So this is my first Bella/Jacob fanfic.I hope thet I will do them justice. Please tell me what you think. I know I haven't updated any of my other stories but I've been suffering with a mild writers block.

I will try alternate between different POV's.

Enjoy, end review of course.

I own nothing, wonderful SM does.

The days have passed. I was still a danger magnet. After a near miss with Laurent I couldn't take it any more. I was too scared to take my own life but on the other hand I was already dead, after He left me broken.

I decided to take my college fund money and go to one place where I could find death...

The flight to Italy was long and boring. I was remembering all the times I spent with Charlie. My dad. I knew I would hurt him terribly, but by staying I would eventually hurt everyone I loved. I was too dangerous to be around.

I found Volterra with ease. I looked for a big castle. I didn't know where they lived, but a castle would seem fitting for royalty vampires that were Volturi. I was right, there was a Castle. I went to the reception. Pretty human woman was sitting at the desk. Gianna said her name plate.

"How can I help you?" Gianna said to me.

"I'm here to see Aro so he could put me out of my misery," I said and noticed how she stiffened at my words. Obviously as a human I'm not suppose to know about Aro. Gianna looked to the side and only then I noticed cloaked figure standing in the corner. He was huge. I caught the crimson in his eyes. Bingo I thought to myself.

"You, follow me," the voice said and I didn't dare do disobey.

After we passed the lobby we entered the elevator. We were going down. Then he led me through some long corridors until we made to a huge double doors. He opened them without any effort.

"Master?" my escort said to Aro who I recognized from Carlisle's painting.

"Welcome Felix. What are you doing down here? Oh, I can see that you brought us a snack" Aro mused, "but she won't satisfy all of us here." I looked around and noticed that indeed I would not do for seven vampires.

"She knows about us master; she wanted to see you specifically," Felix answered the old vampire.

"Well, well, nobody mortal asks to see us, unless they have a death wish," Aro spoke to me this time.

"That's exactly why I'm here," everyone looked with astonishment at me.

"Wait, don't do this yet father," the other vampire spoke and then he took Aro's hand.

"Very well then Gabriel," Aro spoke to the other one after he released his hand. "What is your name human?" he spoke to me again.

"Isabella but I like to go by Bella." I answered him politely. I had a feeling that my wish will not be easily granted.

"Bella, come to me dear I would like to read you," I raised an eyebrow at him. Crap, he will find out about the Cullens.

"I can read everything people have thought in their entire life by just touching them..." his hand was soft like silk and even colder than his. "Interesting... I think Gabriel you could be right in saving her after all. I cannot read her at all. Imagine what she could do when she is one of us," he trailed. Shoot, so eternal damnation instead, I thought wryly.

"Father, let me do it," Gabriel spoke and it was the first time I really noticed him. He was beautiful. Gabriel was about six foot five, had black thick hair which he kept in tidy ponytail. He was more muscular than Ed..., him but not as much as Emmett. He oddly reminded me of my Jacob. His dark crimson eyes held so much depth that one could drawn in them.

"Son, are you sure? She is your singer," what, what does he mean? I must have this question plastered on my face because Gabriel answered me immediately.

"It means that your blood is so sweet that it calls to me making you irresistible. But do not be afraid, I have millennia of practice and you will be safe with me."

"You may take her then. Where will you change her?" Aro asked his son.

"I take her to my room."

"So be it."

"Come on Bella," Gabriel said and I went with him. I felt suddenly at ease with him. Even if he was delivering death I would not be afraid.

It took a while for me to walk to his room. If he was impatient, he never told me so.

"Bella, you know what I am about to do, don't you?" I nodded in understanding. "But before I do this I want to ask you something. You obviously know a lot. You would have never learnt about my father all by yourself so please tell me..." he could see my hesitation. "Do not worry, I can keep a secret, my father can only read what I let him to," and I believed him.

I told Gabriel everything. All my memories I shared with him were his now too. I was at his mercy. By the time I finished I could not see through my tears. Then something happened that I have never expected. Gabriel took me in his arms and held me close. He comforted me until I stopped crying. His large muscular arms reminded me of Jake again, my very best friend. I wondered what he was up to.

Finally my sobs ceased. I wiped my face dry.

"I'm sorry you had to see me like this," I whispered to him, I could not find my voice any more.

He put his finger under my chin and lifted my face up to his and wiped a stray tear with his cold thumb.

"Don't be. I promise you will never have to cry again," he looked me in the eye. "Are you ready?" I nodded. Not trusting my voice. "It will hurt but I will be with you. You will not be alone ever again, understand me?"

"Yes," I breathed. Then Gabriel moved his lips to my neck. He lingered there a moment and I became completely still. He inhaled my scent.

"So sweet," he murmured so quiet that I almost missed it and then I could feel it. He bit into my neck and I could feel him draining my life out of me. When I was on the brink of darkness he pulled out. I could see his bright crimson eyes filled with pain.

"I'm so sorry," he mouthed.

"S-kay," I blurted out. When the fire started spreading from my neck I could feel another stab of pain, this time from my wrists and ankles.

The pain of burning was the worst ever pain I've ever endured. It hurt even more than my broken heart. I don't know how long I was screaming, thrashing and begging for death but after what has seemed like an eternity I could feel the pain receding from my toes and fingers.

"It's not long now my Bella. I'm here, I'm with you, you are not alone," that was Gabriel talking to me all the time. Suddenly my heart took off with frenzy. It was like a steam engine inside my chest. Then the pain got even worse and the fire in my chest got even hotter. After it seamed like an eon I felt no more pain, my heart stuttered once more and there was only silence.

