Dedicated to my Isy (listeningtosilenceandmemories) and my Chilli Pepper (they say that i'm crazy) for being generally amazing and awesome. I love you guys

Also dedicated to everyone who's ever been there for me. There's always someone out there who will listen to you.

I'm not strong enough, Papa.

I'm sorry, Papa, that I'm weaker than you. That I can't find the strength to do it.

Every day, I hear the cries of my fellow students.

"Look, there goes the school whore!"

"Watch out, she'll steal your boyfriend!"

"Does her skirt shrink every single day?"

"Who's betting she's off to do some man hunting?"

It hurts, Papa. It hurts when they say all those things.

(I thought family was supposed to stick together.)

Papa, you know that I didn't do it. You've been watching over me, Papa, I know that and I know that you saw I didn't do it.

I could never do that to someone. Not after everything that happened in our family. Maybe that's why she blames me so easily.

(I thought family was supposed to stick together.)

I mean, for Merlin's sake, he's nearly seven years younger than me. I'm not a cougar, or whatever people deign to call me. And he's not exactly my type either, especially because he's taken.

Teddy believes me. I know he does. People in my situation would doubt that, but what Teddy and I have is different and we would never lie to each other. I wouldn't lie to him about what happened and he wouldn't lie about trusting me.

My boyfriend believes me, but my own sister doesn't. Dominique thinks I kissed him. Merlin, I wasn't even at that party. I was in the kitchens, baking with the house elves. You know that, Papa, you were there. Can't you tell Dom that?

(I thought family was supposed to stick together.)

I'm pretty sure that Louis isn't even aware of what's going on. He's not been himself since you left, none of us have. Maybe that's why Dom is choosing to believe Scorpius over me.

But, Papa, I wish Louis would do something. I'm scared, Papa, because he's so lifeless and I know he's hurting but I'm hurting too and I just want my brother to protect me because my sister won't. Because my sister is the thing I need protecting against. That's pretty fucked up, isn't it?

Either way, the only thing I have now, apart from Teddy, is this pain. No one in the family believes me, not even Rose. Not even Teddy is enough to make me want to stay, because he's never around.

(I thought family was supposed to stick together.)

-But our glue wasn't strong enough-

Papa, I miss you. There are obvious reasons why you did what you did, but Mama is distraught. Everyone is. It wasn't your time, Papa. It wasn't Uncle Charlie's either, and without you he wouldn't still be here. Papa, is it selfish of me to wish it hadn't been you?

Papa, please give me the strength. Give me the strength to get rid of the pain. It hurts so much, Papa.

I didn't kiss Scorpius. I didn't betray my sister, or any of my family. But they've all betrayed me and now all I want is for the pain to go away and to see you again.

I'm not strong enough to keep living, Papa. But I'm not strong enough to take my life away either.

Please, Papa.

Sorry, Mama.