Hi everyone!

Thanx for checking this out. Hope you'll like it, I'm working on "Happily ever after?" at the same time, and I'm planning this to be a small project, with only a few chapters, but I hope you'll enjoy it.

It's not to the Galeniss fans out there, I think Gale is an okay person, but this story would be nothing without him like this…

Yeah, please, feel free to review! :D

"Catnip, are you here?" he asked me, when he stepped in to Minna's and Joel's house. I got scared and looked at Minna; she looked almost as scared as me. She knew that he would hit me when we got home, because I had told her, but we didn't talk about it, she was my neighbor and only friend.

"Yes, I'm here." I answered, trying to keep my voice strong. He comes in to the room and looks at us.

"I'm really sorry Minna, but I have to take my wife home with me." Gale said with a smile.

"Of course." She answered and looked away. I stepped up from the table and put my jacket on, when I got outside the door, I got scared. We walked home in silence, I didn't want to break the silence, and neither did he. When we got home I walked directly in to our living room, I heard him walking behind me and when I turned around to face him, he hit me in the face. First I got a little shocked, but I was used to it.

"You know you can't leave the house without me." He said to me, and took a step closer, I started to back off, but I hit the wall, he came even closer and grabbed my face between his hands, he made me look at him. He pressed his lips against mine, roughly. I hated it and tried to turn my head away, and felt that he hit me in the face again. I had no other option than obey. He started kissing me, and after a while he lifted me up and carried me to the couch, his hands were rough and violent when he ripped of my shirt, I couldn't do anything, because then he would hit me.

He more or less raped me over and over again, it happened almost every week, and I was used to that too, I was taking birth control pills, because he did nothing to prevent a pregnancy. I even got pregnant once, but I took some pills for that too. I didn't want children, and I definitely not wanted his children.

That night I was thinking, what if I would have chosen Peeta instead of Gale; he would never hurt me, never ever. Peeta was my dandelion, the boy with the bread, and I missed him so much. I wanted to see him again, but it had been three years, and he probably had moved on, maybe he was married, even had a child…

The next day when Gale went to work I knew what I had to do, I went over to Minna to tell her, when I came there she came to meet me.

"Hi, how are… your cheek, it's so red and your eye…" she looked at me, very concerned. "What did he do to you?" she asked.

"He hit me a couple of times and then he raped me…" I said quietly. She looked at me. "But that's one of the reasons I'm here." I said, "What do you think if I say I'm thinking about moving back to twelve?" I asked her. She looked shocked, but then she smiled.

"I'd say that you are a very smart person." She said and hugged me. I hugged her back and then I heard Ida and Melinda come in to the room. Ida and Melinda are Minna's and Joel's twin girls, they are 5 years old now, and they are almost always happy.

"Hi Katniss." Ida said and smiled at me.

"Hi girls." I said with smile.

"What has happened to your face?" Melinda asks and looks worried, I feel like their aunt sometimes, because I go there almost every day.

"Melinda! That's not very polite to ask." Minna said.

"No, it's okay. I walked in to a door." I said with a little laugh.

"You didn't see the door?" Ida asked and they giggled a little.

"I'm just really clumsy sometimes." I said. The girls smiled and started to walk towards their room. This family was the only thing I was going to miss from 2, but I would call them, because nothing could make me stay here with Gale anymore.

"What if he comes after me?" I asked.

"You'll be cared about and protected back home in 12." I had told her everything about Peeta and Haymitch, Minna knew all about Prim and my mother and basically she knew almost everything about me.

"I hope you're right."

"Are you going to call them now before you come?" It had been three years since I had heard from them the last time, three years since I had talked to anyone from home, I wasn't allowed to call anyone or meet anyone right now, hadn't been the past two years.

"Do you think I should?" I asked her.

"Call Haymitch, tell him that you're coming home."

"I will, but can I borrow your phone, because if Gale sees that I have been calling home…"

"Of course." I went to the kitchen and pressed in the number, I had it printed in my head, and I had no idea why.

"Hello?" Haymitch answered, he sounded drunk, but that wasn't a surprise.

"Haymitch?" I asked even though I knew it was him.

"Who is this?" he asked, he didn't recognize my voice, but I wasn't surprised, maybe thay had all forgotten me.

"It is Katniss…" I said; he got silent for a couple of minutes.

"Is it really you?" he asked.

"Yes, it me." I said and felt the tears coming to my eyes, just by hearing his voice.

"How are you sweetheart?" he asked me, and he honestly sounded concerned.

"Not good, I want to come home." I said and the tears started falling down my cheeks, I felt Minna's hand rubbing my back.

"Then come home." He said it like it was obvious.

"I will, but it's not that easy…" I said and my voice trailed off.

"And why is it so hard?" he asked me. I told him all about how Gale was beating me every time I did something he thought was wrong, or even if he had a bad day and came home and I was standing in the kitchen, he could hit me for 'standing in his way' Haymitch was silent and listened to what I was telling him, when I ended the 'story' he remained silent for a few seconds, I almost thought he had hang up, when he said;

"Your house is exactly where you left it, you are welcome back home." He said, and I got very happy.

"I'll come as soon as I can, maybe in the end of this week."