I took my firs deep breath as an immortal. Everything was so much more intense. I opened my eyes and as he promised, Nathan was there with me. He was still holding my hand.

"You stayed..." I whispered. I still did not believe it.

"As I said I would. I will never ever leave your side Bella,"

"Isabella," I corrected him. He gave me a puzzled look. "Bella belonged to Ed-, him and to the past. Today I left my past behind me and I want to be known as Isabella now," or did I?

"Isabella, so beautiful..." he said my name like a caress. I looked down and thanked heavens that I could not blush any more.

"Come in," he said towards the door.

"Welcome to our world Isabella," greeted Aro.

"Hello," I simply answered.

"Do you mind if I try to read you again my dear?" Aro asked me.

"Yes, of course," and I gave him my hand. He cocked his head to the side and closed his eyes. After a second or so a small frown appeared on his face.

"Ah, still nothing. Did you get a read on her?" he asked Gabriel.

"No, I think she is a shield and a very powerful one at that."

"How do you know that about me?" I asked Gabriel.

"You see I don't really have one power, my power is all powers and I cannot read you, so you must be a shield. You are blocking me," he said with awe.

"Test Jane's power against her," Aro proposed.

"No!" Gabriel shouted in response.

"Why not, if like you said she is a shield, it won't do any harm," Aro continued.

"Do what you have to do," I said in a small voice. To be honest I had no clue what they meant by Jane's power.

"No, I will never hurt you. Jane can inflict agonizing pain with her mind and I have her power too. It's only illusion, but I will not do it to you," Gabriel explained to me.

"Do it, you have to test me somehow," I said with a brave face but on the inside I was anything but.

"Let Jane do it then," Aro said, "Jane my dearest, come to Gabriel's quarters please!" Aro shouted. With enhanced vampire senses she probably heard him.

After couple of minutes little angelic looking girl appeared in the doorway.

"Did you call me master?" she asked with a small bow.

"Yes Jane. You see, Isabella here is a shield and we would like to test that. We cannot read her so I would like you to have a try," Aro explained it to her. I could see that she would enjoy the torture she was about to inflict on me.

"No," was Gabriel again.

"Please, I will be fine, I promise. Go ahead Jane," I braced myself for the pain. I could see that the little vampire was concentrating hard but the pain never came. Jane let out irritated growl and gave up whatever she was doing.

"Impressive. You were right my son. By the way, you will start your training next week," and with that he and Jane left. I let out a breath I didn't realise I was holding. Gabriel squeezed my hand.

"You are incredible Isabella. You really are powerful," he mused.

"What did I do?" I asked him.

"Do you remember the pain of your transformation?" I nodded and swallowed a mouthful of venom. "That's what I thought. Our little Jane can inflict that very same sensation with her mind. I'm glad you are immune," he said to ma as he brushed a stray hair behind my ear.

"Good. At last I'm good at something. As a human I was tripping on air," we were both laughing. I was laughing for the first time in months.

"Hey, could you tell me what Aro meant by training?" I asked Gabriel.

"Well, first you will be taught how to fight. You know that the Volturi are sort of police force of the vampire world, so you have to know how to eliminate vampires and defend yourself. And second you will have to learn how to use your shield," he began to explain, "if I'm right you would be able to shield more people than just you, but we'll see."

"Will you be there with me?" I asked him, suddenly I didn't know why but I didn't want to be separated from him.

"Of course I will. As the best fighter I probably will be the best teacher you can get. But enough of my talking your throat must be killing you now. Let's go to the throne room, I believe Heidi is due to be back any minute now," he took my hand in his and began leading me out of his room.

I cupped my throat; sure it was burning as hell. Then I stopped as I thought about it. I remember the Cullens and that their diet was different.

"What's wrong?" He asked with concern.

"No, nothing, lets go." Yes, I would leave my past behind. I was not a Cullen; I never was one of them. I belonged to Volturi now and I would live by their standards. It was a natural way of sustenance after all.

When we reached the throne room people were flooding it. They did not realize that they would never see the daylight again. I made myself numb and just gave into my instinct. Gabriel was by my side all the time. After two people I was full and satisfied. Their blood was even better than hot chocolate as I remembered it from my human life.

"Ready to go back?"

"Sure." I said. I felt so dead. I was a living corpse after all. And then it all hit me like a freight train. I just killed two innocent people. I could not take it any more and I screamed at the top of my lungs. All the vampires in the room had a mask of horror on their faces after the whole castle begun shaking and cracks appeared in the walls.

I needed to see Aro and if he would not kill me I would make him do it. And then I remembered him. I will always love you Edward... And Jake, oh Jake... I let my best friend down.

"Isabella?" Aro put his hand on me and turned me around to face him.

"Just the person I wanted to see," I concentrated hard and lifted my shield as I touched Aro's hand. With the lucky chance I succeeded because Aro clearly didn't release my hand too quickly. After a few minutes he let me go and looked me in the eye. I was totally exhausted mentally from so much concentration. Good thing that vampires can't get a stroke. Sure as hell I would burst a vein in my forehead was I still human.

"Very interesting. I can give you what you want," he said with a sadness in his voice. I could not believe I was getting it so easily.

"It will be such a waste, such a terrible waste..."

"Gabriel!!! I believe Isabella here will require your services."

Edward, I love you. Jake please forgive me... And then it was only pain and darkness and then nothingness.

Sorry for the cliffie. So what do you think, why Aro is so keen to grant Bella her wish, or is he?

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