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THORNS

by Cairnsy


They say love is like a rose
if that is so then you were the petals and I was the thorns.
Delicate, dedicated, determined.
You were everything one could wish for in a younger brother,
it was I who was lacking.
How often did I take advantage of your loyalty
only to return it with the ultimate betrayal?
Trust. Or in my case the lack of it.
If only I had listened ... but it's to late for If only's.

I shielded you away from the limelight,
although I doubt it ever interested you anyway
I was too caught up in my plans, in my 'love' 
to notice that the one who taught me what love really was
was suffering.
Torn apart from a broken heart, tormented by your solitude.
I didn't want to share you
not with Petz, not with anyone.
So you suffered silently, you suffered alone.
A rose untouchable by others due to its thorns.

But thorns serve a duel purpose
not just to isolate, but to protect.
And I would have done anything to keep you safe
dear brother, anything.
You were my essence, my soul.
Everything else dimmed in importance in comparison.
Serenity. Revenge. Conquest.
They could never hold a candle to you.
Funny how it took your death to make me realise it.
You can cut the thorns of a rose and it remains beautiful and pure.
Yet without the flower, the thorns are useless.

I'm useless without you Saffir.
Lifeless, loveless, motiveless.
The only consolation is that I know that we will be together again soon.
You were the warmth to my coldness,
the light to my darkness.
The rose to my thorns.
Save me a spot among your bed of roses
I'm coming home.