Edward, I have to tell you something.
Jaclyn, Jackie Wackie
June 8th 2008
Days, weeks, months. How long has it been since that man touched me? Years? It's so fresh in my memory that it feels like it's happening now. But I know better. No way would he hurt me when I'm with Edward. Not while Edward is holding me warmly, even if he isn't warm, in his arms singing my lullaby.
Does Edward know? About that horrible night? The night where I died, the night that molded me into this-this zombie? I know I didn't tell him, I haven't told anyone. Just like he told me to. ' Don't tell a soul about this.' He had said against my bruised mouth. Of course, Edward didn't know. He couldn't know, who would have told him? Alice? No, she wouldn't have seen, because of him, that beast that I called friend. Alice's sight doesn't work because of him.
" Edward." I whispered. I was going to tell him. But I can't. No, what would he think of me. Dirty? Unworthy of the title of Mrs. Edward Cullen? I know I don't, but he doesn't.
" Yes, love?" He murmured in my ear. I felt a shiver go down my spine. A shiver of fear, but not because of what he did or said, but what it reminded me of. Him. That jerk, that soul stealer.
" I have to tell you something." I whispered. He pulled away from me, probably hearing the plea in my voice. He looked at me in my eyes.
" What is it Bella?" He asked, curious now. How do I say it? How do I say that horrible thing? It would ruin his idea of me, his ideal girl. The perfect girl.
" When I-" I stopped short as I remembered what happened.
I slowly walked over the invisible line that separated vampire turf from werewolf turf. I was visiting Billy, knowing now that Jacob was gone, hoping that he could shed some light for me. I turned to wave goodbye to Edward. He nodded stiffly to me through the window. I smiled sadly before I quickly walked to La Push.
" When I went to Jacobs, to see Billy, I-I-"
"Billy?" I called out in what seemed like an empty house. The door was wide open when I finally got to Jakes house. I immediately rushed into the house to see if Billy was fine. I had called ahead of time, telling him I would be there that day, to talk to him. Maybe he went out to the store or fishing. I told myself, trying not to worry for him. He's perfectly fine. I said to myself as I walked to the kitchen, then the small living room, then finally to Jacobs room. What I met in there, or should I say who I met in there, wasn't who I suspected.
" Billy wasn't there." I paused, trying to figure out how to say this. " But Jacob was there." I whispered, choking on his name. I closed my eyes, as I remembered.
" Jacob?" I ran to him. He was sitting on his bed, in a manner that looked like he was waiting for someone. For me? " Billy said you were gone!" I exclaimed as I embraced him. He hugged me back, but less gentle than other times. His body heat was excruciating! I started to pant from how hot it was, being in his arms. But when I tried to pull away, he held fast, even tightening his grip on me. "Jake, I'm getting too hot hugging you!" I argued with him, thinking he would let me go. Yet he didn't. " Please Jake. I'm hot." I complained. He still didn't let go.
" He pulled me down on to his lap, by then I was struggling to get away." I sobbed gently as I explained what happened next.
" Oh, Bella. I missed you." He said with a husky voice. I recoiled from his touch as he moved his hand down my back, toward my behind. " I missed you so much." He whispered into my ear. " So much Bella, that I had to come back. Just to see you." Again he whispered in my ear. Finally I felt a rough hand grab my butt. I gasped in horror. What was he doing?
" Jake, what are you doing?" I asked innocently. I really didn't know what he was doing, thought I had an idea, but would he, could he do that to me?
" Shh, now Bella. Be quiet." He moved his hand from my butt back to my back, where it went to my hair. He pulled my hair back, causing my head to snap back and I hiss in pain. His mouth then came down onto mine and took advantage of my open mouth. He stuck his tongue into my mouth and explored freely.
I did the only thing that I could think of, I bit down on his tongues, hard. He yelled in hurt and fury as he pushed me away.
" What the hell! You bitch!" He cursed at me.
Edward growled and I felt the lack of his body against mine. I opened my eyes. Edward was across the room, looking out the window. I couldn't see his face, but I could just imagine the anger on his beautiful face.
" What happened next, Bella?" He asked in a pinched voice.
I crawled away from him as fast as I could, but it wasn't fast enough. I felt a hand grab my hair, again, and pull. I screamed in pain as sparks of pain went through my skull and down my neck.
" Please Jake, don't do this. Just stop." I begged as the tears came down, free from my eyes. He didn't say anything as he tore off my clothes, tearing skin, my heart, and tearing my soul.
" Jacob Black." Edward hissed. " He's going to die. Tonight." I snapped my head to him, my eyes wandered while I spoke.
" Please Edward. Don't kill him." I started to sob silently. " Please." No matter what he did to me, he doesn't deserve to die. No matter what he did to me.
" Bella. He violated you. He took what you were going to share with me only, for the rest of eternity. And on top of that all he betrayed both of our trusts. I believed that he was going to protect you, and what did he do? Took advantage of you." Edward turned to look at me. " You are mine, and he touched you. He will die." Each of his words were said with a final tone, a vicious, menacing, venom filled tone.
" Don't leave me." I sobbed. I dropped my head into my hands and sobbed. I didn't hear him, but Edward crossed the room and wrapped an arm around my shoulders.