I'm a fool. A damn fool. The adrenaline that once filled my veins is all but present. I stared into those emerald eyes that held in them a storm of fiery passion.
They had a hue of fear and pain, the same hue her eyes had when I tried to be something I wasn't. Her eyes caught a hint of happiness and hope when I revealed my true colors and ran. I'm a coward. A damn coward. I was content with this shitty life as long as they were safe. All three of them but especially him. I had to keep him safe for Grisha and Carla. I was content with being a useless drunk soldier, as long as I could hear Armin tell them stories about the outside world, watch Mikasa protect and love them wherever they went, and feel Eren hit me for being a useless soldier or congratulating me for being sober which wasn't often. I was content and happy with this life.
I felt pressure on my waist but no pain rippled through me. Only a coward would die with no pain, no suffering. I look towards him one last time and in the moment my eyes met his, I felt a sensation flow over me. Even as the veil of death was covering me I was content. I knew that they would be okay. I remembered the first time I held his small hand in mine and I remembered the joy I felt. He would be okay, I smiled under the massive finger covering my mouth. I was able to call myself his friend, I loved him so much. I was the luckiest son of a bitch in the whole world. I closed my eyes, his face the last glimpse of life I saw. I was content.
Author Note: This is Rocky's brother. I am borrowing her account to write this. This is my first fanfic ive written so please excuse the extra commas and grammar errors. I like Hannes a lot and wanted to write about him. Thank you.