Reminiscences of Dawn
Linna Celestea Black

Chapter 1: Lost Perfection

He caught my gaze, and I turned away. I didn't like that look, it was too sad, too frightening, too real.

Our hands were tightly interlocked, as were our gazes. Tears welled up in my eyes as he then stroked my cheek with his fur-like features. I knew it wouldn't be the same. He used to me the one who'd catch me when I fell, who'd be there to protect me, but things weren't like that anymore.

"You know I have to be with her…" his tone was cold, and surreal. He only spoke that way when he spoke of the one he loved…he used to speak that way about me when he wasn't…when he wasn't like this. I didn't know how he could still be holding me like this though.

With a swift turn, he let go of my hand, and jumped off back to the house, my hand still in the same spot it was when his hand was in my hand. There was no reason to believe he would come back, no reason to believe that he'd realise that he had to be with me, so I dropped my hand, and myself.

Perfection wasn't so perfect anymore, and my outer strength wasn't as strong either.

"No…"

The sound was barely audible, but it was still there. I knew he couldn't hear me, but I hoped, I simply hoped that he'd come back. I didn't know whether to cry, to scream, or to follow after him, but the decision was made.

Sam was gone.

He wasn't coming back.

For me,

Or for anyone else.

He had made his decision.

And that was Emily,

not me.

Perfection was no longer there…it was buried deep in my covered heart. I hoped that Sam would come back, and the perfection would be in my hand once again, unless he decided not to come back…not to have me in his heart anymore.

I knew well enough that at this state, this time, that he wasn't coming back, but Sam was the one I desired…he never told me directly that it wasn't possible, but I always knew things wouldn't be the same.

Yearning, I dropped to the grass, finally feeling the warm tears sting my eyes.

Sam…

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The gentle sound of a beating heart wakened me as the moon arose in the midst of the night. I looked from left to right, but saw no one here who could have wakened me with his or her heart. Of course, there was a possibility of it being my heart that awakened me.

"Sleepy head, wake up," a voice boomed not too far behind me. I knew the voice, but I couldn't put my finger on who it was.

"Jacob…what do you want?" I hissed, turning my head to look at him.

His eyes were solemn, but that was easily concealed, a sharp grin lively viewed.

"Heard Sam finally spoke…"

I rolled my eyes at him.

"I already knew he was with Emily…" I muttered, stating the obvious. Jacob pursed his lips but then shrugged, nodding.

"True, but never did he say it to your face," he objected, and I felt the sudden urge to slap the poor wolf. "And words hurt much more than his silence."

"I actually preferred the silence."

"My point proven."

"Jacob, what do you want?"

He stood up, and I did the same. Walking to my side, he patted my shoulder and whispered a small statement.

"Forget him…do whatever you can to forget him Leah…it'll only help."

With that, he walked off.

I then realised Jacob and I were much more alike then I had ever realised. We both felt it, that dark pain in our cores. I then followed after him, smiling.

Writer's Comments:

Of all pairings, Jacob x Leah are most definitely my favourite, with Jasper x Alice in close second. Now I've always wanted a look inside Leah's mind, and I see her so much like Jacob, just much more...exotic and spunky I would say. There are a couple of pictures that I see Leah as, and if with Jacob, it would seem relatively nice couple.

Now this doesn't necessarily have a certain time frame, but on another note, I might remove Renesmee from the entire series, or just let her come at the end. I have a good idea for the plot as well, including the imprinting, and a different change.

All reviews are accepted, thank you!

Sincerely,

Linna Celestea Black