Declaimer: All the characters used in this story, belong to Masami Kurumada, they are not mine!

The lost letter

By Core BloodDrinker

"Aioria:
I write this, because that's the way I feel. However, you may never receive this letter.

Is cowardice? No, I think that is simply the fear of losing your friendship and gain your indifference. But this feeling grew by leaps and bounds inside of me. But you never notice how I felt. You only look at me as your sister, as your friend. You don't look at me as a woman. You do not look at me, in the way I want.


At night I dream you are by my side and sleep in your arms and between kisses, you tell me that you love me. Noneless those are dreams, reality is quite another. There are hugs, but only fraternal, there are kisses, but only friendship's kiss.
For years, I've seen you train, grow and become the man you are today.

I love you, but it hurts me, it makes me suffer. This feeling is not shared, is a one-sided love. Without realizing, I gave you my heart. But the fault is yours, for being so kind, loving and for always protect me, for getting up the mood when I was sad and for loving me this way, which gives me empty hopes.

Do I find myself so lost? I can see your blond hair, your features and your blue eyes, in every face I see and hear your voice in unknown lips. Would I be going crazy?

My destiny is to love or hate the man that see my naked face, but I have loved you since the first time I saw you.

You are different from others. To me you're perfect; to my eyes you do not have any defects.

I don't want to feel guilty about what I feel, anymore. I don't want to shed more tears; I no longer want to suffer. I don't want to lose you, even when I never had you.
I admit that because I can't longer be satisfied with what I have. But perhaps, is time to say goodbye…"

"Wow" exclaimed Aioria after he was done reading the unfinished letter. He was sitting on a chair in the library's main campus. When he opened the book he had been reading he never imagined would find that letter, addressed to him…

"OH! Aioria…" Marin said. She had entered the room in haste.

"Hello Marin" He greeted "What happens? Are you in a hurry?"

"I'm looking for ……" The surprise was painted on the face of the Amazon, she was looking for the letter in the hand of the gold saint. The letter she had forgotten the previous day.

"…I was looking for Athena" She lied.

"Athena had to go to Asgard with the Bronze Saints, apparently something unusual is happening there" Aioria explained, as his eyes went back to the letter "I found this…, and it's addressed to me" He said in disbelief.

"Who would be so distracted?" She pretended to be surprised.

"It is not finished, nor signed".

"What a pity… Eh, I have to go" Marin said.

"Marin…" Aioria stood up. He had recognized the calligraphy of the letter. He never imagined that Marin had these feelings towards him. He loved her, but not as she wanted. He did not want to hurt her; he did not want to see her tears falling down her gentle face. She was the closest he had to a sister.

"Aioria?" Marin turned back to face him, she was nervous.

"Maybe is from some girl is the amazon's campus" He said "Can I ask you a favor? Could you return this the letter to it's owner? Tell her that you have found it. I do not want to break the heart of an amazon, you know that… ".

"… that the woman of your life has not come yet" She completed the sentence for him. She was twisting her lips, because that was the header speech of Aioria.

"Thanks" He gave the letter to her.

"You…you're welcome…" Aioria hugged her without notice. Marin remained motionless, that hug was different from the others.

"Forgive me" Aioria said in a whisper, almost as low as Marin barely heard it.

"Do I've told you how much I love you?"

"Yes" Marin felt tears filling her eyes.

"Have I ever told you that you're like a sister to me?"

"Yes" In vain she attempted to keep her tears from falling, because a tear rolled on his cheek. She understood the meaning of those words.

"I'll return to my temple" He said as he pulled away from Marin "Are you alright?" He asked to her, seeing that her teary eyes

"Ah? Yes, is just something that came into the eye" She smile

"Then come to dinner with me" He said when he was already at the door

"Ok" She said, pretending to be bothered, Aioria smile to her and left.

"He realized" She told herself, while looking the letter. She approached to the fireplace, which remained lit, recently was doing too much cold to be spring... She ripped the letter in two and then she threw it to the fire "Goodbye Aioria" She said with a melancholy smile.

She said goodbye to that feeling, to that love that could never be, and she welcomed to the only feeling that she could feel towards the gold saint: friendship.

…To be continue

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I must thank Celeron Red, she helped me to correct the fic