Disclaimer: The song What If purely belongs to the Cheetah Girls, even though I don't like them.
He was trying hard to clear his thoughts after the whole ordeal with Thrust. He was giving him an opportunity of a lifetime, but Starscream wanted to weigh out his options. If he went with him, he would lose his chances of ever becoming true friends with any of his new comrades. Alexis…she had already started weaseling her way into his spark, no matter how cold or dark that place was. Ever since they sang together, something was happening; something was changing, deep inside. He didn't know what to do anymore. Alone, he started to sing to himself.
"Maybe this was meant to be. Maybe now it should be me. Been dreaming of this forever, but I'm feeling so confused. It's hard to see what's right. Between you and I and I don't know what to do. Oh we'd stay together always is the promise we made. But suddenly it's not so clear and I'm being pulled both ways".
Starscream stood up, but kept his head down as he continued his song.
"And it's breaking my heart. Tearing me apart. It's impossible to choose. What if I don't try? What if I do? Everything that I dreamed right in front of me. If I win what would I lose? How could I learn to quit wondering what if?".
Now he started walking around, but still singing out his thoughts.
"Things would never be the same. Maybe that's the price of fame. Been waiting on this forever. It's close enough for me to touch. But if I don't go for it, will I always regret? Is it worth us breaking up? Oh we'd stay together is the promise we made. But suddenly it's not so clear and I don't know what to say".
Alexis and the others would probably be on his mind all the time. He knew at least Alexis would be. She would be on his mind, in his spark, everywhere. She was his only true friend.
"And it's breaking my heart. Tearing me apart. It's impossible to choose. What if I don't try? What if I do? Everything that I dreamed right in front of me. If I win what would I lose? How could I learn to quit wondering? What if I would've tried? I could shine, even fly. I don't wanna realize after it's too late, no, and see it all pass me by. If I do, if I don't will I ever really know what the future could hold before it slips away? Could be the chance of a lifetime...".
It did break his spark, the thought of him leaving. He didn't want to abandon any of his new friends now that he had them.
"And it's breaking my heart. Tearing me apart. It's impossible to choose. What if I don't try? What if I do? Everything that I dreamed right in front of me. If I win what would I lose? How could I learn to quit wondering what if?".
He stopped moving for a minute when he saw Alexis outside, watching the sunset. Starscream whispered the last part of his song.
"I never want to say" he gazed at Alexis, "What if".
"Huh?" Alexis asked as she noticed him.
"Nothing Alexis. I'm just thinking".
"About what?".
"Many things….Mostly about you".
"What about me?".
"Just about all you've done for me…Thank you".
"You know it's never a problem".
Again, the smiling started, just like they had when they sang. His song was right. He never ever wanted to wonder what if ever again.
Author's note: Yeah, I heard this song and saw the episode in which Starscream was given the offer by Thrust to form an alliance with him. This is based on that episode. This is awesome. Thank you for all those who review my fanfics.