I've always wondered why I'm not a brave as the others. They can just face any enemy at any cost and it doesn't faze them or at least it doesn't look that way.
I know that my job is on the sidelines. You encourage, you support, and you cheer when things go right. People like to criticize me, say that I'm just Joey's clone; just someone that fills in space, the punk of the group. But I guess that just comes with the territory.
But what is so wrong with being scared? This is serious stuff that Yugi and Joey deal with. I wish that people would realize that watching is just a bad as dueling in it. I mean in the serious duels that I have seen, the fate of the world comes down to one duel, one move
And most of the time…
One draw
If Yugi doesn't have a good round, it feels like a little bit of the population has died. With every life point that he loses, somebody is getting weaker and losing their life and hope slowly. With that being said, can you imagine how it feels to be not even 10 feet away?
Its torture, especially since you know that if he loses, you will be one of the first people to die. I'm afraid to die…I don't know if it will hurt or if it will be quick, but I'm completely terrified. I don't understand how they are so certain that he will win every single time. I mean I understand that Yugi is the best; no one has beaten him yet, but everyone will have their day of defeat and I just don't know if today will be that day. Maybe that's why the pharaoh doesn't like me very much, because I don't have that unwavering confidence in him. But how can I after the whole Seal of Orachalcous thing? Yes he has made up for it and have right his wrongs, I give him credit for that because that is more than what Bakura would have done. But it proves to me that if it came down to it, he would sacrifice his own people to win. Joey and he are best friends and I have a strong feeling that Yugi is going to end up with Tea in the future; plus I think that the pharaoh and Tea have a connection. That might be reaching, but that's how I feel; I have no magic or connections to protect me, so I think if it came down to it, I think that he would kill me. I believe in him but I don't think that he would hesitate.
Does it make me a bad friend that I think about all of this?
Maybe it's because they have a special bond between the three of them and I feel like I'm out in the cold. Its like their is a barrier between me and them and the worst part is that I can't even be mad. They include me in almost everything and I chose not to give Yugi a chance the same time as Joey but at the time it felt like he took my only friend from me.
I'm used to being alone...
But I wish I didn't feel so alone.
Tea is nine times out of ten going to end up with Yugi, Joey looks like he is going to be with Mai and it looks like Duke is going to end up with Serenity. I think that just might be jealously, though it just looks like they all get everything so easily. Relationships, fame, power; I can't even get people to stop giving me dirty looks when I walk around the corner.
I understand why some people don't like me
I made my fair share of mistakes
I've accepted that no one is going to give me the second chance that Joey got.
But I just don't understand why I feel like I'm being punished for being a human being.