For All The Things I Left Unsaid

by JadziaKathryn

VERY short piece, kind of an experiment. Janeway at Chakotay's grave.

Disclaimer: They aren't mine.

FOR ALL THE THINGS I LEFT UNSAID

I'm sorry.

Of course it's too late for that now.

It was because I loved you so much that I let you go.

You suffered just as much as if I had hated you.

If I could do it all over, I would love you and let you love me back, regulations be damned.

I can't do it over, even if I found a way to travel through these miserable years. I was too stubborn. It would be the seventh year before I could convince myself, and by then it was too late for us.

As hard as I tried, I could never fill the hole in my heart where you should have been.

There was no one to blame for my pain but myself.

I dream of a life with you.

When I wake up, I face the nightmare of a life without you.

Thirty years later, you were still hurting.

Could thirty thousand years dull the pain?

I hope you've finally found peace, Chakotay.

I don't deserve it.