asked.
"So, I can kiss you anytime I want." He said as he leaned in to kiss her. He hit her check because she moved her head, but that was perfect for him.
How could he be so stupid to let something so great slip out of his hands? They were perfect for each other. He knew it since he was nine. But, he was dumb enough to let it go. "You are such as dumbass!" He yelled as the beer bottle broke against the wall. The glass that covered the floor had a better chance of healing than his heart.
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She looked out the window of her best friend's kitchen. She watched as two blonde haired girls ran through the backyard. This was what they were supposed to have, but they couldn't make it work. Leaving may have been the dumbest thing she has ever done, but it was the right thing or she tries to convince herself it was. How could something that was right hurt her so much? Her heart was gone. There was just an empty space where it used to be. And she knows why that is. He was her heart. As much as she doesn't want to admit it. "How long do you plan on hiding out here?" She heard her friend's voice coming from behind her.
"Not long. I will probably head back to the city in a day or so. Find a hotel to stay in until I can get an apartment." She replied as she kept her eyes glued out the window.
"Aria, just go home. You two have been through too much to give up now. Caleb says Toby is really hurting. He just wants you to come home." She felt a hand on her shoulder.
"Hanna it's too late. Time to move on." She replied as she started to walk away. "I will be out of here tomorrow. I know Caleb takes Toby's side in this."
"There is no sides! YOU ARE STRONGER THAN THIS!" She knew there might have been a point to the words, but her mind was made up. No matter how much it hurt.
A/N: LYRICS TO THE VERONICAS IN ANOTHER LIFE AT THE START OF THIS CHAPTER. I DO NOT OWN ANY OF THE MUSIC THAT WILL BE USED IN THIS OR PRETTY LITTLE LIARS. I HOPE YOU ENJOYED THIS. PLEASE LET ME KNOW WHAT YOU THINK.
