Because She Loved Him Too Much
'Say it Ana' Christian commanded.
'Please Christian, I need you' Ana murmured, her voice slick with desire.
He spanked her hard with a riding crop, making her eyes water.
Ana bit her lip hard enough to draw blood, to prevent herself from screaming.
'I believe I told you to call me sir!' Christian growled as he claimed her neck.
'Please sir, I need you' Ana moaned in pain and pleasure.
He thrust roughly into her from behind and the air was filled with gasps and moans and the sound of skin slapping against skin.
When he was done, Ana limped towards the bathroom to take a warm shower before they had dinner together.
Ana didn't care how rough he would be or how much pain she went through when he toyed with her body in his playroom.
She was used to his roughness now. She had grown to like it and surprisingly she didn't hate herself for that anymore. He was the man who had claimed her virginity. He was the one she had ever been with. This was the only sex she knew now. She craved for his touch. She craved for his lips to be on every part of her body.
There was no love in whatever they were doing. It was just a hungry, raw need. But this need evoked a certain illicit desire inside her. She just couldn't have enough of him. A few months earlier such raw perverted acts would have scared her but now she had somehow go used to them because she loved him. More than anything else.
Christian Grey was everything a woman could dream of - Rich, handsome and amazing in bed. But he carried one deadly secret which nobody knew about.
Sometimes Ana had a strong urge to burn the contract and run away to a place where he wouldn't find her. But she knew she could never bring herself to actually do it. She loved him too much.
Sometimes she would stand in front of the playroom door, silent tears streaming down her cheeks.
It was one of those times when she missed her old life terribly and all the silly romantic fantasies which she had dreamed of fulfilling with Christian - Candlelight dinners, long drives, loving and passionate sex...
She was supposed to fall in love and be loved in return. She was supposed to get married and raise kids but instead here she was; acting as her lover's slave and fulfilling her lover's sadistic needs.
Christian had told her that she was free to break the contract any time and back out if she so wished. But deep down, Ana knew that it would leave Christian heart - broken. And maybe he wouldn't see her so often. Ana certainly didn't want that to happen.
She couldn't cry over her old life because it would make her Christian look violent, hostile and detestable. And Christian could never be violent, hostile or detestable because she loved him too much.
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