"Good, eh… Do you want me to tell Peeta?" he asked.

"No, please don't, I want to surprise him." In real I just thought I would disappoint him if he was expecting me, then he would expect to see the young, healthy woman that left a couple of years ago, but meet a hurt, beaten, peel woman with big dark bags under her eyes. "How is he doing?" I asked Haymitch.

"Eh… Quite good, he made it out of his house about a year ago, he has rebuilt the bakery, and…"

"A year ago?! What took him so much time?"

"You know, that boy really loved you, it took him a while to get over you." He said.

"But is he over me now?" I asked, I wasn't sure if I wanted to know the answer.

"Yes… he has a girlfriend." I should be happy for him, that he has moved on, I left him for Gale and all, but it feels wrong. I completely understand, but still I feel how there's coming more tears to my eyes, and they slowly runs down my cheeks.

"Good, that's good for him." I say, but my voice is shaky. "I have to go now, see you Haymitch." I said.

"See you sweetheart." He said. I turned around and fell into Minna's arms; she rubs my back and tries to calm me down while I'm crying. I don't even know why I am crying, it should be a good thing that Peeta has moved on, that's what I always wanted, but now I want him to be mine again, I want him to hold me and kiss me, and love, as he always did. Always. That was what he said to me, but I let him down, and it was nothing more than right that he went on with his life.

After a while I calmed down and explained it all to Minna, she didn't say anything, she was just there for me. I took a deep breath.

"I should not cry, I wanted this, I wanted him to move on and be happy, I anyway didn't deserve him."

"But it is understandable why you are feeling that way, he loved you and you two had a lot of memories together, and at some point in life, you loved him too…" she said. We sit there in silence for a few more minutes.

"I have to go, buy a train ticket now." I said when I saw that Gale would be home in two hours, and if he was early he would see that I wasn't home when he got there, and then he would beat me up when I came home.

"Of course, be careful, and take care of you." Minna said.

"I'll try to…"

"Don't forget to come here and say goodbye before you leave."

"Of course not." I said and left.

I went to town to buy the ticket. When I came to the train station there was an old man selling me the ticket.

"Hi, when does the next train to district 12 leave?" I asked him.

"There goes one tomorrow, but that train will make a stop in every district, and there will be one leaving in three days." He said.

"I would want to go with the one that leaves in three days." I said

"That's 250, please." I paid him the money and he gave me the ticket.

"But… I recognize you…." He said when I was about to leave, it wasn't a surprise, almost everyone recognized me. "You are the mockingjay, the girl on fire… what was her name again…"he mumbled the last part to himself.

"Katni…" he cut me off.

"Katniss, Katniss Everdeen."

"Yes, that's me." I said and tried to smile.

"I want to thank you, I'm from district 7, and my name is Elis."

"How nice to meet you Elis, but I'm sorry, I have to go now."

"Oh, of course." He said and smiled at me. When I walked towards mine and Gales house it started raining, I got home, and about ten minutes later Gale arrived, he got in to the house and stopped to stare at my hair.

"Have you been out?" he asked me.

"No… no I have just showered." I said, I saw in his eyes that he didn't believe me.

"With you shoes on?" he asked me when he saw that they were wet too. I just looked down at the floor. He came towards me and slapped me in the face, I felt a taste of blood in my mouth and it stung after his hit.

"You know you can't leave the house without me!" he screamed, but today I didn't felt like taking shit.

"And why not, I'm perfectly capable of taking care of myself!" I yelled back at him. He hit me again but now I slapped him back. I saw how his eyes were filled with rage when he started walking toward me.

"You would be nothing without me." He said and grabbed my wrist, he squeezed really hard and I yelled out in pain. I heard something crack inside of my hand, and guessed that something was broken.

Three days felt like a very long time, after our 'fight' I had to do something about my hand, I took some bandage and tried to fix it so it would support my hand a little so I could at least use it. It hurt a lot but I didn't care.

The morning of the day when I was about to leave I heard when Gale got up to make himself ready for work, he put some clothes on and then I heard him walk downstairs to make breakfast and then he would leave.

When I heard the door shut behind him I flew up from my bed and started packing my things, I put all my stuff down to different bags and carried it all downstairs. I went to the working room and pulled out a pen and a paper.

Gale

When you read this I have left you, I can't live any longer being beaten every day. I loved my friend Gale, the man I would go out hunting with on Sundays, the man who was like my brother and who I in the end fell in love with, but my feelings has faded through the years, and I can't live here any longer. I need to get out in the forest, and I don't belong here in district 2.

I'm really sorry Gale, but I'm going home.
Don't come to look for me, because I won't come back, thank you for the first year.

Katniss

I took off my ring and put it at the paper; I left them at the dinner table so that he would find them when he came home. And then I left. I run over and said goodbye to Minna, Ida and Melinda and then I made my way to the train station, away from district two, I was going home.

Yeah, first chapter, hope you guys liked it, please review what you think, and check out my other fanfic too (Happily ever after?) :D

It feels horrible to make Gale a person like this, and I know that he would never do this for real, but it had to be someone… Hope that you don't hate me ^^

LOL (=Lots Of Love) to everyone! :D

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