Knives: Another Day
By: M.A.Blake
Disclaimer: Don't own a thing.
In the beginning it was all so simple. Kill the spiders to save the butterflies. Then when Vash added his corrupted logic, suddenly it got complicated. When he took me into his home to help me heal, he made sure I knew the price. He made me listen to the words that he's been trying to say for at least a hundred years , and I' m second guessing all the things I've every done, from killing a bug to destroying entire towns.
I don't believe in my cause anymore. All of the things I've every done that I thought were right, everything I had so much faith in, everything I worked so hard to get, it was all in vain. IN VAIN! I have nothing to live for, and I have nothing to die for. The very thing that I had fought so hard for no longer made as much sense as it used to. Vash keeps telling me to forget about all the horrid things I've done, but remember the lessons and move on. But how can he say that when doesn't believe follow that himself? How can he say that when all he thinks about is the past and all the awful things he did? That's why he refuses to tell the short spider of his feelings. He fears that his past scares her, because he already fears it himself. So he just keeps it all inside. But when he tells me these things the look in his eyes is true, and the way his mind cries for me to do it is true too. bed and wait for my thoughts to clear.
I will lie here and not let his ideas make me weak and soft as they have him. But when all I have is time to think what else am I supposed to do? I will sleep and pray, to the God that the humans believe so faithfully in, that I will not awake to see another day.